Sorry I didn't post anything yesterday

But we've been having internet problems and it's messed everything up.

Not much has happened though, I wrote an essay on the role of the Fool in Shakespeare's King Lear and I wrote some fanfiction. The internet being konked out seemed to be a positive influence on me because I couldn't go on the internet and get distracted.

That, and I felt my deep grievance for not being able to watch D.Gray-man episodes. That got to me in the end.

I was so desperate for it, and this fanfiction I was reafing stopped at this really big cliffhanger, only for the internet to close down.

We've got someone coming out tomorrow to check on the internet to make sure that everything is going to be okay.

Should be fun.

I'm ordering a domino's pizza tomorrow. Well, just the side order and some cookies, but should be nice :D

And a coke, can't forget about the coke.

Moving on.

I'm going to bed now because I'm really tired and I want to go to bed.

Night!

Feeling slightly let down

So, my brother brought the DVD of Devil for us to watch.

I wasn't exactly impressed. I mean, sure, it had some tense moments, but it wasn't all that amazing.

I seem to have it stuck in my head that because the Sixth Sense is an amazing film, so naturally everything that comes from M.Night is instantly going to be as good.

I was disappointed this time,

So, to bring my spirits up, I'm going to watch some D.Gray-man and Hetalia. What else do I do these days?

But yeah.

Work was okay today actually. I found myself enjoying some bits of it, the morning was a little slow and manic, but everything else was great.

Not much else to say really.

Night!

Not a long post

Because it's getting kinda late and I'm up early in the morning to go to work. I kinda got distracted watching Hetalia, D.Gray-man and Little Kuriboh videos.

Just a normal day in my life, right?

Haven't really done much all day. Woke up at 9.30. Waited until my mum got home so I could help her unpack all of the shopping. Went back to bed. Got up at like 12. Had some food. Went on my computer.

And that's basically what I've been doing the rest of the day.

Good fun, right?

Anyway.

I'm going to bed now.

Working again tomorrow. Not sure if I should be excited or not...

Night!

Went to see Tangled today

Not my kind of film. I knew that before going to see it too, but my friends wanted to see so I went.

Personally, I thought it was quite boring, though it had a few funny moments, there wasn't really much else to say about it.

Actually, I thought hat it would probably do really well on stage. I remember thinking that randomly about half way through that the whole thing would be a very good as a theatre performance. Don't ask why, it just seemed that way....

Anyway, I seem to have a growing obsession with Todd Haberkorn. The main reason being him playing the English version of Allen Walker, and as you can tell from yesterdays blog post, I'm a little obsessed with Allen....

But yeah, because of him I've started watching the show Hetalia Axis Powers. It's really funny so far. And because the episodes are so short, I never realised how much time had passed and I was shocked to find out how late it was...

I suck at keeping track of time, obviously.

Anyway. I'm going to bed now.

Night!

Allen Walker

So, I'm going to do something that's a little different today. I'm going to be talking about Allen Walker, the main protagonist from D.Gray-man.

At the present time in the anime/manga, Allen is assumed to be 15. He even says himself that he's 'about fifteen'. The reason for this being that he isn't exactly sure himself on how old he is.  Like similar shonen manga's, Allen is an orphan. Well, technically, he was abandoned, but he was an orphan child for many years from what we have gathered from the sketchy knowledge of his past.

Allen does not remember his real family, his biological family. He was abandoned as a young boy, Allen presumes that this is because of his deformed arm. Allen is of British decent, he was born in England. And considering the time, this would have probably been a normal reaction. He would have been born late 1800s, and coming from a large family. They would have been shamed to have given birth to such a child, and probably assumed that he would have had a better chance at a life without them. Or they would have had a better life pretending that he does not exist.

For whatever reason, Allen spent a while on his own. We, as fans, do not know from what he was abandoned, as in manga chapter 166, we see Allen meeting Mana for the first time, whom will later become his adoptive parent, and Allen's father figure in life.

From what we can gather from the limited knowledge of his past, Allen did circus work, though stating to hate it when he talks to Mana in chapter 166, and is heavily injured from a beating he probably received by a clown named Cosimo.

