Wednesday, 7 July 2010

I seem to be

Doing a lot of original writing at the moment. Not that I'm knocking it. I'm quite happy about it. I've decided for some reason that everyday I'm going to write a new chapter so I can post it up here. Sound good to me and how short the chapters are at the moment it shouldn't be too hard. Hopefully I'll actually have a first draft ready soon. That would be good, a completed first original story. Then I can focus on my fanfiction and get that finished so I can work more on my other stories.

So, I'm finally getting used to work at WH Smith, now that I'm finally passed the halfway mark. I'm not too sure if I'd like to work there personally. Some of the staff aren't exactly nice. The bosses in particular are just pricks. I can punch their lights out for them. Then this one supervisor Elaine. I feel like I could throttle her on occasions too. She seems to get really pissed off about the smallest of things. Patience, man, I'm new how am I supposed to know some of the things she's going on about. Things I should and shouldn't do.


Oh, well. At least I'll be getting something out of it. Retail experience. That always looks better on the job application, right?

Moving on. My sister finally decided to tell Mam and Dad that's she's talking to a boy over the internet. She hasn't told them that she's dating this particular boy yet. It'll all come out eventually. I've been alloted the place of guard. Look after her whilst she's on there. Tried that and failed. They'll probably hate me for finding that out.

Moving on again. I don't want to dwell on the small things.

This is Chapter 5 of Do You Remember Me?


Chapter 5

I was shoved through the doors to the inspectors room. It wasn’t exactly his room. It was a small room with a table. Four seats. Two on one side, two on the other and a tape recorder in the middle. There were a lot of posters along the wall.
            “Sit.” The officer said and left the room. I did as I was told and waited for the inspector to turn up.
            I didn’t have to wait long, a few minutes after arriving a stout man came into the room. He had a full frontal beard.  It wasn’t long, it was trimmed back short. He had dark brown eyes, and a messy head of hair, that was greying in places, you could see reminiscent patches of black hair. Lastly, he had a pair of glasses perched on his nose.
            “My name’s Inspector Malcolm. You are?”
            “Jeff.”
            “See, that’s how I know you’re lying. Danny, why didn’t you come to us? We could have taken you to your family.” I think he was trying to get to me. My names not Danny it’s Jeff.
            “My name’s Jeff.”
            “Danny. Come one, we’ve been looking for you for nearly a year now. What happened?”
            “I don’t know. I woke up in some ranch house a few days ago.”
            “And the drug man you’ve been working for?”
            “He’d kill me if I told you.”
            “You don’t have to worry about that now. You’re with me.”
            “I do. I live with him.”
            “Danny, you live with your family. We’ll take you back to them.”
            “I thought I was here because I was caught thieving.”
            “An anonymous donor has paid your bail. You’ll sit a trial.” He said, I didn’t really like him. He was telling me lies. “Danny, you have nothing to be afraid of. We’re here to help you. What happened to you?”
            “I don’t know.”
            “Come on, surely there’s something.” I guess I’d better show him, right? I didn’t know what else to do.
            “Well, there’s something.”
            “What is it?”
            “I don’t remember it really. How I got them. I woke up with them there.”
            “What? Where?” He was getting excited for some reason. I didn’t understand that. I took off my shirt and showed him my chest. One of the first things I noticed as I woke up was that my whole body was in pain. I noticed that I was bleeding and I checked my chest. There’s a magnitude beyond words worth of cuts. Bruises. Some of them are still painful. I’ve just gotten used to ignoring them by now. My wrist if probably one of the things that ache me most now.
            “That’s bad.” He said. “Maybe we should get you to a hospital. We can have your head checked out too.” He didn’t wait for my response. He just left. I heard him walking around and then there was silence again. I waited for him to come back.



Inspector Malcolm walked to the nearest phone which was not too far from the room he’d left Danny. He was happy that at least one of the kids had come back. He just didn’t like the state one of them had come back in.
            The reason only one of them had come back was quite worrisome to the middle-aged man. He didn’t know how he was going to break this news to any of the families. He had no idea how Danny was going to take it, he didn’t even remember who he was, let alone any of the friends that went with him and never came back.
            Picking up the phone he dialled the Smiths’ number habitually. He’d phoned them many times before and he knew the number off by heart by now.
            Hello?” The feminine voice of Maggie Smith answered.
            “Maggie. This is Inspector Malcolm –”
            You’ve found him?” Maggie nearly shouted. The inspector distinctly remembered their last conversation not too long ago, where Maggie said that the inspector was not to call her unless they found him because it was getting too painful to hear about the little bits and bobs they’d found that could lead to Danny’s whereabouts. She wanted the actual person back, not a bit of nail, a piece of clothing. She just wanted her baby back.
            “Yes, but before you come down here. There are a few things I’d like to talk to you about. Things that concern Danny.”
            “Why? What’s wrong? Is he okay?” She was obviously very worried about her baby boy.
            “He’s lost his memories. From what we can tell there’s probably been some form of torture going on. He’s got cuts and bruises littered around his body. It’s not looking promising. We’re going to take him to the hospital. You meet us there.” The inspector informed her.
            Right. I’ll get the family going. I’ll meet you there as soon as possible.” Maggie answered.
            “Right. See you there.” The Inspector answered. He heard a muffled ‘bye’ on the other line before he hung up.



