And thus, NaNoWriMo

Is officially over.

Well, in less than two hours anyway.

I kinda feel depressed that I never finished what I planned on writing. But I've been on a writing standstill, and to be honest, I just haven't had the time.

School and my Mother being the main reasons.

Actually, those are probably the only reasons.

Lack of inspiration has never really bothered me before. So, I can't really pin it down to that.

There's always next year, anyway.

So, it was my last ever Parents Evening tonight as part of my school. Hopefully they don't do Parents Evening's in University, because I hate them. Well and truly.

So, my idea of ending up in Birmingham for University, has basically been crushed. Though, I'm not all that bothered about it to be honest with you. Aberystwyth is the only one that's actually stuck in my head at the moment.

Anyway.

So, Birmingham want AAA, when my predicted grades are BBC. Though I do have one A coming from the Welsh Baccalaureate.

I guess you can't win them all.

That's all really. I'm getting quite nervous about my shift on Friday with work. But not overly nervous... yet. I'm sure it'll all sink in on Friday.

I'm not going to think about it until then....

Night!

So.....

After a brief stint of actually doing some, or one, decently lengthy blog, I find myself incapable of continuing.

I don't actually have all that much to talk about today, and I need to keep this blog quick because I have some last minute touches to do for English lit coursework.

Anyhow.

I hope everyone had a good day. Praying for some snow over here. Though the forecast has changed dramatically over the last few days. We've gone from Blizzards to nothing.

Oh well.

It doesn't really bother me either way...

Night!

So, I was supposed to write my

English language investigation for my English coursework today.

Guess what?

I never got around to it. Considering that I'd been helping out a lot today as my mum and dad were decorating, and then when i did finish helping, there was like little time to myself. So, I ended up watching some TV. I'll get around to it tomorrow. I might do it in my free lesson tomorrow lesson 4, or I might just wait until I get home to do it. Home it'll probably be. I can't work in school, especially during my free lessons. No one else does work in the computer room in school, and I get really self-conscious when people are staring down at my computer screen. It's like, if I was more confident, I'd shout 'What the hell do you think you're looking at?'.

But me being who I am, I know they'd probably kick my ass and then laugh at me for the remainder of my school career.

Luckily, I'm in my last year of school with most of these people. But, you know, word spreads. And I'll probably be held against it even if I become a recognized author (people can dream right?).

That's one thing that's on my list of goals. It's not that I want to make a lot of money out of writing. I just want to be a recognized author. Anything above that is a great bonus. I want to go on book tours. Meet great people. Meet people who hate me. Either way, criticism is always great for writing, right?

I want people to acknowledge me as a writer. But most of all. I just want to be able to write. I love writing. As you can hopefully tell through the amount that I blog, though I know it's been really short on content lately. I never find blogging to be a chore. I love it, and I wouldn't stop blogging now. Well, if I had a good reason to then I guess I'd have to stop. But currently, I blog every night that I can. The only nights that I don't blog is when I'm not at home, or I know I'm going to be too drunk to blog.

Anyway.

I guess dreaming of becoming an recognized author is a bit far off at the moment. But I do plan on becoming a published author. Heck, if Stephenie Meyer can find a Literary Agent, how can't I?

Well, first off I need to look. But first, I want to get University out of the way and have a decent job enough to afford my own place to rent and all that. Then, Literary Agents. You watch out because I'll be coming for you!

On that happy note, I shall be leaving you now....

Night!

I guess I overreacted the other day

When I was talking about my job.

I got a phone call today, and they want me in next Friday. So, yay! My first shift.

Though I am quite nervous about it. I'm not sure where I'll be working and all that kind of stuff. I hoe they remember that I need training....

Anyway, I'm going to bed early-ish for once. I've been watching a Naruto Marathon with Tim and Jess, as it has been for the last couple of weeks because I'm not going out because I'm attempting to save some money....

It's not going all that well at the moment.

So,

Night!

Speak to you soon!

So, I've been out drinking...

So, first off I'd like to apologize for any spelling mistakes, or any inconsistencies in what I'm typing. My thought process isn't as straightforward as it used to be.

Anyway.

So I went out for Anys's 18th Birthday today in a Japanese restaurant called Wasabi. It was really nice. In terms of Naruto fandom's I ate a Miso Ramen. It was really good, though after having it, I find it really hard to see how he could eat so much of the stuff. I was stuffed after having like half a bowl.

Remembering here, that he is a fictional character, of course...