Allen's early childhood and first stages of growing up, seem to be absent of a loving parental figure until Mana adopts him, at an age we can probably guess to be around 7 to 9. You can see some of the effects of this in his later life. In the chapter where he met Mana, Allen is rude, and doesn't know how to behave. And later on in life, particularly in the present time, Allen does not know how to express himself, and doesn't find that he can tell anyone anything, with the exception of Marian Cross, who later becomes Allen's master after Allen turned Mana into an akuma.

So, taking a closer at Mana and Allen's relationship. Mana was a travelling clown, and adopted Allen on the 25th of December, the day he was leaving the circus Allen was working for. Allen and Mana met through this, and Allen had become friends with Mana's then deceased dog. Mana seems to be the person who taught Allen most of his good-natured and kind behaviour. Allen follows Mana's last words and to 'keep moving forward'. At the beginning of the series, Allen seems to idolize Mana and does everything good in his name and tries to live in a way that Mana would approve of. Though, later on, and more recently in the manga, Allen seems to be questioning his faith in Mana, and when Mana said he loved Allen, did he actually mean Allen or Neah, Mana's younger brother, or the 14th Noah, who has been reincarnated into Allen. When Mana dies, Allen is devastated and is tricked by the Earl into turning Mana inti an akuma. Allen does this, and Mana curses Allen by slashing his left eye and giving the eye the ability to see the souls of the akuma. Allen's left arm activates at this moment and ends up killing Mana. Mana's last words to Allen here were 'I love you, Allen'.

Shortly after the incident with Mana, Marian Cross takes on Allen as an apprentice to become an exorcist. Little is really known about the time Allen spent with Cross, but every time Allen is asked about it, he always replies with a negative response. Despite this, Allen seems to have grown something of a strong bond with Cross, seeing him as a stronger, more trustworthy person. Allen depends slightly on Cross through his lack of proper parenting earlier on in his life. It also seems that Cross holds a special relationship with Allen, and just for Allen not because of the 14th within Allen.

Upon Allen's first arrival at the Black Order, he immediately begins a bad relationship with Yuu Kanda. Kanda has tendency to be quite negative about Allen, calling him a 'moyashi', and Allen calls him 'BaKanda'. Both have a growing banter between each other, and Allen knows how to annoy Kanda without really trying. Through the development of the series though, you can gather that Allen and Kanda do actually care for each other, just in their own way, and neither of them like showing it.

Instantly, Allen becomes quick friends with Lenalee Lee. The younger sister of the supervisor Komui. Allen seems a little clueless perhaps of Lenalee's feelings. Lenalee holds Allen in high-respect, and looks up to him for his determination and bravery. And both are quite close in nature. Later on in the series, Lenalee starts becoming really dependent on Allen and is quick to want his help, or to depend on him, no matter how many times she asserts that she will become stronger.

Allen and Lavi, have what can be considered to be a older brother/younger brother relationship. Lavi is a Bookman, and his only reason for being with the Black Order with Bookman is to record information that will be filed away. The Bookmen are gatherers of information, and for this war, they are recording the Black Order's version of history. Lavi holds Allen in deep respect, for after the battle in China and Allen is presumed to be dead, Lavi, though hiding it to Bookman because he isn't allowed to get attached, carries around one of Allen's playing cards. Lavi was upset when Allen was presumed dead and didn't really know how to deal with it all.

Though becoming quite close to many of the members at the Order, Allen always speaks politely to his friends. And as the series progressed, Johnny and Lenalee tell him that he's began speaking less and less politely to them, and instantly begins speaking politely to them again. Through this, and from looking at some of the few glimpses of Allen's past, you can tell that speaking politely and being a gentleman isn't something that comes easy for Allen is something he constantly has to think about.

Also, Allen seems to keep all of the members of the Order at arms length, not really opening up to many of them, and keeps his problems to himself. Something which has been noted by some of the other characters of the series, but speaking about himself seems to be something that Allen is not comfortable about doing, and only really talks about how he's feeling to Cross, who is the only 'stronger, more parental' figure to Allen. This could be down to Allen's upbringing and because most people in the Order see him as the strong and dependent person, Allen doesn't have that kind of situation with someone else, Allen doesn't seem to want to be able to seek comfort in someone who is older than himself.

