My blog post yesterday was very depressing. I was really tired. There was no call for me to say things like that... I just have random moments like that where I feel insanely depressed. Things like that just happen to me.
So I've been doing a lot of thinking since then, which made me realize that what I said was out of line. Though I will defend it and say that a blog is where I put my true feelings. I know it's a public blog. I don't deny that. I just blog because I love blogging. It's a chance for me to express what I'm feeling. What I've done that day. Say what I feel is awesome, and what's not so awesome. I can't really apologize for what I was feeling. It's just something I'm going to have to learn how to deal with and writing about it is a way for me to learn how to deal with it.
I guess yesterday was just a tense day. My parents went up to see my uncle. Remember? The one that's dying? Yeah, well, I'm still not sure how I should be feeling at the moment. Or consciously I don' know how I feel, but really there's a lot more going on in my head that I know and what I was saying yesterday is just something to show that.
I know I should probably get help, right? But it's not that bad. I can deal with it. I have for so long now there's no real point in saying anything.
Anyway. To look on the bright side of things. I've been invited to a wedding... in Greece... in 2015. I'm actually looking forward to it. I don't know the couple personally all that well. But Sara, my sister does and they want me to come too, apparently. Sara is obviously really excited. I'm excited too, but I don't want to you know. Be a bit of a burden. We don't know each other very well and I don't want to spoil their special day by being there.
But they're insistent according to Sara. I can always view it as a nice holiday, right?
Not much more to say really.
So I'll see you some other time. Mainly tomorrow...
Night!
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