I've ended it with my girlfriend

Just for now, consider it as some sort of break to sort out feelings. If there are any.

I've got mixed feelings about it really, I don't know whether to be happy or not. But for the time being I think I just need to sort out my thoughts.


P.S. I forgot how much of a pain it is to type with my iPod. It gets annoying after a while.

Something random

You know, New Year has always been something that I hate. I hate that it's new year because it means your a year closer to something you know is going to happen.

2009, so far (the year is not over yet) has changed me. I've changed in so much this year that when I look back I can't believe I was the that kind of person last January. I have changed. And I hope it's for the better.

I just this New Year brings another lot of changes. And I hope to do well in all that I try. I hope life isn't going to be complicated like this year has been.

Just something random I felt I needed to share.

Girlfriends.

I know, highschool girl drama, right?

But this one is my drama. And being in a lesbian relationship doesn't help it either, right?

I'm confused on whether I still have those feelings I had for my girlfriend that I did when we first started going out. I'm not happy in my relationship anymore. And I'm not sure whether I want to be with her anymore or not. I'm not sure whether I still want to be with her or not. She keeps pushing me for sex, but I'm not sure whether I want to go that far with her or not. I'm not sure about much anymore. I don't want to piss her off by ending it, though she's promised to stay my friend even if we do end it, as I have the same. I'm just not sure anymore.

I'm just having some relationship problems, is all. I'm just not sure if I'm ready for a relationship anymore that's all.

Merry Christmas!

Just thought I'd say it...

I saw Lucas a Walker Texas Ranger episode today

And boy was it sad. I was crying through most of the two episodes. The main reason that I watched it was because my favourite actor Haley Joel Osment was in it, and I read the summary and thought it sounded pretty decent. But never have I cried so much for something like that in my entire life.

But yeah, that's mainly what I've done today, I've almost finished reading the book thief, which has been amazing so far. I have maybe a hundred or so pages left.

Good day today though, besides all the snow were not supposed to be getting, it's been snowing for the past four days or so now, and I have washing to do, and I can't to it if it's snowing.

Any way,
Merry Christmas Adam!

That's a familly thing, in case anyones wondering.....

It's three thirty in the morning

And I can't seem to be able to sleep, I'm trying to ware myself out but it isn't seeming to work.

It's just soooooo hot in my room at the moment. I think thats what it is....

University

University has been playing on my mind recently. I've been thinking about it a lot since my brother has been getting his conditional offers. Of course, I'd thought about which ones I'd like to go to before. Like my friend is determined to get to Swansea Uni, whereas I really want to go to Birmingham Uni.

The cost of university I think is what's going to hold me back. Its what £4000 a year in uni, then you have living cost on top of that. Life's just difficult like that. But I'm sure there will be enough support to get me through. I'm definitely getting a job. It's a lot easier that way hopefully.

The course I want to study is Joint Honours English and Creative writing. The course seems fitting considering I want to be a writer when I grow up, right?

Yesterday, I had a lot to talk about when it came to writing about uni, but I left it till today, and now all the ideas just seem to have drained out of me. Next time I'll have to write notes right?

One thing I can guarantee you though, I think uni is going to be amazing, even though I have a year and a half left in school.

Oh well, it's not long until I'm free.

I'll probably have a different opinion when the day comes, right?? :D