“Come on, Danny. We’re going to the hospital.” I heard the inspector say as he entered the room again. I’d put my shirt back on as I was waiting for him. “Your family is meeting us there.”
            “I don’t have one of those.” I replied.
            “Yet.” He retorted. He was right. I didn’t have a family yet. I was quite anxious about meeting them. I didn’t know how I was supposed to act. They’ll be disappointed in me. I know it. “Come on.” He said, ushering me out of the door. He walked me to the police car and put me in the back seat. “Put your seatbelt on.” He jokingly told me as we were setting off.
            For all intensive purposes, this was my first car ride. I was nervous about how the thing ran. I didn’t trust it not to crash and blow up on me. I hoped that I would make it to the hospital in the same pieces I got in the car.



Maggie woke up. Something felt different to her today. She had an anxious feeling in her stomach that something was going to go her way for once in her life. It was around mid morning.
            As part of her usual routine of waking up she walked to her sons former room. She hadn’t touched a bit of it. Besides doing his laundry everything was in the same place that he’d left it when he left nearly a year ago now. His posters of some rock band littered the walls, hiding the soft baby blue colours of the wall. Maps covered his desk. He’d always wanted to do something with Geography. A traveller. He loved to explore new places. His computer was still sitting in the same place. She’s cleaned all the dust out of his room a few weeks ago, and sure enough it was come back.
            His bed was still unmade. The room still held his soul. She could smell him in the air.
            The smell always chocked her. Made tears climb to her eyes. A single tear fell down her pale cheek. Every instinct in her body told her to give up. Her baby wasn’t coming back. That she should focus on the last baby in the family. The girl, Jamie, definitely wasn’t a baby anymore. She was 19 and spending her time in college now. She’d specifically chosen the local college so she could be close to news of her brother. She was dedicated.
            Maggie could feel his presence everywhere. Wherever she went there was a constant reminder of him. Sometimes she just wanted him to go away. She couldn’t handle the depression that was digging it’s sharp claws into her.
            “Baby, come back.” She couldn’t understand what happened. Some people told her that they’d run away. She knew deep down that the family was loving enough, that he was a happy boy when he was here. A boy almost a man, he would be 17 now. His birthday had passed merely a few weeks ago. They didn’t celebrate.
            It was impossible to believe that they’d ran away. There were obvious signs of a struggle where they’d been gone on a school trip. A campsite that schools used regularly. Another mystery to add to the pile, was Danny’s friends had practically been in separate camping rooms. The people they were rooming with didn’t even remember the struggle that so obviously went on. It was as if their memories had been wiped.
            Day by day had gone. At first it was breaking news. Everyone wanted to hear from her. Everyone wanted to help her with finding the baby and the other families with finding their children too. But as days turned into months, people were losing hope. Nobody offered Maggie help anymore. They just looked at her with pity. She was a desperate mother, who refused to believe that her boy had been kidnapped and killed.
            That was when she got the phone call.
            She’d recognised the number instantly. She’d been on the receiving end enough to know who it was.
            “Hello?” She answered.
            Maggie. This is Inspector Malcolm –” She didn’t give him the time to finish his answer before she jumped in and said:
            “You’ve found him?” Hope swelling in her voice. She could not be disappointed now. She would prove everyone wrong. That they were still alive.
            “Yes, but before you come down here there are a few things I’d like to talk to you about. Things that concern Danny.” That brought down her bubble slightly. What if they’d found him, but he was dead? She’d couldn’t handle news like that.
            “Why? What’s wrong? Is he okay?” She asked in a hurry.
            He’s lost his memories,” That was the first blow. She could handle him not remembering her though to see his face again. She would give up everything to see his face again. “From what we can tell there’s probably been some form of torture going on. He’s got cuts and bruises littered around his body. It’s not looking promising. We’re going to take him to the hospital. You meet us there.” The inspector finished. That was a blow. What kind of sick person would want to hurt her baby like that? Why? He’d done nothing to deserve this kind of attention.
            It took her awhile, but the only decent sentence that she could bring up was:
            “Right. I’ll get the family going. I’ll meet you there as soon as possible.”
            “Right. See you there.” The inspector said. Maggie hurriedly said ‘bye’ as she was hanging up the phone. She needed to go and wake Jim, her husband up. They were finally going to see their son again.
            “Jim, honey, wake up.” She cooed softly.
            He groaned in response.
            “Come on. Something special has happened.”
            “Jamie made me some honey pancakes?” He asked, his mind still foggy with sleep.
            “Something better.”
            “What?”
            “They found him. They’ve found Danny.”


As you can so obviously tell, this one is actually longer than the rest. I had a bit more to write about for this chapter. Though I'm sure most of it'll change by the time the final draft is done.

Night!

Tuesday, 6 July 2010

A Badish day at work.

Well, it wasn't bad bad. It just had it's bad moments. I mean, for one thing, the manager of the place told me I was too slow and needed to be faster on my feet. I felt like screaming 'I can't move any faster because I'm on my feet all the time. My body can't move that fast!'. Of course, not to sound spoilt the people working there have been there a lot longer than what I have. I took it in with a smile though. I have to accept feedback and use it, get a better report.

