So, it's been a bad week.

We found out on Thursday that my mum does have cancer. It's been kind of depressing at home, so I've been trying to like go out and be with friends as often as possible.

Then, there's also the fact that, Ffion and me are leaving the city, country, whichever, in a couple of weeks so we're trying to spend our last moments together as often as possible.

So. It's been kinda depressing at home.

Not that it hasn't been for weeks.

I can't wait to get out.

But then, by leaving now, I'm leaving Sara to everything. Which I don't really like doing....

So, I don't know whether a lot has happened or not

Since I last posted my blog.

You see, any other time I hadn't blogged for a week, I, first off, feel really guilty that I haven't blogged in so long, consciously.

And secondly, that I have a lot more to talk about than now.

Well, that's not actually the case, it's putting it all into words than I'm probably having trouble with.

So, lets go from the start, shall we?

So, I've been having a lot of family trouble at the moment. My mum in particular is a problem, but, Dad usually tends to follow her choice in anything, so family trouble is family trouble.

My mum has been having shoulder problems since she was in a car accident about 11 years ago now. So, a couple of months back, the hospital finally decided that there was actually something wrong, and they did an operation in hopes of sorting everything out.

That was a failure. The hospital declared it a failure a while back, and put her on a list to have another operation. So, we've got this one thing looming over our heads at the moment.

So, a few months down the line, I find myself in a car accident myself. It was two weeks ago yesterday, so I probably did mention it. There's not much to really talk about concerning the accident. It's the aftermath that's being a bit of a bitch.

So, we're all on compensation claims. I mean, I was hurt. My neck, and my back and arms were all stiff. Though, they are getting better at the moment.

So, we've got all this insurance and claims thing looming over us.

So, basically on the same day, my mum comes out with a thing of, she might have cancer, and is being tested for it. On the day of the crash, she went to the hospital to have some camera shoved up her ass, I can't really remember what it was called, but, they found a lump in her bowel (there's a history of bowel cancer in the family, so she went to see if there was a possibility of her having it too), so, all last week she was having tests, and us, as the rest of her family, were basically not allowed out of the house unless it worked for her.

So, after that, and missing a chance to hang out with my friends, because of these tests. The hospital ring us to tell us we'll have to wait a little longer for the results because the main doctor in all this, has suddenly decided to take a holiday.

So, we've now got this all hanging over our heads too.

Then, I went out drinking with friends Friday night. Well, friends and my friends friends from work. Know what I mean? I've met them before and they seem to be nice people, so there was no worry there.

Well, there shouldn't have been.

Jordan, was flirting with a boy from Cerys' work (Cerys is the friend with the ones from work), whom Cerys has the hots for. Basically, this outing into town was to see if we could set these two together because he seemed to be interested in her, and she was interested in him. So, to see how things went, we sorted it the British way. Getting drunk.

So, instantly as the alcohol is starting to set in. Jordan is flirting with the boy in front of Cerys. Cerys is getting extremely upset about this because Jordan knows who she's flirting with, and he's flirting back with her.

So, after a while, one of Cerys' work friends sorts it out and tells Jordan what she's doing wrong. So, Jordan becomes all apologetic. But basically continues doing it.

So, yesterday now, Jordan added them all as friends over facebook, and is wondering when they're all going out again because Jordan wants to go out with them all again. This upsets Cerys even more because she thinks Jordan is after him.

Jordan went out again last night for one of her other friends 18th. And was texting Cerys all night if she could have his number, and was badgering her for his number. Basically begging her for his number.

Cerys kept saying no, which got Jordan angry.

They seem to be fine today. But Cerys is pretty pissed off with Jordan because Jordan knew the whole situation and was still going at it. And I'm kinda stuck in the middle because I don't want to lose either friend because I'm leaving soon and I don't want to be leaving on bad terms.

So, we're all going out to see a film (Captain America) on Wednesday night. We're going to eat in T.G.I. Fridays before hand. So, it should all be good.

And hopefully everything will have settled down by then.

Another thing to add that's hanging over my head (and has been since I finished my A Levels) is results day. Which is a week Thursday.

It's been too long a wait. Some part of me just wants to get it over with. Another part of me doesn't want to know because I know I haven't done all that good in them....

Anyway, after a surprisingly long blog tonight. I'm heading off to bed.

Now that I've got it all written down, it does feel like a lot has happened.

Oh, yeah, and whilst I remember. Another problem to add to my growing list of problems is my DVD drive on my computer doesn't work anymore. I had to take it to Apple last week to get someone to pull a DVD out of it for me, and they basically said unless I'm willing to hand out £180, I'm basically going to have to live without a DVD drive.

Which sucks because I can't afford that at the moment.

But anyway.

I'm going to bed now.

Night!

So, the start of a new week.