Allen seems to have a bit o a martyr complex, where he would willingly lay down his life for someone else, or for his beliefs. It seems that Allen would do anything to protect his fellow friends and people at the Order and doesn't really expect anything back. Allen thinks of others lives before himself, rarely even thinking about himself and his own wellbeing. This can be seen through his fight with the level 4 when Black Order HQ was attacked. Though severely injured, Allen's innocence continued to fight because there were people that needed protecting.

In conclusion, Allen is a very complicated character, where his early upbringing has come into his every day present life in many different forms. May it be from forcefully being polite to people, to protecting others before himself, from not really finding that he can trust other people to tell all his worries and problems too. Allen seems to love both humans and akuma equally. Claiming that his right hand is for the people, and his left for the people and that he will do anything to protect both, this is another example of the extent Allen is willing to go to to make sure everyone else is safe, even if he isn't.










PS There are probably many things I have not mentioned. And I can think of many things I haven't mentioned, but it's late, and I'm really tired....

What I love about writing the most

Is just having the ability to get lost in your own world. On blogger, I post about my own life, but when I'm writing, I'm creating my own world where nothing is the limit. Where I can be whoever I want to be, wherever I want to be.

I can do whatever I like. It doesn't matter. I love writing because it gives me freedom to explore a life that I never have before. I love writing because it's something that I'm passionate about. I spend my life writing, or when I'm not writing, I'm thinking about what I'm going to be writing next.

I know it probably sounds really sappy, but I do love writing, and I enjoy sharing that passion, whether it be through writing small assignments in school to writing on fanfiction/fictionpress. Or even writing my own stuff, stashed away secretly on my computer until later on in life, when I go back and look over them and edit them into something I think is worth fighting for.

I just love it, and I really look forward to the excitement I get when I'm writing.

I know it's probably not a feeling many people get.

Well, I wouldn't know that anyway.

But yeah, just thought I'd share some opinions of mine with you.

Won't be blogging tomorrow night as I'm in the CELTIC MANOR! I Know, right?

Me in a five star hotel? I guess it happens to everyone once in a while.

Yeah, it's for my friends 18th Birthday. Should be a lot of fun.

Night!

So, my Universities have been chosen

Well, I guess they've been chosen for quite some time now, but I didn't really want to admit it until I'd been back to Aberystwyth for another go.

And I love it there, don't get me wrong. Aberystwyth is a lovely place and I'd live there in a heartbeat. It's just that I loved Surrey more.

So, I'm kinda at a standstill. Surrey is my first choice, but if I get the scholarship for Aber, I'm probably going to end up going to Aber, even though I really, really, really want to go to Surrey and do their year out plan and their course is amazing and I really liked the lecturers there and I thought that the other applicants there seemed a lot nicer than the applicants I met in Aber. At least in Surrey, people were wiling to talk. And most of all, the lecturer in Creative Writing knew what they were talking about.

So, it's a pretty confusing time at the moment. I guess I'll go wherever I go. Just go with the gut instinct I guess.

Night!

First day of working again

And, to be honest with you, I thought it was okay. The people there were very passionate about what they were doing and wouldn't deal with second standards, and that's a good environment to be in, right? They were all proud to be working for Greggs.

I think they should also be proud that they are working at all. Not many people these days are bothered enough to go out and get a job so good on them.

They were really nice people too.

So, I'm going o Aberystwyth tomorrow. Should be fun, tomorrow is the decision maker really. Down to the question of Aber vs Surrey. I don't have much of a choice after that. I liked Bangor, but not as much as Aber or Surrey.

So, not sure if I'll be blogging tomorrow. I'll most likely will be, but who knows, right?

Night!

Start my new job tomorrow.

And I'm not exactly looking forward. When I started with ASDA I was extremely nervous because I'd never worked before in my life, but now that I've done my first job and my nerves like that have mostly gone, it's more that I'm not motivated enough to be excited.

Though, I'm not going to judge it until after my first day. Or even after I've been trained properly because I can then truly understand what it's going to be like to work there.

So, I'll probably be really nervous about it tomorrow. I just hasn't hit me yet.

I'm more done because of the early hour I have to wake up tomorrow...

Night!

Been quite the uneventful day

To be honest with you.