Part of me thinks though, that I'd probably have a bit more work ethic if I was being paid to turn up there everyday. It's not like WH Smiths was an ideal choice for me. I more or less chose it so I would get a better chance at getting a job. Life is just cruel that way.

Then, I messed up with the bins. I went through the fire exit instead of the normal door and I got a stern talking to by one of the supervisors. Then, when I went through the right door. I put my rubbish in the bin, I know I closed the door, but when I came back it was open, and the supervisor had another go at me. Apparently, any faults going on in the work place has to be the fault of the person on Work Experience.

It's a sad thing to say that I actually thought that woman was quite decent yesterday. How things change, eh? It's something I'll gossip to my friend about on Monday in school.

Anyway, here's the next installment, what I just finished writing of Do You Remember Me?


Chapter 4

We stood outside the shop, it was dark out and I knew personally that John was going to be pissed at what was going on.
            I grabbed another joint and smoked it quick just to calm my nerves. I was really going haywire.
            Mac jumped over the gate, “Ashley, you keep watch. If anything comes you shout.”
            “Nah, I’ll do it.” I said.
            “I don’t trust you. You just smoked a joint.”
            “I’ll be fine. I’m fully aware, see?” I demonstrated by waving my arms around a bit.
            “Sure, you are, Jeff. Just come with me.” I nodded. I didn’t want to fight with Mac. He was a big guy.
            I followed him to the car shop. Mac’s idea was to get the most expensive car in the shop and drive it down to the local McDonalds and get some grub. I don’t understand why we couldn’t have walked it. It wasn’t very far. He reasoned that he wanted to use the drivethru.
            We creepy silently through the yard, Mac had apparently scouted out this car shop before as he walked right up to the most expensive. A Porsche. It was white, a great figure, very expensive. I would have drooled if I wasn’t high on pot.
            “Wait here, keep a lookout. I don’t trust Ashley. I’m going to get the keys.” Mac said, he didn’t wait for my approval. Didn’t he just say how much he didn’t trust me at the roadside? How was this any different.
            The next thing I knew there was a smash, and an alarm went blaring.
            “Oh, shit.” I said. Trust Mac to have set the damned alarms off. Didn’t he check for them before smashing into the building? Idiot. I
            I started to make a scramble for it. I could hardly see in the darkness and I was high. Nothing made sense and I was starting to see things.
            I was on the floor before I knew it.
            “Don’t move. We’ve got you cornered.” I heard someone shout in the distance. Great. The police. What if they found out about John. He’d get mad. Very mad.
            I tried to fight back. I struggled. The next thing I knew I was being hit over the head with a baton. The man pinning me to the floor shouting in my ear “You have the right to remain silent.” Damn.
            John’s going to be very mad. That was my last thought before everything went black.



“What an idiot? How could he have not seen anyone coming?” Mac was fuming by the sounds of it.
            “You do know your talking to yourself, right?” I asked, opening my eyes slowly.
            “Oh, Jeff, you’re awake. It would have been nice for you to warn me too. Stupid pot-head.” Mac continued fuming.
            “Me? It was your idea that got us here in the first place.” I retorted.
            “Shut up! You could have at least done the job I asked you to do.”
            “I was. I was dutifully looking out, I was attacked from behind.” I was beginning to get aggravated. God, I needed a joint. How long had I been asleep?
            Mac had nothing to say. He just sat down on the bed. A defeated look on his face.
            “I’m a goner, they said the last time it was my final warning.” Mac said sadly.
            “Well, what were you thinking then?”
            “I wasn’t thinking, Jeff. I was drinking. Just like you were smoking that stupid pot.”
            “Pot isn’t stupid.”
            “Not to a pot-head like you. Face it, Jeff. You’re an addict.”
            “Am not.”
            “I’m not even going to bother with that. At least I can admit to my faults.”
            It was my turn to be silent. I was really angry at him for some reason. I felt like I could punch him in the face. I had all this pent up energy. I didn’t know what to do with it. I felt like I was going to burst.
            I didn’t even know where all this was coming from. It was just sort of happening.
            The next thing I knew, I pounced. I attacked Mac, the unsuspecting victim. I punched him hard across the face. The problem for me to comprehend though, was why it all felt so natural, like that punch was a reflex. Fighting just seemed to come naturally to me. Is that a good thing?
            Mac screamed. I punched him to shut him up. Where was Ashley? I hadn’t seen him at all.
            The police officers were pulling me down again.
            “Stop struggling. You’re only making this worse on yourself.” One said, then I was knocked out again. When was I going to be awake longer than a few hours in this life? I wondered whether I was like this in a previous life too… I rarely thought about my previous life. What was there to think about if I couldn’t remember it? I couldn’t mourn the family I didn’t even know.



I woke up in a new cell. Mac wasn’t in this one.
            My head was pounding. I could feel the lump on the back of my head where the police officer hit me with the baton. My vision was really out of focus. My head was spinning.
            “I see you’re awake.” A pair of eyes was looking at me through the cell bars. I jumped into a sitting position on the bed.
            “Leave me alone.” I said, gripping the sides of my head to stop the spinning.
            “Can’t do that sir, the inspector wants a word with you.”
           


