So, NaNoWriMo

Isn't exactly going as planned, I should be at my half way point nearly, but I've only written like 2,000 words.

I just don't have the time to write, I'm getting the ideas now. My characters just seem to be doing what they want to be and I reel them in occasionally when I find that they want to make a story of their own. But I've got the rest of it under control.

It's just keeping up with the word count now that I'm so behind.

So, admittedly. I'm going to keep going, of course. I'm not going to give up. I've just acknowledged that I'm never going to make the 50,000 word mark.

And I'm not going to cheat it either. Because I don't win by cheating it.

So, drawing to the conclusion that NaNo 2010 is not a winner. I'm writing at my own pace, and even though I'm not getting a lot done, I know mainly what's going on in my story. I know what Danny's going to go through to an extent, and I know how I'm going to end it.

Also, is being completely and utterly terrified of starting my first job normal? I mean, I've been thinking about it, and I'm totally terrified. I'm going into a job that I have no experience of, it's already a well-established company. There are expectations and I'm scared I won't be able to keep up with them. I'm scared to disappoint them.

Gah, just the thought of doing my first shift sends jitters down my spine.

Anyway,

I hope no one else is as scared as me for starting their new jobs...

Night!