Most of my lessons have been disrupted because of Eisteddfod practice and the teachers have been really distracted when they were in the lesson because of this.

It's been quite annoying really.

Not much else to say really.

Last day of school tomorrow for a week. Should be fun, right?

I'm going to the Celtic Manor for Ffion's Birthday, which coincidentally was like 2 weeks ago now, but that's besides the point. Should be great fun :D

Night!

Can't wait to finish school. I just want to leave now!

Totally obsessed with the song

Again by Flyleaf.

Have I mentioned my latest band obsession? Well, growing obsession. I've been listening to a lot of Flyleaf, and I just love the songs Sorrow and Again. I'm currently listening to Again over and over again. It's inspiring my writing at the moment. I'm really loving this band at the moment.

I remember listening to a couple of their songs like a few years ago, but I couldn't seem to get into them. I guess, I've changed since I first heard them and I just love their music.

Again, is probably one of my favourite songs by them, and I just love listening to it. I don't know what's wrong with me sometimes. I just love listening to songs on repeat. I thought Flyleaf would be one of those bands where I liked one of their songs and never bothered with them. I guess I've been proven wrong. By myself, of course.

So, I was writing more for Danny today. I don't know what's wrong with me at the moment because I just really wanted to write something for Danny, I've been getting a lot of ideas for his story and I really want to write some of them down. The problem this itme around is that I don' really have a lot of time for writing at the moment. I was doing English Lit coursework tonight and watching D.Gray-man, and tomorrow I'll be doing English Lang coursework and then Friday I'm working most of Friday. I'm not home on Saturday because I'm in Aberystwyth.

Should be a load of fun, right?

And on a less happy note. I get an email from the University of Birmingham today. They rejected me.

Though, I've been hung on the idea of going to Birmingham for a while to study English and Creative Writing, I'm not too bothered that they've rejected me, because I really, really, want to go to Surrey now instead. I loved Surrey and their course more than I did Birmingham, so I don't really mind.

Well, of course I mind, just not as much as I thought I would. I'm going to email them tomorrow to find out why they rejected me, though I do have a sneaking suspicion that is probably has something to do with my predicted grades which weren't to the Birmingham standard and I'd accepted that they weren't all that good a long time ago.

No worries.

I'm not actually sad. I thought I'd be really sad about it. Of course, there was the initial shock at the beginning, but there was nothing after that. I haven't been all that bothered.

Anyway.

To put a close on a rather long blog post in comparison to some blogs I've done lately...

Night!

I wrote 3 essays tonight

And do you know what? I feel really proud of myself because I didn't think I was going to be able to do it.

I was making all these excuses and when i sat down I was determined to do them, and I wrote them.

I never usually have a lot of motivation for things, but I'm hoping that starting from now I'll have a little more motivation when it comes to doing things.

It was make like a 'write an essay watch an episode of D.Gray-man' thing, but it worked, right?

Anyway.

It's getting pretty late so I'm going to be heading to bed now.

Night!

I really want to see

Montana Amazon: The Adventures of the Dunderheads because it looks really really good.

I don't usually complement comedies as I find that they are not really funny, but there's something about this trailer which makes me want to see it.

That, and the fact that Haley Joel Osment is in it. And you all know I'm like a geek for anything Haley Joel Osment.

For the sake of it, this is the URL for the trailer on IMDB

http://www.imdb.com/video/wab/vi550503961/

I do think it looks funny.

And I hope it does come out in the UK. I demanded it on their website, but I'm not sure that they'd recognise it. I hope so, because I would love to see it, even if it came out on DVD. That's cool with me, though I would prefer to watch it in the cinema before hand, because the cinema experience is amazing.

But moving on.

Hoping that it comes out in the UK.

Night!

Induction days

Are boring. That you can be sure of.

So, I was on my induction day for Greggs today. And I got there at like 9:45, so I thought, okay, I don't need to be there for like five minutes. I'll go look in Waterstones not too far away from here before going to the induction.

So at five to I was there and walking up the stairs.

Turns out. I was the last one to arrive.

They made it out to be that I was late.

Anyway. Moving on.

So, lunch break comes and she goes. Okay, come back here by twenty to.

So, I get there by twenty five to, and they all act like I'm late again.