After that, we went to some wine bar, and had a few more drinks. Then Ffion's Dad came and picked us up.

Yeah, it's been a good day. I've hardly thought about ASDA all day.

Night!

Don't you just sometimes hate life?

So, my day started out tired.

I woke up, dreading the fact that we had mock interviews today for University.

So, as the day passes, my unease, eases, and I have my interview and it all goes well. I was happy with how it all went.

But of course, when you're me, when something seems to be going right for you. Something worse just has to happen to balance it out. Because that's just how unfair life is.

Did I tell you that I'd been getting problems from ASDA? Probably not, because as Karma goes, I don't like to mention what's going good in my life because it usually means something bad is just around the corner, or just mentioning something that frustrates me, the big man upstairs thinks it's funny to screw with my life even worse and make what I'm frustrated about, and make everything ten times worse than what I thought it was going to be...

But moving back onto topic. So, I went into work on Saturday to do my computer training thing to be able to go on to the shopfloor and finally start working.

The man who took my training day, asked me if I'd had my shifts yet, to which I replied, no, I had not. So he got on the phone to the assistant manager or something of whomever runs the counters and asks her to come up and arrange some shifts with me.

So, I leave there feeling quite accomplished. I've met my assistant manager, and she says she'll phone me in a couple of days.

Tuesday comes. Nothing is heard. My mum says, maybe you should ring them and find out what's going on. I say, well, it was only Saturday, I'll leave her until tomorrow, because I don't want to come across as impatient.

Wednesday comes, and even though I'm hoping against everything, nothing comes through. I ring ASDA. Get through to the counters. Sorry she's not in today. Okay, I was ringing to find out what shifts I had, she told me on Saturday she'd give me a call in a few days with what shifts I'm supposed to be working. Okay, she said to me, I'll leave her a message tomorrow and she'll ring you.

I sat patiently all day today, and I heard no call. I was losing my patients. I hate feeling left in the dark. So, after I came home, I waited until 4.30 with the meager hope. Okay, maybe she's just waiting for me to come home from school before she rings me. Ha, me hoping that someone's being considerate for me. Thinking about my education first.

So, I ring her up. I say, Hey! It's Rebeca here, you told me on Saturday you'd give me a call about shifts that I'm supposed to be working. Oh, right, well, there's no shifts for you. We're over waged (or something I don't really remember, I was going into like depression on this point), and we can't take you on at the moment. I'll give you a call when something comes up. Me: Oh. Her: Bye now. She hung up.

I went downstairs.

Mam goes, so what shifts are you working? None. She said that there weren't any shifts for me.

What? She said that they couldn't afford it or something and she'd ring me if anything came up.

My mum then goes on some feeble attempts to cheer me up. I go to my room. I cry, because I think, why do I have to suffer like this? Everyone around me seems to get jobs easy enough. Then I remember, they knew the managers. They got their jobs because they know them and they've been promised a job. I cry some more.

Then I decide, what's the point in crying? I check websites for jobs. I apply for two.

I watch some Supernatural on the internet to see what happens. To try and cheer myself up.

But stray thoughts come to my mind. What am I supposed to do now? I was so happy when I got the job. I really needed it. Now I'm jobless again. I'm at square one. Again.

But, then I was thinking. Why did she not want me there? I wasn't even given a chance to show her that I could be a good worker. She seemed really impatient when I was on the phone to her, and I know now that I'm thinking about it, if I had not rang her, she would have never rang me. She was too scared to face me.

So now I'm at square one again.

Hopefully the future holds something bright for me, because if my life is going to be like this, then it's not going to be a happy one... It's going to be one on the poor side, where I'll struggle to keep a job and nothing will go my way....

I had this really

Random urge to catch up with my Supernatural episodes.

So, I watched the second episode of season 6 today.

I mainly got the urge because I'm subscribed to a person on youtube, who uploads all of the trailers and stuff for the new episodes. And by a general rule, I don't watch them, it's just that sometimes, I get curious and I have to watch it.

Similarly with the finale of Season 5. I saw this really, really awesome music video that had scenes from the season finale. The video has been taken down now because of copyright reasons, but it was just a purely amazing video.

But yeah,

Just thought I'd let you know that I saw the second episode.

I've also got mock interviews for University tomorrow.

Should be fun, right?

Probably not. I'll probably end up crying my eyes out at how badly I did.

Guess you don't get everything in life, right?

Night!

PS I'm still waiting to hear back from work about what my shifts are. Should be fun, right?