Not long tonight.

I'm having a 'sleepover' with my younger sister.

Which usually means because my other sister isn't home who usually sleeps on the same room as her means that I have to fill the gap.

We're going to be watching Naruto. My DVD player is being temperamental. Good times, eh?

Anyway.

Blog post tomorrow'll probably be short because it is New Years Eve tomorrow.

Though, thing should return without hiatus on New Years Day.

God, don't I sound professional?

Lol.

Night!

There's not much to say

To be honest with you. I seem to be a pretty boring person, don't I?

And I'm not going to lie to you. I am a boring person.

Though, people do seem to find it interesting that I want to become an author... do you not meet many authors? I've met a few people who want to become authors.

Thinking about it, I do know a lot of people who also aspire to become authors. Though, I've never met them. I've spoken to loads of people via twitter though.

And that's probably one of the only good things about twitter. I meet loads of like-minded people who also share a similar aspiration to me.

Anyway, I'm going to bed to watch some FMA. The 2003 version. The original. Whatever you want to call it. There are some specific episodes I want to watch...

Night!

Damn, I don't know what's wrong with me

At the moment. I've been really bad on the updating front, haven't I?

I don't even know what came over me....

I thought I'd blogged yesterday, but obviously I'm not actually thinking about it enough. I was kinda distracted yesterday. I was writing for my story and I must have been thinking too much about that.

Well, I guess there really isn't an excuse for it. It's my New Years Resolution that I'm breaking and no one else's.

Oh, well.

Well, I went back to Winter Wonderland today. Did I tell what that was?

If not, I'll explain it to you now. It's basically a Christmas themed fun fair that comes around, ironically, at Christmas.

I went there last Sunday, with the family, and I went there today with my friends.

I always seem to spend a lot of money there. It doesn't help that it's really expensive in there.

I guess it can't be helped though, right?

So, I went there again today. It was good fun.

Then, we went to see Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1 again.

I'm going to see that again on Thursday.

I'm not bored of it yet, obviously.

Sorry that this blog post seems kinda scattered and rushed.... my brother is here and I don't really like that he's looking over my shoulder as I'm blogging. I don't want him to read this stuff.

It's personal.

Night!

And thus brings

The end of Christmas.

I hope everyone enjoyed.

Today was better than yesterday, so I can't really complain.

I'm determined to finish FMA today though, I've got about 8 episodes left. So around 3 hours left.

I can do some writing, homework and revision then.

Should be good fun, right?

I'm actually really enjoying it and it's coming to a close now, so everything is going to be fun.

The reason I'm so determined to finish it?

I'm gonna link the video to this post. The video itself is amazing, but because I haven't finished the series and there are some clips from the ending, it's making me desperate to see the ending myself.

I know it's going to be sad though. God, I was nearly in tears when Envy was killed off. Though, in all fairness, his death was quite dramatic. I did feel really sorry for him.

Anyway, without any further ado. Here's the video.

PS. I hope the owner of the video doesn't mind that I posted it here.



Anyway. I'm getting back to the episodes.

Speak to you soon!

Merry Christmas!

I hope everyone has had a great day!

Mine's been okay.

There've been good moments, and bad moments I guess.

But it's Christmas, I guess I can't hold it against anyone, right?

So, I got my new iPod like I'd been asking for. And I'm really happy with everything else I got.

I've sat down and watched the first two DVD's of my FMA:B collection. Which did actually manage to make it on time. I'm really happy.

They weren't supposed to come for at least another week and a half yet....

But yeah.

Sorry I didn't blog post yesterday. I just completely forgot. I was so worn out after work and we had family over. I just forgot.

Am I forgiven?

Lol, I hope so.

Anyway.

I hope everyone had a great Christmas, or Holiday. Whatever you celebrate. I hope it was a good day. I'm not going to try and shove the whole 'it's more for the family than the presents' thing, because technically, one day of the year should just be the day to show your family that you care for them. You should do that everyday.

It's just, today is the day to show everyone you care for them by giving gifts and appreciating everything they've done for you since last year.

New Years Eve is going to be the extremely mushy one...

So, beware!

Lol.

Anyway.

I need to clean my bed before I can go to bed.

Its piled high with books and stuff that I got for Christmas.....


Night, everyone!

Finally going Christmas shopping tomorrow.

So, tomorrow's Christmas Eve Eve, and it's usually a tradition for my Dad and me to go in to town and go Christmas shopping.