Little did I know it at the time, but it was that sentence that would probably change my life forever.

I'm really enjoying writing this at the moment. I can't wait to see where my imagination takes me on this. Of course, everything about it needs a lot of work. This is just a rough draft. I'll add loads more to some of the scenes once I've completed the first draft. Patience, my friends, patience.

Anyway, I'm off to bed. I've actually blogged pretty early today....

Night!

Monday, 5 July 2010

The 200th Blog Post

And yes, just like the 100th, I'm not going to be doing much. Literally.

So, I started Work Experience today. To be honest with you, I'm having quite a mixed reaction about it. The down side is more of less the constant standing up, though I really should have anticipated that. But I've had fun, the day dragged in some ways, but I was kept occupied.

I've learnt to respect the staff of WH Smith, I never realized what a hard job they have. So, I'll take that home with me and learn from it.

Also, another thing I've completely forgot to mention is the fact that I've applied for a job at Waterstones. I know. Finally, right?

So the job is for 24 hours. I'm really looking forward to hearing back from them. Hopefully if I get the job there they supply chairs. I can't deal with standing on my feet for 24 hours a week. Well, once I get back to school in September I'll have to decrease my hours. Fit my work around school life. It shouldn't be too bad. Hopefully.

I just need to hope that I hear back from them.

A job at Waterstones... well, there are no words to describe how amazing that would be.

Anyway, happy 200 days of blogging.

To celebrate. Here's the next load of useless stuff for you. I've done some more writing for my own story I posted a couple of days ago, it's working title is Do You Remember Me?

I'll start from the beginning of Chapter 2 as I left it a little after that.


Chapter 2

“Look at him. Do you think he’s stoned?” I heard a voice ask as my mind was surfacing to consciousness. I opened one eye slightly, it was still dark outside.
            “Probably. Look at all those cuts on him. He must have been in a fight.” Another voice said.
            “Hey, kid, you can’t sleep here. It’s our spot.” The first voice said.
            “Says who?” I asked, a sleepy haze in my mind.
            “Says us. Now scram.” The first one replied.
            “No.” I replied. I don’t know why I said it. I was going to say ‘okay’ and move on, now these guys were grinning down at me. It was dark so I couldn’t see them properly. They were big though. Muscled. Probably very good fighters, very good at fighting dirty. There’s just no end to my pain.
            “Well, I guess you chose wrong.” Before I could even think, the second man picked me up and punched me hard in the gut. In an old wound. I was temporarily wounded, doubled over in pain. But before I could blink, they first one punched me, his fist colliding with my skull. Stars flashed across my head. I was feeling distinctly dizzy. Nauseous.
            I didn’t know how to defend myself.
            That’s when I started panicking.
            How was I going to stop myself from getting killed?
            There was no one out there to help me. I was all alone.
            The pain intensified as both of them started attacking me at the same time. Punches and kicks came from every direction. Bruising my bruises. Cutting my cuts. I could feel the blood run down my head.
            When would it be my time to have a saviour.
            “Leave him alone.” A new voice shouted. Quickly stopping the assault. My saviour. At least I hoped it wasn’t someone who was coming to get dibs on me.
            “Give me one good reason?” The first of the men asked.
            I fell to the floor. Weak. Defenceless. Unconscious.



“Hey, kid, wake up.” I heard through the haze. My vision was blurry as I struggled to open my eyes. “How are ya feeling?”
            “Great.” I replied. Sarcasm intended.
            “Here, take this. It’ll help you.” I looked up at the man and he was giving me a long cigarette.
            “I don’t smoke.” I said this even though I wasn’t entirely sure myself that I didn’t smoke.
            “It’s okay. It’s good for you.” Something told me he was lying. “It’ll make you feel better.”
            “If you say so.” I gave in and accepted the cigarette and smoked it. I coughed first thing, it tasted strange. “What is that?”
            “Pot.”
            “What’s that?”
            “You grow up in a bubble or something? It’s a drug.” He said somewhat impatiently. I didn’t care though, the world was starting to look strange. My heart was racing. It felt good.
            “It’s good.” I said.
            “Damn right it’s good.” He replied, pulling out another joint out of an unknown pocket in his old ragged coat.
            “So, what happened with those guys back there?” I asked. I’d only know remembered them. I didn’t want to, but I did.
            “I don’t know. You scared them away somehow. I was telling them to back off, you did something. I can’t describe it. They ran. I brought you over to the Hole with me.” He explained, inhaling the drug slowly.
            “I don’t remember doing anything.” I replied, my mind racing through the events before I passed out.
            “You did hit your head pretty hard. I’m not surprised. What’s your name?”
            “Jeff.”
            “Jeff? We don’t get too many Jeff’s around her. Good choice.”
            “How do you know Jeff’s not my real name? And what about you? What’s your name?”
            “I just know.” Well, that was vague. And wait –
            “You didn’t say your name.”
            “People around her call me John.”
            “John?”
            “Do I need a parrot?”
            “Sorry.”
            “What’re you apologising for?” Okay, this guy must have like multiple personality disorder or something. He’s just nuts.
            “Nothing.”
            “Well don’t say it then.” He replied. We sat in silence for a while. It was a comfortable silence. For the first time since I woke up, I felt safe. Like nothing could harm me.
















