My last blog post

As a sixteen year old. Tomorrow I turn 17, and I'm not exactly sure I'm looking forward to it.

You see, birthdays to me are quite depressing occasions. It's basically a year closer to your death, so why should I celebrate it?

Most people reply to me with, 'well, your celebrating the years you've had on the planet now.' And, to me, 17 is old. Soon I'll be 20, 30, 40, and hopefully I won't reach my 50s, I don't plan on living that long.

I have some sort of issue with growing old. I'm sure when I do reach that age, or if I get close enough to that age and I'm clinging on to life by the string I'll regret these words and I'll laugh at how immature I was when I was posting this.

Dependent of course that blogspot still exists by then, maybe I should start saving all my blogs to a document. For future reference. It could be funny to look back on them...

I save all my conversations with Sadie on a MS word document.

Have I mentioned Sadie before? Sadie's my penpal. She comes from Texas and I find her probably the only person in the entire world where I feel I can say my problems and not worry about the reaction. She's one of my closest friends, my closest that I've never met anyway. Not literally anyway.

We met on fanfiction, and we still talk through fanfiction. We talk about anything. Ranging between life, jobs, etc etc. It's a good thing and I find that's it a way for me to get rid of unwanted feelings.

I love talking to Sadie and I look forward to our talks.

Anyway, I don't have much more time as I am going to go to bed now for the last time as a sixteen year old.

Hopefully the 17s will bring me more look. Job wise, school wise, relationship wise. Hopefully my life as a 17 year old will be better than the one I'm currently living.

So even though I have quite a negative view on getting older, it doesn't mean I can't look forward to the possibilities it could hold for me.

See you tomorrow, when  I'm 17.

Night!