But this year, because of my idiot brother, who knows full well that tomorrow is our Christmas shopping day, has gone out drinking tonight and will refuse to wake up tomorrow morning to get any parcels that come. Meaning my Dad has to stay home.

My mum and dad were going to come this year. But they're not now.

So, it's just my sister and me who's going Christmas shopping.

Sucks, right?

At least we're still going.

I've been waiting all week to go Christmas shopping and I'm finally able to go now.

I have no idea what I'm going to get everyone, but I'm sure that'll come to me, eventually.

Night!

I'm trying to get through

My iTunes mix.

I mentioned doing it last year, but, of course, a year has been now, so I'm just going to have to talk about it again.

Every year in December, I attempt to listen to every song on my iTunes list. It usually takes me the month, though last year, it sprang into like February. I just kept downloading more and more songs, so the faster I was getting through my list, the more songs that I was downloading.

I'm guessing that was just a faze.

I've only downloaded the FMA:B soundtrack now this year.

So far.

I'm on the G's now.

Yes, it has really taken me that long. I've got about 3,000 songs on my iTunes list, and though that probably doesn't even compare to most people's iTunes lists, it takes me a while because I don't leave my computer on all the time.

I'd be killing the electricity bill otherwise.

Anyway.

I worked most of today.

I hope I'll be getting quite a bit of money next pay day now. Should be fun, right?

Night!

Soooooo exhausted.

And I have good reason.

So, I was going to work this morning by 7, right?

I'm sure I must have mentioned that....

I might have forgotten, but, whatever...

So, I started work at 7 this morning. And, I was supposed to finish at 3, but because of the snow, and everyone calling in, I didn't finish till 6.

I was knackered.

And I'm working tomorrow at 10.

Damn me.

Why did I have to mention coming in earlier?

I should have known that she'd jump at the chance to bring me in early.

Anyway.

I'll bring you the low down tomorrow. If thats how it's said anyway.

I'm working 10 till 10 tomorrow.

Good fun, eh?

Night!

I've been on blogger for over a year...

And I didn't celebrate it?

Man, I thought I'd joined later on, like around now, not on the 7th of December. I would have done something about it.

Damn it.

I'll have to mark it down on my calender now so that I have a reminder for next year.

Okay,

Just done that.

I am actually quite ashamed of myself for this one. Because, if I'd known when it was coming, I would have done something big about it. It's not everyday I'm this committed to something. I usually quit on the blogger front some few days after I start it, though every time I do start a blogger, I start it with the intentions of blogging everyday.

I tend to be forgetful.

And with blogging, it happens all the time.

I've been quite persistent on this one though.

I like how easy it is to blog on blogger. Not that it wasn't easy on other sites, I just like the layout on this one.

And I'm not confused by the layout and what happens on it.

Like, I had this livejournal, and I was so confused by it that I didn't know what I was doing with it....

It probably also helped that I made blogger my screen opener thingy on safari. What do they call it? A homepage?

I don't know.

But my dashboard is my safari open page.

That's also there like a constant reminder that I need to be blogging.

Though there have been a few days where I haven't blogged. But if I'm by a computer and I have a few minutes to spare, then I'll blog.

Usually about nothing in particular like now.

So, do you want to know what I did?

Well, considering this is a blog, and well, no one reads it anyway, so I'm guessing it's okay to talk about my day.

I woke up about 9-ish, my cat, Tabby jumped on me and started purring like crazy.

So, I attempted to fall asleep, but I failed, so I started reading this fanfiction I'd started last night.

I was really enjoying it when my Dad shouted and asked me if I wanted a cup of tea. Being a Brit, I answered, sure.

I went downstairs, had my tea and talked a bit before I was told to go to my room and get dressed. We were putting the Christmas decorations up.

I went to my room, and read some more fanfiction before my mum started getting all naggy and I eventually got dressed and went downstairs to put the Christmas decorations up.

Whilst putting really loud Christmas music on, we put the decorations up.

After that.

I went back to bed and read some more fanfiction.

At around 2 I was called to help sort dinner out.

After dinner. I proceeded to go back to bed and read until my iPod died of battery loss.

I turned on the computer.

I loaded up some Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood episodes. I got past the dilemma and just decided to hell with it, I could watch it in both languages...

I watched some FMA:B

Went downstairs, washed my shirt for tomorrow.

Went back to my room.

Read fanfiction and watched FMA:B.

Showered.

And here I am now, blogging about my day.

Interesting, right?

Not.

Anyway.