Chapter 3.

I stayed with John for days. I didn’t have nothing to do. He gave me jobs. Taking pot to the people who bought it from him. I’d taken to my new name quite well. I had a name now. I was someone. I was Jeff.
            With John I felt like nothing bad could happen to me. Sure, he was hard sometimes. He had strange habits of snapping for no reason. I didn’t mind. He didn’t mind me being with him. He told me that I was a ‘prized possession.’ I’m guessing that’s something good.
            Day by day went. I’d lost count of how many days had gone by. Pot grew with me too. I was getting used to the stuff now. I liked the feelings it brought out of me. I’d never felt happiness in my moments before John. I now knew what that happiness was.
            I felt like I belonged.
            “Hey, kid. Stop daydreaming. You and Mac need to go to meet Ashley down the pier. We have a special job today.” That was John. He’d gotten into this habit of calling me kid. I told him repeatedly my name was Jeff. He kept calling me Kid. He told me ‘I’ll call you what I damn well want to call you.’ That was just John, being John.
            “Alright.” Mac was another boy who worked for John. He was a nice kid. He knew the ropes. He was older than me. He introduced me to drink. Alcohol. He said nobody went a day without drinking it. The taste was bad at first. I quickly got used to it. Alcohol was the only thing Mac would drink.
            When I’d left the Hole, a little abandoned shopping residence where I was currently living with John, I found Mac sitting outside waiting. His usual can of Strongbow waiting in his hand.
            “You want some?” He asked me, shoving the can in my face.
            “No, thanks.” I replied. I wasn’t in the mood, and John had said important. That usually meant that we were doing a big delivery. I’d done one or two of these now. The more you did, the easier it got. John rewarded well, he gave me a good couple of joints of pot. That was the only reason I was doing this for him.



Strange things had started happening to me. I wasn’t sure whether to be afraid or not. It’s hard to describe. I keep feeling these things. Like, someone is watching you. I keep drawing these circle things when I’m zoning out. I think something and that happens. Like this one time, I thought about having a joint and it appeared.
            Other things have been happening too. My appearance changes sometimes. I have dark hair, bordering on black, but I woke up one morning and it was blonde. I closed my eyes and looked back in the mirror and it was normal again.
            I’m no sure what’s happening.
            I’m not sure if I like it.
            I have a feeling something bad is going to happen.



We arrived at our destination within a short amount of time. We met the porter. He secretly bought from John, so any big dealings of pot came in through him. John ordered. He picked up.
            We handed the Porter (we didn’t know his real name. Though Mac swore his name was Gus.) his money and he tipped his cap as we walked away from him.



We finished our deliveries quickly. We always did it quick. It wasn’t out of paranoia that we’d get caught. We knew we wouldn’t get caught. Or at least that’s what John said. We finished quick because I would always be gasping for a joint and Mac would always want a can.
            Ashley just tagged along as we gave into our desires. I loved the feeling of my heart racing up. The feeling that spread across me as I was smoking my joint. I loved the feeling of being free.
            I hated that captive feeling that clung to me like clothing. I hated having to carry that feeling wherever I went. Pot got rid of that feeling.
            “Hey, Jeff. You now you should stop smoking that stuff.” Ashley was starting again. He was like this every time he caught me smoking the joint. He got extremely pissy with me about it when I smoked more than one.
            “Piss off.” Was the only response I gave him. He wasn’t offended by that comment. I’d said it to him enough over the last couple of days.
            “It’s not doing you any good. You’re just getting more and more addicted. How many have you had today?”
            “Dunno. Maye around 4, maybe 5.”
            “See, that’s bad.”
            “You’re the one talking. You help deliver the stuff.”
            “I do it for the money, so I can feed my family.”
            “Yeah, well, I don’t have that kind of responsibility. I wouldn’t know the feeling.” I replied, boy, I knew the kind of pressure he was under. I felt it every day. Even though he doesn’t know it. John has sort of become a father figure to me. I look up to him. He’s a good man to me. I don’t want to leave his side.
            “You should get away from John. He’s not doing you any good.”
            “Don’t say that. You don’t know what John’s done for me.”
            “What John’s done for you? Come on, I’m speaking to you hear as a friend, listen to me before you get too lost in your joint. He’s got you addicted to the stuff. You should backaway whilst you still have the chance.”
            “Look, man, leave it.”
            “I’ll leave it when you leave him.”
            I didn’t answer him. I didn’t want to. He just destroyed the good feeling the joint had given me. I got out another one, and just to piss him off, I blew the smoke in his face. He gave me a disgusted look, but he didn’t say anymore.
            Whilst all this was going on, Mac seemed to be thinking. He’d had an idea. I hated Mac’s ideas. They never were any good to us. John always shouted at us for it. If it was really bad, he’d hit us. Hard. I did not want to go through that again.
            He convinced me to do it though. Me. A foolish boy high on a joint of pot. I couldn’t have made a bigger mistake in my life. So far.


So here you have it.

I'm going to bed.

Maybe I'll have some more of the story to add tomorrow.