It all sucks really. I was just being punctual.

But yeah.

Didn't really learn all that much. I got my first shift, which I've rearranged for Friday instead of Saturday because I'm in Aberystwyth.

Should be good fun, right?

Anyway.

I'm going to bed now.

Night!

My induction day tomorrow.

And to be honest with you, I'm not too nervous about it.

I've been to an induction day before and it went okay. Didn't do too much.

Though, I hope I get taught how to use a till because I have no clue whatsoever on how to use one.

Anyway.

Not much else to complain about.

Since, complaining seems to be the thing of blogging for me at the moment. And I'm content. Today was actually a pretty good day. I didn't have any lessons today until like 2.30 in the afternoon so I stayed home most of the morning and then went into school for the afternoon.

Didn't do much though when I did go in. Just read a chapter of this book we've been reading for our exams.

No biggie.

So,

I'm going to bed now.

Gotta be up early for my induction day...

Night!

I'm going to bed relatively early for once.

Mainly for the fact that I just can't seem to be able to find interesting fanfiction to read. Or, fanfiction, that have a good summary, but they just can't seem to keep me there, you know? They just don't grip me like they did....

I guess though, I'm more into like Anime and manga at the moment.

More specifically. I'm really into D.Gray-man. But who didn't know that?

So, ond the good side of things. I got a conditional offer from Lancaster today. Yay?

I'm not certain I want to go there though. Currently, my heart is set on Surrey. But I'm going to go up there by the looks of it and see what it's like over there.

Should be a load of fun, right?

Anyway.

I'm going to bed now.

Night!

Bedlam

So, I finally got around to watching the first episode of the Supernatural UK drama Bedlam that aired on Monday on LivingTV.

Yeah.

So, the show itself is actually okay. There wasn't much going on though. I saw the trailer and that made it look super creepy.

There was like one tense moment. And nothing much happened, though there seems to be a bit more going on next episode.

I'll be watching the series though. I need some TV to occupy my time in between waiting for D.Gray-man manga chapters.

But yeah.

So final verdict. It was nothing to get worked up over, though I'm hoping that more will come of it, it looks pretty promising.

Not getting my hopes up though.

Night!

It's getting pretty late

So I'm basically just going to quickly recap my day.

Exams.

Done.

Yeah.

I did the first of my Aber scholarship exams today. My English lit one.

It could have gone better but it went okay.

I mean, my last section was a little bit of pointless rambling, but I was running out of time.

I think I did okay on the poetry bit..

Anyways.

Last one tomorrow for Creative Writing.

Should be fun.

Night!

Aber scholarship exams tomorrow.

That's going to be a load of fun, right?

I haven't even revised for these. I figured I'd just wing 'em and see how well they went.

See, these exams are just causing more and more turmoil in my head.

You see, I'm conflicted on which University I want to go to. I loved Surrey. God, Surrey was amazing, and I would be in my element if I went there.

And I didn't like Aber as much as I liked Surrey.

It's not that I have a problem admitting that. It's just, can I really turn down the opportunity to get £1,000 a year?

But Surrey do a scholarship thing too which you don't need to sit an exam for, you get it instantly if you get AAB in your A Levels.

Then, if I do get the scholarship, what then?

I need the extra money, but I want to go to Surrey.

I prefer Surrey.

But I don't want to pass such a good opportunity.

Gah, it's just all so confusing.

I guess it'll all get better, and less confusing when I find out if I got the scholarship or not.

I'm not really expecting to get it, but whatever.

Surrey is definitely going to be my first choice if I don't get the scholarship.

There's always a time to worry about that though, right?

And now is not the time.

Think exams, think.

Maybe I'll focus enough to do okay in them...

Night!

I got a new computer chair...

And I'm not exactly sure I like it.

Well, it's not exactly new, my dad doesn't like it so he gave it to me and it's just taking some time to get used to I guess.

The back is all set up properly, so it's a little weird.

And its on Wheels! I know! Right?

Lol, I've always wanted a computer chair on wheels.

It's not the most comfortable thing to be sitting on for a long time, it's made of wood, so, like my old computer chair it gets quite uncomfortable after a while.

Oh, well.

I'm not complaining.

So, I guess that's it for tonight.

Night!