Hopefully some other people have had a more motivated day than me...

Night.

I think I deserved a lazy day though, I've been really busy for the last couple of days...

Maybe I should...

Make ASDA like a permanent second home or something, because I seem to be spending my life there at the moment.

Though, thankfully, I have a day off tomorrow.

But you know what that means, right?

Revision for exams coming up in January.

But on a nicer note. I'm going to be doing some more writing for Molly.

I'm not going to be watching more Brotherhood episodes until they come out in English. Not that I have anything at all against the Japanese one. I'm sure it's amazing.

But I watched all of the original FMA in English and my head can't get into the whole watching it in Japanese. I have enough patience to wait. It's not like I'm not doing enough anyway to get too caught up in it all.

I think that about covers everything.

Don't you?

Night!

I'm not really doing all that much with my life lately. So, there's not a lot to talk about. Maybe I should do a countdown to Christmas. It's what? A week away now.

I still haven't bought any Christmas presents for the family yet...

Maybe I need to get on with that soon....

Ouch...

So, it snowed last night, as forecasted. And it snowed bad.

School was cancelled, which was a good thing on the part that I wasn't going to turn up in the first place, so, I now don't get an unauthorized absence.

But I didn't go out with my friends.

So, I don't really enjoy sitting at home doing nothing when I had planned to go out. So I phoned work.

And from 11.29  in the morning until 9.06 in the night. I worked.

I wonder how much money I earned?

It was probably a lot. Probably not.

Anyway.

Not going to talk much. I'm super tired and I'm working again tomorrow.

Good times, eh?

Night!

I'm soooo tired.

So, I've been working again tonight.

They called me this morning and asked me to work. And, of course, me being me, I said I could.

So, until about 8.30 I was working on the Pizza's. Then, I went and helped close up fish, and then just as I was getting back to pizza's, I was asked to go down to meat and help pack up the meat.

So, I think I have a right to be tired.

But yeah, anyway.

I'm going to watch one episode of FMA:B then I'm going to sleep. I need to call in the morning to see if I'm working or not.

Good times, eh?

Tomorrow's pay day, so all's good...

Night!

Do you think it's a bit obsessive...

When you want to watch this one show, 24/7?

Yes, as you probably know, I've been watching a lot of FMA:B.

But today has gone beyond anything that I've done so far. It got to the point where I was watching it in my free lessons in school....

But yeah, I'm kinda still watching it...

So, I'm going to leave you now, and it is pretty late you know....

Night!

So, sometimes...

I think I may talk a little too loud when I'm not supposed too......

So, as I think I mentioned yesterday, I've been watching Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood.

It's very good and very different from the original series. Well, when I say original, I should really say the other series.

They should really be treated as two different shows that contain most of the same characters and even though the stories have the same base line, they build up to be something completely different...

Anyway.

Back on topic. So, I've reached episode 17 now, and I just watched the episode where Ed found out about Hughes being dead.

It was really sad, but I couldn't help but scream "BITCH!" when I found out that Lust was dating Havoc. I was like. God, she's such a slut...

Lol, not really, but now that I'm typing this, that's what comes to mind, even though I don't actually know if she's a slut or not...

Moving forward.

Not much else to say really.

I'm quite tired, but I'm going to watch one more episode of FMA:B before going to bed.

I'm, like, totally addicted to this...

Kinda like what I was like when I was watching FMA for the first time....

Night!

I sometimes get the feeling

That one of the higher ups in work doesn't like me. I think she's the assistant manager or something, but whatever.

It was like, she was okay with me when I was doing everything she wanted me to do, but when I said I couldn't do one shift, she turned on me.

Oh well, I guess there's not much I can do about it. Only try and get more shifts and hope that they keep me on after Christmas, because currently my job search is proving rather futile...

Anyway.

I've been watching Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood.

I'm putting a wild guess that I didn't enjoy it at first because it was all in Japanese. And not that I have something against the Japanese dubs, I just watched the whole of Fullmetal Alchemist in English, and I'm not used to watching it in Japanese.

Plus, it's easier to understand...

But moving on...

Night!

So, my mum

Is going back into hospital tomorrow.

I know it's something that's going to effect us as a family. But, I don't want to say anything about it in school. I know it probably sounds really judgmental of the people I go to school with, but half of them will think that I'm lying because my Mum was only in hospital quite recently, and we're still paying for that one now.

Well, I am, I'm still in the homework catch-up process...

