The idea of going to University

Becomes more and more daunting as the days go on. I mean, it's only now truly sinking in that we're going to University next year. I'd never admit it to my friends, but I'm really starting to get scared.

One of the main issues with me is that I won't make friends. I'll admit it, I'm socially awkward, it's probably due to bad childhood experiences, but it's really hard to get over the fact that I'm really, really nervous around people. I just don't know what to say. It's like I'm mute sometimes. It just takes me a while to open up to people.

It frustrates people, I know, that I'm not as conversational as 'normal' people are. I'm not exactly a conversation-starter either, I just add my two cents whenever I feel like I need to.

So, making friends is usually the main fear I have. I mean, I hear that you make friends like immediately, but I'm not sure I will. It's a self-conscious thing I guess.

Moving on...

So, another daunting task with Universities is choosing the right University. So, Birmingham has always been my first choice for  a while. Kingston now comes up in close second. I'm sending away for Scholarship information with Aberystwyth and Bangor sounds pretty good too.

But then there's the fact that I have like 5 more prospectuses to come through yet and I could just prefer all those 5 Universities and... Gah. So, I can't really say which ones I really want to say yes to or not yet...

But anyway, apart from all this University madness, I have a full school life to be worrying about. I have loads of essays to be doing and a load of reading to be doing. I feel like my life is currently getting steam-rolled over. At least by July next year all my worries will be over and I won't have anything to worry about. Until August comes around of course and then I have University to worry about all over again...

But anyway...

As you can probably tell, my stress levels are pretty high...

Night!