I have noticed...

That even though this is the second time I've used this title now, there seems to be some sort of pattern to the way I seem to be blogging.

It starts off pretty short, right? Like a couple a sentences a blog. Nothing big, and I didn't really care that they were short blogs then. Then as time goes by the blog seems to lengthen and I seem to get into the mindset that I have to have long blog posts or something bad'll happen. Though I have no reason to think that because no one really reads this blog in the first place.

Then, it sorta dies down and I start making excuses as to why I can't blog today. Then it gets longer again. Short. Long. Short. Long. You catch my drift?

Though one things seems to be quite common about my blogs in particular and that's my ability to moan.

I will admit, I'm a pessimistic person by nature, sarcastic and really has no faith in life. I seem to come across as desperate at times too, like for instance the begging for a job. The random bouts of depression. I never really seem to look at what life really is. I just look at the negativity and what is only in front of me.

Which probably makes me seem quite ungrateful.

Honestly, I am grateful for the life I have, and like most other people there are things I would like to be different. But that's something that's out of my control to handle.

Then there seems to be the excuses.

Excuses are something I seem to give daily on my blog, especially as of late. Mainly ones about why I can't be blogging. And as I write this, I seem to wonder to myself, why do I say such a thing? I write here because I live to, I hate making excuses, and I hate the fact that I never seem to have time to blog here.

But then comes the opposite where I think in reality I do have time, I just get distracted along the way. I'm an easily distracted person.

Hence, that I think for some reason this is a small blog, well in comparison to some people's blogs I've read this isn't even the tip of the iceberg, but I feel like I've written more than them in terms of the fact that I blog everyday.

Remember when I said about copy and pasting my blog to a word document? Well, I did that, which is the reason why I'm writing about my blogging patterns, and I never realized my blog had become so long! I've written at least 350 pages of word document now! Isn't that amazing? Of course, I haven't put any of the latest blogs on there year, like from about 3 days ago I finally finished it. But I'll do that over half term.

Half term is something that has finally come for me! After today I don't go into school for at least another week. I feel so relaxed now, I can take a few days off, no revision to unwind do some reading and then get back to everything. I'm going to the cinema's on Wednesday for what seems like the first time in forever. When in reality it was only like 2 weeks ago. I'm going to see Robin Hood. Hopefully that film lives up the hype. Then I'm going shopping with my friends. I haven't been shopping with my friends in forever and I think we as a group of friends could benefit from this activity.

Anyways.

See you all tomorrow. I'm going to continue with Monsters of Men. I haven't stopped reading it since I came home today. I love the Chaos Walking series!

Night!