But yeah, I've told work that I can't work tomorrow. But I'm pretty sure they'll call me, they haven't rotared  me in, but they didn't do that last week either. I'm not sure how I'm going to do it, and I won't have Mam there to call if something does happen.

I certainly can't complain about it to my friends though, I wanted to tell them, but I haven't.

I'm not sure about the reason.

Anyway.

Hoping everyone had a good weekend.

It's the last week in school before Christmas. Is everyone as excited as I am... Well, I'm not actually all that excited about anything at the moment...

Night!

So, I finished this

Completely awesome Naruto fanfiction I've been reading. It was actually really, really good.

So, when it comes to reading Naruto fanfiction, I can be quite wary. You either have really good ones, ones with good ideas, but are actually really bad. Some that are just purely unbelievable. Poorly written. Amazingly written. Decent idea, great writing. You get the idea.

I think this one categorized under the 'pretty good writing, totally awesome idea'. In this story, the Uchiha massacre never happened. The Kyuubi attack never happened. Well, it did, but not in Naruto's lifetime. It was about werewolves and foxes. Naruto knew he was a werewolf. He'd inherited it from his father. He knew his mother, hated his father, but just didn't know that his mother was a demon fox.

I'm not explaining it all that good. But, it was like, a completely different, but amazing idea. I am definitely looking forward to it being updated. You don't usually come across such amazing fanfictions as these.

Only occasionally.

Then, I tend to settle for ones I like to call 'guilty-pleasure'. Ones that are okay in writing, and ideas that are guilty pleasures of mine.

When it comes to Naruto, it usually boils down to:

• Naruto being exiled and becoming a mercenary. 
• Naruto being a secret ANBU member for the series.
• Secretly awesome Naruto.
• High-school Naruto.
• Naruto doing drugs or suffering from some sort of abuse (I know. That ones is kinda wrong....)

But yeah, when the going gets tough on Naruto. These are the kind of fanfictions that I tend to read.....

But anyway...

Its late, like really late, and I've been working, so I'm really tired...

Night!

Have you ever noticed

That when it's cold, people complain that they want it to be sunny like in the Summer. And when it's hot, like in the Summer, people complain that they want the winter?

That's something Jordan and me were discussing in town as we were getting Christmas presents. For me, I prefer the spring/autumn when it's not too cold and not too hot either. When the temperature is just right. Well, for me anyway.

But anyway.

I'm no good at philosophy so I'm not going to sit here and be all, I don't know, philosophical?

Lol.

Anyway.

I'm back in work tomorrow. And it's the evening shift, on a Saturday. It's going to be hell...

I hope everyone else will have a better evening than me, though I do think that I'll probably have a good time. I tend to, it's a job that I don't really have to think all that much about....

Anyway.

Night! It's getting really late, I should have blogged earlier but I was watching a Naruto marathon with my younger brother.

Second day off work

And I find myself strangely missing the rushed and disorganized life of working in ASDA. If I don't get a phone call by my break time in school tomorrow, I'm going to ring her myself and ask when my next shifts are.

It's quite strange actually. I thought I'd be grateful for the break, but I just want to get back there. I like working there.

I never thought I'd actually say that....

Anyway, I'm going Christmas shopping for my friends tomorrow. Well, by friends, I mean Jordan because everyone else has lessons. No matter.

We'll have fun.

Maybe I'll be working tomorrow.

Anyway.

I'm hoping that ASDA decide that they want to keep me on because I would love to keep working there, especially on the counters. I really, really like it there.

I do miss it, actually. I don't feel the same now that I'm not working there. I shouldn't have turned that shift down.

Anyway.

I have a Welsh test tomorrow. I feel poorly underprepared for it, but at this current moment in time. I couldn't care less....

I'm going to bed now.

Night!

First day off work

And it has been relaxing, as planned.

I've done some of the Naruto marathon with my younger brother, so he's now cool with me. And I'm feeling a lot less tired and more able t do things now.

Though, blogging isn't going to be one of them.

Sorry!

I've spent most of my free time writing for Molly.

It doesn't seem to be going anywhere at the moment, and there seems to be an air of secrecy at the moment. Like, I'm hinting towards what's going to happen and what's happening, but I don't feel like it's ready enough to talk about what is actually happening yet.

Oh, well.

Seen as though it's been a long night, even though I haven't been working.

I'll speak to you all soon.

Night!

I've finally got a day off tomorrow.

I was asked to go in tomorrow, and I've said I can't. To be honest with you, I'm just too tired to even think about going into work anymore.