I know it's all short and doesn't make sense. But it'll make sense after I've finished with the story and edited it. It's going to be good fun...

Night!

Happy 200 blog posts!

Sunday, 4 July 2010

1 Post to 200

I'm not sure i this means I'm the biggest nerd you've ever come across, or just very dedicated.

So, my beta came back from holidays today. I'm giving her a while to settle back to normal house routine before I send her the chapter of my fanfiction. I need to do some referencing with my source material (It's basically a posh word for, I need to check over with the Deathly Hallows to make sure I'm not messing up the timeline too much) to make sure it'll be alright to do what I have in mind for the next chapter.

So, moving on from that, I didn't really type all that much for this new story idea I had. I planned on writing loads today. I kinda got carried away reading The Prince of Mist by Carlos Ruiz Zafon....

And before I do get lost again. I don't know what happened. I just kinda went to youtube and started watching videos, meaning it's too late for me to actually write something...


The main reason for this would be because I have work experience in the morning and I don't really know what to expect....


Night!


EDIT: 9.7.10 I just noticed the title was wrong. It was 1 post to 100, it should be 1 post to 200. Good times, eh? I'm glad I noticed that :D

Saturday, 3 July 2010

The beginning of a new story...

So I've got some new ideas for original writing. I know the beginning isn't all that good and it's a first draft, but I wanted to share it here. It's currently a work in progress as tomorrow I'm hopefully going to be writing for my fanfiction.

So here it is:


Do you remember me?

Prologue.

I woke up in the middle of the woods. An abandoned ranch house. I didn’t know how I got there, I didn’t know who I was. I didn’t know anything.
            It was painful to move. I had cuts and bruises all over my body. My head felt like it had been smashed against a hard brick wall repeatedly. I could barely move my body. It wasn’t functioning properly.
            So I waited. I waited for a while longer, I let myself heal for a while.
            I wasn’t sure how much time had passed. I figured it’d been a good couple of hours. For some reason I felt like I had to move, that if I didn’t move something, someone would find me.
            I wasn’t sure if hat was a good thing of a bad thing just yet.
           



            I’d managed to stumble outside to the blistering heat. My shirt and jeans were ripped, clearly showing the injuries I had no idea how I got.



I was walking down some path. I didn’t know where I was. I didn’t know anything. I felt so helpless.



I just saw people. They were in a car, driving past me on the road. How can I remember such stupid things and not who, or where I am? It’s all just so confusing.



There haven’t been too many people passing me since the last car. It’s been about an hour now. My legs hurt. It’s getting harder and harder to move. It’s getting hotter.
            I’m hungry and thirsty. I don’t know what to do.
            Someone please help me.



I watch as a car pulls up beside me. He calls out to me. I keep walking. He follows.
            “Hey, kid, where’re you heading?”
            “Who’s asking?” I say in a hoarse voice. God do I need a drink.
            “What’s your name?” he asks.
            “Jeff.” I reply. I’m not sure if this is my name or not. I just say it.
            “Right.” He doesn’t believe me. Of course he doesn’t. How many injured kids wandering clumsily down an abandoned street do you see? None. “I could give you a ride.”
            “I don’t need a ride. I’m perfectly okay.” I say though I’m not entirely convinced by it myself.
            “Right.” He doesn’t believe me again. Of course. “Get in. I can take you to the nearest town. You look like you could do with some help.”
            “No. I’m fine. I don’t need your help.” I say, a slight anger penetrating my voice.
            “Just get in. Don’t argue. It’s hot. You shouldn’t be out like this.” So he doesn’t care about the fact I’m covered in injuries? He must be completely oblivious.
            I obey. He stops so that I can get in. Luckily this road seemed to be abandoned otherwise people would have gotten angry at how slow he’d been driving. He didn’t need to go very fast to keep up with me. “Thanks.” I manage even though I don’t mean it.
            “No problem.” He replies. “Here, have a drink.” He throws me a can. It reads ‘beer’. I’m not sure if I’m old enough to drink this. I drink it. In one go.
            I was thirsty.
            “So how old are you?” The man asks. Not looking back as he picks up speed.
            “Seventeen.” I guessed. I could be a lot older, I could be a lot younger.
            “You sure? You look a bit younger than that.”
            “Is that supposed to be a compliment?” I questioned. I looked at his face in the rear view mirror smirking. He smirked back.
            “I’m George.”
            “That’s nice.” I reply. I didn’t believe him either.
            “So, how did you get so banged up?” He asks. Looking at me fully in the mirror.
            “None of your business.” I reply indignantly.
            “Ouch. No need to get touchy.” He replied. I just ignore him. He’s not worth it. “I can drop you off at the bus station. You got any money on you?”
            “Does it look like I have any money on me?” I replied sarcastically.
            “Not really. I was just checking. Didn’t want you to rob me. I can lend you some money. I’ll come find you to get it back.” That scared me. What happens if he found me and I still had no money? What would I do then?
            “Thanks.” I replied. My head felt quite hazy now. I felt sleepy. Where would I sleep? I don’t remember ever going to sleep. I just remember waking up. Confused.
           



