Parties

You see, today I went out to my friends 18th Birthday Party at T.G.I. Fridays. I must be honest. I was surprised at how nice it was there. The food was very good, the waiter who served us was lively and chatty. I'd definitely go there again.

To be honest with you, I wasn't exactly all that excited when the day first started out. I mean, it was the first of four birthday parties for Cerys for her 18th.

I was actually planning on pulling a sicky and not bothering. I was just exhausted. I still am, I just have some adrenaline running through my veins....

Anyway, I actually had a nice time.

The food took it's time to get there, that's understandable though considering that there were loads of other people there too...

But yeah, awesome evening.

Can't really talk much more, really looking forward to going to bed...

Night!

Okay, I'd probably

Be lying to myself if I thought I was getting over this small Ben 10 thing.

So, I thought I was, I haven't really bothered with the show much since I finished watching most of the episodes. I mean, I told myself I'd keep up to date with the newest series, but I wasn't going to get obsessive like I did with Danny Phantom... (I have all the episodes on my computer so I basically can watch it whenever I want to...)

But I've been watching AMV's to do with Ben 10, and I saw some scenes I haven't seen in the episodes I've seen, so that's made me want to go back and watch the episodes I haven't seen.

It's a vicious an cruel cycle.

Also, I'm going out for Cerys' 18th Birthday party (a meal in TGI Fridays) and to be honest with you, I'm not all that excited. I'm not exactly in the meal out mood. Though this is Cerys, she wants to have everything. I mean, she's already taking us out on the weekend. It's not that I'd normally have an issue. I don't have an issue. I'm just really, really tired. I could spend the weekend sleeping rather than being out shopping.

Oh, well, I'll probably enjoy myself.

And I'm going to Bath on the 15th. Isn't that really cool? I'm looking forward to that.


So, I've been getting some ideas for DYRM, but I'm still at some sort of block on what I want to do for this chapter. I mean, I did have something planned, but I've been thinking over the plan and it's kinda a useless sub-plot thing to put into it. I'm just trying to think of ways around it. I'm sure something will come to me sooner or later. Sooner hopefully.

Anyway, I'm going to bed.

Night!

My life is about to get very

Stressful. You see, my Mum went into hospital today for an operation on her shoulder which has been giving her quite some grief for a long time.

That basically means, now, my sister and I have to take over a lot of her work. For instance my days will now be like, get up, have breakfast, get dressed quick and make sure I have all my stuff. Get Jess dressed make sure Jess has all of her stuff. Make dinner for the day. Pack dinner boxes. School. Home. Homework. Help making tea. Making sure Jess is all bathed and ready for bed. Shower. Blog. Write for DYRM. Go to sleep.

Then the routine starts all over again.

It probably doesn't sound like much to you, but it's a lot to me. I mean, I'm not saying that I come from a family where everything is handed to me on a plate. No. I mean, it's just I've been doing a lot lately as it is let alone add all this stuff to it.

And then I'm out on Thursday night for Cerys' birthday dinner.

And I'm out for her birthday on Saturday and Sunday.

I'm guessing she's looking forward to her birthday, right?

But yeah....

Still haven't heard back from Greggs. I'm going to look at the positive here, at least they haven't rejected me yet... right?

Lol, then I haven't heard back from other places I've applied for, though I'm not really counting on hearing back from some of them anyway...

I'm obviously just not retail material, am I? I'm too much of a bookworm.

Anyway, I'm thoroughly knackered, so I'm going to sleep now....

Night!

Prayers for Bobby

I thought this film was just purely amazing. It's probably the only film in existence to this date to have me crying basically from beginning to end.

And I'm not talking about light tears...

I was full frontal sobbing.

So anyway, I'm going to talk a little about the film now.

The acting was superb. And I mean, seriously, Sigourney Weaver was just amazing. And credit is due to Ryan Kelley. I haven't seen much of Ryan Kelley, I've seen him on that Ben 10 Movie, but that was it. 

His performance on this was just astounding. 

The film touches on probably one of the biggest topics at this current age. Gay and Lesbian rights. And I'll always stand by anyone who's open with who they are. I doesn't make a different whether you're gay, bisexual, lesbian, transvestite. You can be whoever you are and it shouldn't make a difference. And I will always stand by them. I will always offer support to them.

But yeah, it's getting pretty late, so I can't really talk much about it.

I just can't get over how amazing the film is. I've recommended it to my friends and Cerys says she'll have a look at it, probably because you don't get many films that make me cry...

But it is a purely amazing film, it's even sadder to know that it's a true story. I believe Bobby went to heaven. Don't you? I was so glad that the mother came to acknowledge gay people at the end defend them. I mean, I knew it would happen. But it was still such a happy, happy thing. I mean, the ending was just purely amazing. The way she went and hugged that boy who looked like her son. And in the film, for most of it they show Bobby. To me, that shows that the mother finally accepted her son for who he was. Though it was a shame that his death made her realise this.

His death made a lot of things happen and I'm sure he would be so proud of his mother to see what she's doing for him now. I know I'd be proud.

I know there are people out there that feel like they need to do what Bobby did. But please, I know you're probably not reading. But please, just stick with your life. You're life is just too precious to be lost. Every life is too precious to be lost the same way that Bobby lost his life.