I've got a life outside of work too.

Though, I do hope that me saying that I can't work has left a bad image. I don't want it to look bad and ruin my chances of being kept on.

I don't know what I would do if I lost my job.

Well, I guess I'll just have to go back to the job hunt. It's just that this time, I have some really good experience. I've worked in a proper retail place, and I've been paid for it. It's lasted longer than a week so, it actually counts for something.

Anyway.

I hope everything is going okay with everyone else.

I've got my hopes up. I've only got next week in school now. Then its the Christmas holidays!

Yay!

Anyway.

Night!

Not going to be a long post tonight

Because, I think is slowly becoming my second home.

You see, I was called in again today, and I'm in again tomorrow. I'm so tired lately that I'm having trouble focusing in school.

I guess that I'll get used to it eventually, but it's just  a lot to deal with at the moment.

And, incidentally, my mum is going back into hospital on Monday. She's assured us it's nothing serious, she found a lump on her breast, but they've been to the doctors about it, and has had all these tests, and it's apparently not cancer.

Thankfully.

But anyway.

I'm going to bed.

I'm just too tired, and my back is aching me from just sitting in this chair, let alone stay here for any length of time.

Night!

My back hurts....

So, I've successfully (or unsuccessfully, it depends on which way you want to think about it), finished my third shift in work.

I never realised how much it would hurt!

You see, today was an 8 hour shift, and by the end of it, I could barely move. My back was killing. I'm known for having back problems in any case (I used to be a dancer, I did Ballet, tap, jazz and modern, this apparently has something to do with it), so, standing around for 8 hours did not help at all.

I think I've gotten the hang of making pizza's now. I'm making a lot more than what I did on the first night, and Dawn said, be prepared for a few calls this week. We've been having staffing problems apparently.

Which is, hopefully, good news for me because then they'll, hopefully, keep me on after Christmas.  I'm really grateful to them as it is, because they've actually taken me on, and are giving me shifts. Not many people would have taken me on, especially a big company like ASDA. I would have expected them to have only taken on people with retail experience.

I must have struck lucky somewhere.

The only thing that doesn't seem to be working out for me at the moment, is the fact that I seem to be getting loads of burns at the moment from work. I keep burning my fingers on the thing to seal the pizza's when I put the cling film on them.

Oh, well,
I'm sure that's something that I'll get rid of in a couple of shifts.

It looks like I'll be getting them.

Night!

Too tired to think.

So, every part of my body is aching. Mainly for the fact that I've been working.

And I'm working again tomorrow at 8 in the morning. How bad is that?

Okay, to most people, it's probably not bad at all. But it is for me.

I'm tired enough as it is...

Anyway.

Going to bed early.
Maybe I'll have time to write some stuff for Molly tomorrow. After work, and after I've written my essay plan, and done some work for English language. Sounds like kinda  a lot. Homework gets priority tomorrow.

But yeah, the essay plan shouldn't take me too long, then the coursework shouldn't be too bad. If I like analyze Catcher in the Rye and take it to Mr Shaw to have a look over and ask him if it's okay at the moment. Then, I can, hopefully, do some writing for Molly.

Moving on.

See you tomorrow.

I'm sure all of this working is going to make me fit in the end....

Night!

Finished my first shift

For work.

And boy am I tired.

So, this morning. I went to school, and when I checked my phone break time, I had a missed call. From ASDA. So, I phoned them back. She had said something over the phone about me not turning up for a shift I was supposed to have yesterday night.

I had no idea I even had the shift.

So, I apologised to my manager, whom I met today, by the way. He said it happened often. Okay. So, maybe this woman isn't exactly the most organized. There are moments I feel that my brain isn't there either...

But yeah, it was really hard. I was on the pizza counter. There were supposed to be five of us. There was only two of us. Me and this other woman. So, it must have been bad for her, because I didn't know anything, and she had to basically handle most of it on her own.

Though, by the end, I  can officially say to you, that I'm trained to make a halfway decent pizza.

And I also smell like one.

Lol.

Anyway.

I'm too tired to talk about anything else. Gareth, my manager, said he'd get her to ring me if I was working tomorrow.

Sounds like fun, eh?

Night!

So...

I've decided to put Danny's story on hold for the moment, as a different story. One that's been in the making for quite a long time now has come to the forefront of my attention lately.

