I have seemed to notice that it's the jobs that I apply for that I don't really care all that much about is where they tend to give me a call back. Take Waterstone's for instance, I applied for that job over a week ago now and I still haven't heard from them. I guess I shouldn't really expect much, people have taken longer to reply to me.
Anyway, I'm super stoked for this interview. I know what I did wrong last time, and hopefully I won't fall into the same traps as last time. I'm really hoping to get the job. So, hopefully luck is on my side for atleast that one hour that I'm being interviewed. Hopefully luck is on my side for the whole experience... but you know.
It's just that I badly need a job and this the first thing to come up positively in a while.
Hoping everything goes well, this is Do You Remember Me? Chapter 10.
Chapter 10.
“Why?” The petite looking blonde woman asked. She had short hair, and a long dress on. She looked pretty wealthy from where I was standing. The question was directed at me. I didn’t know who she was, so I didn’t really know how to answer her. I didn’t want to upset her anymore.
“Julie, please. Can’t you tell this is hard enough for Danny as it is for you?” Maggie reasoned.
“Of course it’s not as bad. He doesn’t even remember them! How can he know anything of what we’re feeling?” The woman known as Julie screamed.
“I do have feelings too, you know.” I said, looking at the floor.
“You don’t remember them! How can you feel anything about them?” Julie screamed at me.
“Why should I have to explain myself to you? It’s not my fault I came back!” I shouted. I couldn’t help anyone. I wasn’t helping anyone. It was just one stupid theft, one stupid agreement, I wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for that. I could have been back in the abandoned shop with John, I could have been smoking a load of pot. I wouldn’t have cared and I wouldn’t been so bothered about trying to remember who I was before. It doesn’t matter to anyone here who I’ve turned into now. They don’t want me, they don’t want Jeff, they want Danny. A Danny I can’t offer them. I don’t know who Danny is.
“I’m Hayley’s Mother! How could you just have left her like that?” And now I was apparently to blame for all this mess. A mess I don’t remember.
“I’m going to my room.” I said storming off. Slamming my room door as I got there.
“How could you have said such a thing to him?” Jamie shouted.
“How could I? You’ve got everything you wanted back. Danny’s back. I’ve got nothing. They don’t even know if she’s alive anymore.” Julie was on the verge of tears now. Her husband, Michael, stood on the sidelines, adorning a hard face. He wasn’t going to say anything though. Verbal confrontations weren’t his style.
“He didn’t come back. Not necessarily. He doesn’t even know who he is! Can you imagine what that’s doing to him, let alone us.” Jamie stared hard at the woman in front of her. “At least we never gave up on him.” She’d said it with such spite, she didn’t think of the consequences it would have on the family. “We just want them back too. I want to pretend that none of this ever happened.”
Julie stayed silent, a single tear rolled slowly down her face, disturbing the precisely put make up.
“We all want them back. Danny’s the key to all of this. We’ve found one, finding the others will be easy.” Jim said, trying to give hope. It wasn’t working. Hayley’s family, Julie and Michael didn’t believe her.
“And what’re we supposed to tell Jesse’s parents? There’s nothing we’ve got that’ll lead us to them? We’ve probably lost them forever?” Julie asked silently.
“No, we haven’t lost them forever.” I said from the top of the stairs, a silent determination in my voice. “I’ll get them back –”
“Danny…” Maggie sighed. They hadn’t realised I’d heard them.
“I’ll find them. I’ll do everything in my power to find them. I won’t let them just be forgotten about. I won’t stop till I find them.” There was a quiet promise in my voice. I knew I’d won them over. For know.
There was just one whole in my plan. I didn’t have the faintest idea where to start looking.
It was dark before I allowed my mind to rest. I’d been thinking since the family had gone home about how I was going to get my friends back. I’d asked Maggie if I’d had a picture of them. Something I could memorise. ‘Maybe it’ll help me remember’ I’d told her.
“You don’t have to do this, Danny, you can let other people do it. Nothing’s expected of you.” Maggie tried reasoning with me.
“You don’t understand. There’s something nagging at me. Telling me I should go and look for them, I need to go and find them.” I’d replied with determination.
“Why won’t you let us help you?” She asked, her voice quiet. “We can help you.”
“I never said you couldn’t help me. It’s just something I need to figure on my own at the moment. I’ll let you know when something happens.” She didn’t want to let me go. She didn’t want to lose me again. I could tell that much, it didn’t take an idiot to see she was scared for me. I didn’t need her to be scared for me though.
She’d eventually agreed to me. I didn’t know how to explain it to her. I needed to find out about me, I wanted to, but something was keeping me away. I didn’t know whether it was myself or something else. I was having to constantly live with the feeling of someone else, that someone else was there with me. That maybe something was watching me.
I needed my memories back, and fast. I’d felt a strange urgency since the promise to find my friends. The friends I’d never met.
I knew I’d disappointed them just by forgetting about them. I’d never be able to repay them for the hurt I’ve caused them now.
I changed out of my clothes, and changed into my pyjamas. I’d smoked a joint whilst thinking, to calm my nerves. It helped a lot more than I thought it would. Sleep didn’t take long to welcome me into it’s embrace.
“Where is it?” A harsh voice shouted out to me, grabbing me roughly by the arm.
“I don’t have it!” I replied defiantly.
“You have it. I know you have it. Tell me where it is.” The voice demanded.
“If I had it, I’d never give it to you.” I shouted. “Not now, not ever.”
SLAM! I saw stars as I retracted my head from the wall it’d been smashed into. I didn’t bother to check to see if there was blood there. I could already feel it dribbling down the back of my neck.
“Where is it?”
“I don’t have it.”
SLAM!
“Tell me!”
“I don’t have it.”
SLAM!
“You have one more chance before I end you’re pathetic existence on this planet.”
“I’ve told you once, I’ve told you a million times! I don’t have the tome, or anything for that matter.”
SLAM!
“DANNY!” I heard twin voices shouting to me, I looked over and smiled. Everything went black.
To be honest with you. I expected this chapter to be a bit longer, but I have started to get things turning inside my head plot wise, and this is the first shot at the memories that are going to start coming. So, next chapter, I think I might do the first therapy session. I've got a few things to tweek about Danny's personality first. He seems a bit too submissive for what I'd been hoping for. But it's all good, it's nothing that can't be fixed in the short term. I've also planned on having Danny sent back to school pretty soon. I'll have him studying and catching up with people his age, and then putting him back into the classes. That's going to be quite fun, though, it's probably only going to be pretty brief.
Hoping that everything will turn out okay, I shall leave you with just one message.
Night!
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