But yeah.

Just amazing.

The film spoke out on so many different levels.

Night!

I'm in middle of watching

Prayers for Bobby. And boy is it a sad film. I'm like having a breakdown in tears. I'm at the part where Bobby just killed himself and his family is finding out.

God, I haven't cried so much in my entire life. I'm actually sobbing. I think I alerted the parental figures to the fact that I'm crying, which is why I'm blogging in middle of the movie and not at the end...

So, tomorrow's blog will probably be about the film. That is if I survive the film without breaking down in more sobs and fully alerting the parental figures.

Then they'll figure out why I'm crying and come up and laugh at me.

Life sucks like that.

So, I'm going now.

Night!

Hope no one else cries this bad at the film. I think my eyes will be this teary this time tomorrow.

Hero by Skillet

Is probably my music obsession for the next few days.

The lyrics go:

I'm just a step away
I'm just a breath away
Losing my faith today
Falling off the edge today

I am just a man
Not superhuman
I'm not superhuman
Someone save me from the hate

It's just another war
Just another family torn
Falling from my faith today
Just a step from the edge
Just another day in the world we live

I need a hero to save me now
I need a hero, save me now
I need a hero to save my life
A hero will save me just in time

I've gotta fight today
To live another day
Speaking my mind today
My voice will be heard today

I've gotta make a stand
But I am just a man
I'm not superhuman
My voice will be heard today

It's just another war
Just another family torn
My voice will be heard today
It's just another kill
The countdown begins to destroy ourselves

I need a hero to save me now
I need a hero, save me now
I need a hero to save my life
A hero will save me just in time

I need a hero to save my life
I need a hero, just in time
Save me just in time
Save me just in time

Who's gonna fight for what's right?
Who's gonna help us survive?
We're in the fight of our lives
And we're not ready to die

Who's gonna fight for the weak?
Who's gonna make 'em believe?
I've got a hero, I've got a hero
Living in me

I'm gonna fight for what's right
Today I'm speaking my mind
And if it kills me tonight
I will be ready to die

A hero's not afraid to give his life
A hero's gonna save me just in time

I need a hero to save me now
I need a hero, save me now
I need a hero to save my life
A hero will save me just in time

(I need a hero)
Who's gonna fight for what's right?
Who's gonna help us survive?

(I need a hero)
Who's gonna fight for the weak?
Who's gonna make 'em believe?
I've got a hero

I need a hero
A hero's gonna save me just in time



There's a lot to be read from these lyrics, don't you think? There are many different interpretations behind the meanings of these lyrics.


So, Skillet is initially a Christian Rock band. So, there potential meaning could be something about Jesus being our 'hero' and how the human race is 'falling off the edge'. That the whole song is more like a monologue between Jesus and a normal person calling out for Jesus to be our saviour.


Being the atheist I am, I see how it could be interoperated this way, but I'm going to take it more into a fantasy way. Like, it's a monologue between a person and a hero. For a prime example, I'm going to give you Ben 10, probably the epitome of my growing obsessions at the moment. Ben  stands for the week, he makes people believe. He motivates and the 'weak' in this sense are the people who've lost hope and need someone to stand up for them again.


Or in the context of the story I'm writing now, it could be interoperated many ways. Danny could be seen as the week and the hero. Weak Danny is the Danny that doesn't remember and wants his memory, constantly hiding behind drugs and trying to avoid what he's supposed to be. And hero Danny, is the Danny that people expect Danny Istari to be. Someone who's going to defend the 'weak' from the magicians. The bridge between both of them.


I like to look at it in this context because it gives me a lot of ideas on what to do with my story. Especially with the sequels, and what I have planned for the rest of the book(s). Lyrically, I think the song is really really inspiring. There are literally many more ways you could view at it.


I mean, necessarily, the hero doesn't even need to be superhuman. If you look at it in a normal person perspective. The 'Weak' could be considered the person in help, say a person who's suicidal, or suffering from depression. A person whose been lost on the way of life. And the hero would be the person who guides them back on track. That person could be anyone. A person on TV, a close friend. A member of the family. A book. A film. A character. It could literally be anyone or anything.


It could be any scenario. I've named three off the top of my head that I've thought of as I've typed it. 


The song really tells a story, and the separation of the fact that it's sung by two different people, a male and female. Even though it doesn't necessarily mean, that the man is the strong and the women is weak, no, I'm talking about how well the voices blend together and show different perspectives just through the differences in voices.


So, here's the video:





I'm hoping that shows up as a video and not a load of words..... I'm not sure how you do it...


Anyway, hopefully you can interoperate it in any way you want. I might do this kind of thing again. I actually enjoyed talking about the song. 


It's on my list of things to do though to type Chapter 31 of Do You Remember Me? So I'm hoping to get that done tomorrow with about another million things I have to do....


So, see you tomorrow!


Night!

Not much to say really.

I've got my job interview tomorrow, and to be quite honest with you I'm nervous.

And it doesn't help that it's like 12:00 and I really need to get to bed.

I finished Ben 10 Alien Force too, I'm now on Ultimate Alien.

I will be honest with you. I skipped most of the episodes and mainly stuck to episodes that sounded close to the plot or a bit more interesting than others....

But yeah,

I'm going to bed now...

Night!