I really enjoy

Rewatching episodes of D.Gray-man, especially the later episodes.

I don't know what it is, especially around the time when Allen gets 'killed' and comes back.

I'm just strange like that.

Anyway.

So, I've also been looking at going on holiday to Japan. I know it's not going to happen, but you know, I can always dream, right?

That's the reason why I need to work hard during my last couple of months in school. I need to get into Surrey if its the last thing I do. Surrey offers the chance to go to Japan for a year abroad. And I would love to be able to go there.

My mum isn't currently letting me go, but I'll be over 18 then so there's nothing she can do about it really..

Anyway.

Not much else to say really. It's really late, so I'm going to go to bed.

Night!

Did I mention

The fight in the lolfa yesterday?

Gimme a sec whilst I check. I'm a little too tired to repeat myself...

Okay, seems I did mention that there was a fight, just not the reasons why...

So, I'm still not 100% on what happened. Apparently, someone was talking about the group of people I hang around with in school, the 'other group' as they've been dubbed by us. I'm not going to go into it because I don't want to be hunted down and gutted...

But anyway.

Apparently, they were talking about us behind our backs, calling us lesbians, saying we got all the comfy chairs in the common room. You know, that kind of immature thing.

So, yesterday dinner time, one of the boys from our group decided it would be a good joke to see how they would react if we took all of their chairs.

So, they came back, and started an argument with us. Calling us names. We ignored it obviously.

So, I guessed everything had died down and had gone back to normal.

Obviously not.

As you know, I don't usually stay in school in my free lessons. I tend to come home and help around the house.

And that's what I did. But apparently, a huge fight broke out. I don't really know the reasons behind it, but I know it was probably something immature.

I mean, Jesus Christ. We're in year 13 not year 3. Sometimes I wish I just had the confidence to go and slap them all across the face and knock some sense into them.

It really grinds on my nerves sometimes.

I don't understand it at all.

I'm hoping it will have blown over by Monday now.

But I thought the same for today. Maybe people will cool off now. I don't know.

Anyway.

I'm going to bed now.

Night!

I seem to lose

Track of time quite easily. Though, this blog has probably already noticed it, considering whenever I blog on a school night, it's usually got something to do with not being able to blog because I lost track of itme and that I don't have much time.

Not that that made much sense.

But you get the idea, right?

I usually leave blogging until, like, the very last minute before going to bed, because then I know I've completed the day and that I can blog about whatever I want.

But yeah.

There ain't really all that much to blog about.

There was this confusing argument in the lolfa today, I'm not going to go into it because I don't know what it was about really. Something about chairs and 'the other group (as they've been dubbed, basically the other year 13's that don't hang around with us)', said something calling us names.

It's all confusing stuff and I'm not sure I know what to think of it.

I'm not really a person for getting involved in arguments.

In case it wasn't obvious, I try to avoid those kind of things.

Night!

I'm really tired

So, today was Ffion's birthday, right? I probably mentioned it somewhere before on here, but at the moment. I'm too tired to remember.

But yeah, we went to TGI Fridays for her birthday. It was actually a really good night, but I'm just beat, and I have school tomorrow.

Ah, well.

Anyway.

My English Lit teacher didn't kill us for not finishing her coursework. It was quite unexplained really. And unpredictable.

Not that I'm complaining though.

And now.

I'm going to bed.

I got my job offer letter form Greggs today.

Got an induction on January the 12th.

Good times, eh?

Night!

So....

Remember about a week ago how I was talking about getting my friends 18th birthday present?

Well, yeah, the present I got her on amazon never turned up and I got an email today saying that they haven't received a shipment order from the company that was supplying it.

So, I emailed them, asking them what was going on. And they emailed me back saying that they hadn't had the shipment in, and that I could either cancel the order or I could wait for it.

Considering that my friends birthday is tomorrow, then take a guess as to which one I went for.

Yeah.

I cancelled it.

And with like 3 minutes left on the clock for express get it by next day delivery, I got her something else.

So, I know this one's on the way because I can track it and I can give it to her tomorrow night.

Though, I'm not exactly sure how much she'll like it. But I guess it was a rash decision a few minutes before time was up.

Anyway.

Got nothing much else to talk about.

Night!