So, I'm not writing the story of Molly Jackson. It's quite a bit more lighthearted than Danny's story. It's got less heavy themes in it. Though, as always, it's a fantasy story. Probably aimed more at teens. You can find it on fictionpress

www.fictionpress.com/~beehumphrey 

I'm just going to post it there. One of the main reasons being. On fictionpress, it's supposedly held on copyright. Which, here, on blogger, it's open domain, so anyone can take it. I didn't think of that when I was posting Danny's story.

So, I probably won't be posting more here. I'll be posting more over there now.

At least I'm putting my fictionpress account to use. It doesn't really do much. I opened it with the intentions of, like, putting loads of stuff on it.

Sadly, I think, it was around that time when I was off writing for a while, but I seem to be getting back into the swing of things now.

So, maybe my stuff will get noticed. But there's a load of stuff on there, so it's highly unlikely. I just want to share my work. And the stuff that I'm posting is only first drafts in any case. They'll probably change loads by the time it comes to actually seeking out someone to publish them properly in books.

But yeah, writing seems to be putting me in a good mood.

So, all's good.

Tomorrow is my first shift of work, and I'm coming down with a cold. How bad is that?

It all sucks.

Anyway.

Speak to you tomorrow I guess. Where I will continue to talk about my adventures in working....

Night!

It's the first of December.

And I don't coming bearing good news even though it's the beginning of Advent.

So, you see. Well, you don't see, I'll just talk.

My sister's been cutting herself.

Yep.

Just found out today.

That's not the reason why I'm blogging though. Well, necessarily, yes it is. But I'm going to be talking about it in a way, which to most people, will seem really offensive. But it's something that I'd like to say to her face, but knowing my luck, she'd flip out and start cutting herself more just to spite herself.

What I want to say to her, that this is probably the lowest form of stupidity that I've ever seen someone achieve. I don't care what the reason behind it is (it's got something to do with being stressed out from exams. I don't think that this is even a margin of a good reason to start self harming. It's not even a reason at all), but it's the most idiotic and cowardly thing I've ever seen you do.

I want to tell her, that some crappy and stupid exams are not a good enough reason to self harm. Nothing is a good enough reason to self harm. Gah, I hate it when people cut themselves, thinking 'I'm cutting to myself because I can't handle life.' Self harm has got to be one of those things that really piss me off.

I just don't see the point in it. What are you going to gain by doing it? Is it going to make the exams stop? Or whatever other reason you're cutting yourself for stop? No, it isn't. So grow up. Accept that exams are stressful. Open your eyes. Everyone else is feeling the same way as you. You have everything you ever need. Supporting parents who are worried about you. A school that's passed every other year before you, so what's now going to make any difference?

It just pisses me off, is all.

Sure, everyone has a shitty moment in their lives, or live shitty lives. Get shitty luck. God, look at me. Molested and raped. But the thought of killing myself and self harming has never even crossed my mind. I don't want to take the easy route out. I want to be able to grow up and say. Yeah, I lived through it. Sure, it got to me sometimes and I was depressed about it. But I never let it get to the point where I would want to end my life. I would never even consider. I mean, it passed through my mind on a brief occasion. The 'What difference would it make if I was here?', and when I was truly depressed about what had happened. The one thing that would keep me going was. I can't kill myself yet. I don't know how Naruto is going to end.

I know, right?

But what's the point? What's the point in trying to kill yourself. I just can't get the idea.

One thing she did that pissed me off too. Was when I'd been standing in the cold for ten minutes waiting for her, wondering what the hell she was doing to be so late getting out of school. She tells me Mam and Dad are at the school. She doesn't answer me when I ask why. We walk to get her bag. Walk back out. I ask again. She shows me lines across her wrist (isn't that supposed to be like a cry for attention?), quite proudly might I ask. I ask, where did you get them? A razor she says proudly.

That's what pissed me off. It's like she wasn't doing it for any specific reason, just to tell me 'oh, yeah, look at what I've been doing? I'm so fucking cool, aren't I?'.

The first thought that ran through my head was. No, you're fucking stupid, that's what you are.

Anyway.

I guess, since I'm not going to say it to her face unless I'm ridiculously angry with her. Then there's no point in going on about it.

See you soon I guess.

I'm not sure whether it's the right atmosphere or not to put 'Night!' on this blog. It doesn't seem to be....

P.S. Sorry for swearing. I kinda got carried away. I don't usually swear on my blog. Emotion just got the most of me. I guess, I'm usually just an unemotional bastard sometimes...

Lol,

What can you do, eh?