George pulled up in front of a large bus terminal some hour later. He gave me $10. I thanked him. He left. I didn’t know what to do. I found a bench to sit on and sat there for a good while. I couldn’t decide whether I wanted to catch a bus or not.
            Judging from my surroundings, the bus terminal is placed quite a way outside of the city centre. Maybe I should get a bus to the centre of the city. I can find somewhere to sleep then.



Chapter 1.

I bought my bus ticket. The woman behind the till looked at me strange. Of course she’d be looking at me strange. I’ve only met two people since waking up and both times they’ve looked at me strange.
            Currently, I was sitting on the bench waiting for the bus. I didn’t know where I’d go in the end. I bought a ticket for the city centre. But when I got there, where would I sleep. I have a total of $4 left. That’s not enough for anything.



God, I’m hungry. I can’t afford any food. I can’t afford a drink. I feel so helpless.



Is there anyone out there that can help me? I’m tired. I’m hurting. I’m confused. I just want some help.



“Hello? Kid. Kid. You’re going to miss the bus. It’s leaving for the city centre in a few minutes.
            “Wha’?” I said, opening my eyes, when did I fall asleep? “Oh, right. I’ll get right on it.” My body ached as I forced it to stand up. I don’t know what I’m going to do. I guess I’ll find out when I get there.



I got a strange feeling that I was being watched on the bus. Why would I be watched? Well, I kinda have to ask why I’m all beat up, but nothing seems to be going my way at the moment. It’s not like I can run home to my parents. I don’t know who they are. Life sucks, and I’ve only remembered the last couple of hours of it too. An old lady is sitting next to me. She keeps giving me strange looks too.
            “Hello, dearie. What’s your name?” She asks. I guess old people don’t get the ‘I don’t want to be bothered’ look. Hm, I guess everyone’s different.
            “Jeff.” I replied. I didn’t want to be rude.
            “That’s nice. Not too many young Jeff’s around these days. I’m sure I’ve seen you somewhere before. Do you come here often?” She asked. Great. She thinks she recognizes me.
            “Not that I’m aware of. I don’t think I’ve been here before.” I reply.
            “Sorry, I guess I must be mistaking you for someone else.” She replied. She left an awkward tension in the air. I didn’t know what to say to get the uncomfortable feeling away. “So what’s in the city centre you want?” She asks. Great. Now there’s going to be more tension.
            “I’m not sure too yet. You never know what the future brings for you.” I say to her, staring off into space.
            “Right.” She replies. “I’m going to visit my grandchildren. Well, grandchild. One of them’s gone. They don’t know where she went.”
            “I’m sorry.”
            “There’s nothing to be sorry about. I know she’ll come back eventually.”
            “What’s her name? If I see her, maybe I could tell her your waiting for her.” I said before I could think about what I was saying.
            “Her name’s Holly. Here’s a picture.” The grandmother said showing me a picture of a young girl, she looked around sixteen, seventeen. She had short blonde hair and deep brown hair. Nothing distinctive I could find about her. I’d need to keep a keen eye out for her.
            “Okay, I’ll keep an eye out for her.”
            “Thank you. That’s very kind of you.”
            With that, we fell into a silence. At least it wasn’t uncomfortable. I still had a feeling that someone was watching me. I quickly glanced around the bus. Nope. No one seemed to be paying attention to me.



I got off the bus half an hour later. The old lady waved at me as I turned in the opposite direction from her. I waved back.
            I looked around the place. There was a park not too far away from me. I’d probably end up sleeping there. I got there with some hopes that I’d recognize at least something. Nothing seemed familiar. My hopes were crushed. Not that I’d had much hope. Nothing seemed to be going my way lately. Well, nothing seemed to be going the way I wanted it to since I woke up this morning.



I wondered some close by streets for a while before deciding that it was getting late. I needed some rest. I had nothing for people to steal so I would be okay. I hoped.



At the park I decided to sleep on some bench. It was quite damp. I didn’t mind. I was filthy in any case.
            My mind was in overdrive. Or what I thought to be in overdrive. I didn’t know what I was going to do. I couldn’t just turn up somewhere, first off, I didn’t know who I was, how I got to that ranch. I didn’t know how I got all my injuries (which were still aching me like crazy, especially now that I’d done some wandering), I could have been in some serious trouble, I’d probably go to jail. I didn’t want that. I had to help that old lady find her granddaughter.
            With those thoughts accompanying my mind I drifted slowly and uncomfortably off to sleep.



Chapter 2

“Look at him. Do you think he’s stoned?” I heard a voice ask as my mind was surfacing to consciousness. I opened one eye slightly, it was still dark outside.
            “Probably. Look at all those cuts on him. He must have been in a fight.” Another voice said.
            “Hey, kid, you can’t sleep here. It’s our spot.” The first voice said.
            “Says who?” I asked, a sleepy haze in my mind.
            “Says us. Now scram.” The first one replied.
            “No.” I replied. I don’t know why I said it. I was going to say ‘okay’ and move on, now these guys were grinning down at me. It was dark so I couldn’t see them properly. They were big though. Muscled. Probably very good fighters, very good at fighting dirty. There’s just no end to my pain.
            “Well, I guess you chose wrong.” Before I could even think, the second man picked me up and punched me hard in the gut. In an old wound. I was temporarily wounded, doubled over in pain. But before I could blink, they first one punched me, his fist colliding with my skull. Stars flashed across my head. I was feeling distinctly dizzy. Nauseous.
            I didn’t know how to defend myself.
            That’s when I started panicking.
            How was I going to stop myself from getting killed?
            There was no one out there to help me. I was all alone.
            The pain intensified as both of them started attacking me at the same time. Punches and kicks came from every direction. Bruising my bruises. Cutting my cuts. I could feel the blood run down my head.
            When would it be my time to have a saviour.
            “Leave him alone.” A new voice shouted. Quickly stopping the assault. My saviour. At least I hoped it wasn’t someone who was coming to get dibs on me.
            “Give me one good reason?” The first of the men asked.
            I fell to the floor. Weak. Defenceless. Unconscious.


The chapters are deliberately short and spacey like this. There will be a reason for this later on in the story. I've planned that much out so far.

So I'll be honest, one of the main reasons I'm posting this is because I don't want to talk about my sister, even though I know there's a lot of things I would like to say about her. I'm just going to stay quiet. For tonight I've decided it's her life and I should worry so much. It's her own fault if she hooks up with some paedophile or something. Not my issue.

So, on that happy note.

Night!

Friday, 2 July 2010

My sister has really crossed the line...

I'm really mad at her at the moment. I wanted to show her something, namely one of the clips for the Lat Airbender movie because I'm really excited about seeing it.

And that's all I got was attitude about it. I know the reason why too, because she's talking to fucking Mike. Mike who she's never met. Mike that she makes me lie over. Mike that I don't trust with a single ounce of my being. I don't know what to do anymore.

She got really stroppy with me about it. It wasn't like I was asking her to do the London Marathon or something. It's that kind of attitude that really grinds on my nerves.

She seems to have more time for talking to her so called boyfriend, as I said, one that's over the internet, than her sister, that's sitting next to her.

I'm sorry for the rant. It wasn't much of one. I kinda let my mind wander and I've calmed down a bit...

It doesn't change the fact though that she really upset me when she just blew me off like that, she said to me 'I have better things to do'. That's when is stung. Oh, so having a boyfriend from over the internet is more important than talking to your sister.

She's hardly spoken to me at all since she's gotten this boyfriend. If she's not on her phone, facebooking (is that even a word?) him, then she's on the computer facebooking him. Whenever I try to talk to her, it's more of a 'get lost, I'm talking to Mike' conversation. It's not really a conversation. And when I try to talk to her in person, she quickly changes the subject to  be about Mike. How amazing Mike is. How she can't picture her life without Mike. How Mike is coming to see her Christmas time. How Mike is moving to England. It's really starting to piss me off.

I hope this obsession ends soon.

No, it's more like, I hope this faze ends soon. That's all it is.

Anyway.

I'm leaving. Maybe watching Harry Potter will calm me down....

Night!

Thursday, 1 July 2010

Hm, I sometimes

Don't understand my sister...

Besides her taking over my life, as it seems lately, she seems to be quite worried about opening up to our parents about her new boyfriend.

I'm mentioning this assuming you remember the story I told you (or at least I think I told you) about Sara and this other foreign boyfriend she got herself.

So, knowing this, she has troubles thinking of ways of admitting to our parents that she has a boyfriend. I'm sure they'd be really happy to know she's got a boyfriend. Then she's break the news that he's 4 years older than her. Ouch. A diminish in happiness. He lives in Greek. Immediate ban from the computer I'm smelling.

You see, what I don't understand is how she hasn't learnt her lesson from last time. Where she was threatened that what she was doing was wrong on so many levels, that you can't trust people you meet off the internet enough to have a relationship with them etc, etc.

I'm coming off a little biased about it here though. I mean, I've got my penpal, Sadie, whom lives in Texas. But she'll never be more than a penpal. Know what I mean? Sure, she's my friend, and hopefully always will be, but I won't date her. Probably for the fact that she's straight... but that's not the point. It would be strange to date her. She's just a friend, and I don't really believe in internet dating. You never know their real unless they're standing right in front of you.

So, moving on, so she knows she's doing wrong. She knows Mam and Dad won't let it go on once they find out what's going on. So why does she keep messing with the boys emotions like this? I don't understand the attraction for her to be like this. To be so trusting of a boy she's known for little over a month on the internet.

What I personally don't understand again is her need to tell them in the first place.... If it was me personally, I wouldn't tell them at all. I mean, it's an internet relationship. It's not going to last. Like I'm not really piping up a long time on her going out and being the sisters maid of honour for the girls wedding. That just isn't going to happen. They'll have forgotten each other by then.

I think I just have trust issues. It probably is just that. But people have, especially her, need to be thinking about these things when their meeting new people on the internet. You never really know who's on the other side.

Anyway, this is just a confusing blog, right?

I know it is, but to me I've stated my point.

I just don't understand my sister's motives, is all. Why she trusts the guy... Why she continually goes out with this boy even though she's never met him, probably never will and why she feels the need to tell the parents even though she knows that it's not going to end up well.

Oh well, maybe I should just learn to trust her judgement on this occasion...

Night!