And hopefully, this week'll be a good one. But. hopefully saving all the extreme good luck to August the 18th, where I get my A Level results.

I most certainly need a lot of luck for that.

On a bright note, I watched a couple of trailers today for films I'd like to see...

This is the Amazing Spider-man trailer. I haven't exactly been keeping up with the progress of this film. I just knew it was coming out next year.

I did not know that they'd finished shooting the film, and a trailer had been released... Ooops.

Anyway this is the trailer for that.

I think it looks pretty awesome...



This is a short preview for The Avengers. Which, looks pretty awesome too... (It won't let me embed it...)

http://youtu.be/hcDTuinqk2Q

This is the trailer for a Guillermo del Toro film, it actually looks quite creepy and scary. Not that I'd expect anything less from him...





This is a film called The Silent House. It's in a foreign language, but that doesn't matter. It still looks pretty awesome. Though, I don't think it'll be hitting my shores....





And this is The Dark Knight Rises. The new Batman film. 


http://youtu.be/apMXFloDH6M


That also won't let me embed...


So, so far, it looks like it could be a good time for films next year. Excluding Don't Be Afraid of the Dark and the Silent House as they are due to be released this year. Apparently, the Silent House has already come out according to youtube. Who knows.


So, next year, we have 


The Amazing Spider-Man
The Dark Knight Rises.
The Avengers.
The Hobbit part one.


And my sister will kill me if I don't mention this one.


Percy Jackson and the Sea of Monsters I think this one is called.


I read the books, but this was going back a while now....


Night!

So, my week has actually been shit.

So, on Monday, I was in a car accident.

Tuesday, I was aching all over with whiplash.

Wednesday, I was ill all day with some viral infection.

Today, well, I've got a DVD stuck in my computer that refuses to be ejected. Then, my parents refused to let my sister and I go to London for a couple of days in August. I can understand their reasons. Mam might be in hospital having an operation.

But sometimes, I feel like they just want to put my life on hold just because one thing goes wrong.

I never hear the end of it. It's like I can't live my own life.

Then, they get insulted when we don't ask Mam how she's feeling in the morning, because it's apparently inconsiderate.

Honestly, it's like, I'm not allowed to live anymore.

I understand it's a difficult situation. Trust me I do.

But I just don't understand how this is supposed to affect my daily life....

Anyway.

Another reason they wouldn't let us go is because of Samuel.

Of course, he takes president over everything in this house. We cant do anything in this house until we know what Sam's going to be doing.

I'm just really frustrated I guess....

So, I'm going to bed now.

Night!

My Blog seems to have become

Just a place for me to explain why I didn't blog the night before.

Which, is not my intention for blogging.

I know when I first started blogging my intention was to blog whenever I could. But since then, it became some sort of thing where I felt really bad when I didn't blog for like, a day.

Sometimes, most of the time, I find that I have nothing to blog about.

And it would be better if I blogged when I had something to say instead of everyday saying that  didn't really have all that much to blog about.

Not that this means that I'm going to stop blogging because, generally, my life if full of nothing's anyway....

So, moving on.

I didn't blog yesterday because I was  out with Sara and my brother. We went to the pub. It was late when I came back, and to be honest with you, I just couldn't be bothered.

I was in a car accident yesterday. Nothing too serious, I'm just super achy.

I still went to work afterwards. I did  consider calling in sick, but then, I do need the money.

It was hellish, but what can I do?

So, nothing much else had happened with me.

I'll save the whole, I can't wait to get out of Swansea thing for tomorrow.

Night!

And I thought,

After a weekends worth of work, that by now, my weeks would be a little bit emptier.

But nope.

Welcome to the Summer holidays.

Where, I'll probably end up working. Though, at the moment, there is quite a lot of competition of hours and pay. Seen as though everyone else is also on holidays too.

So, now, I'm working tomorrow.

And I know I'll probably be called in, where, I'll promptly tell them to go and call Matt, who wants the shifts more, and to call me at a more decent hour to work maybe 10-2, because that works out better for me. :D

Like hell would that ever work...

Anyway.

I'm going to bed now, seen as though nothing interesting ever happens in my life.

Night!

I'm blogging now before it's too late

As, my mam has discovered how to turn off the wifi in the house.

Which sucks quite majourly.

So, I was planning on blogging yesterday, it's just, that I ended up going out drinking, and couldn't really think straight enough to blog when I got home.

So, my blogging this month has been terrible. I get that.

And there's nothing I can do about it. My life's just sort of been crazy. And I've not been near internet half the time.

Or, when I was in Malta, I just don't like blogging from my iPod, it's really awkward...

Anyway.

I'm going to bed now. I am thoroughly tired.

Night!

I didn't blog yesterday because

My internet kinda died out on me, and I literally had nothing until about ten this morning.

It's been playing up for ages, and it's really starting to annoy me now.

So, I'm blogging now whilst I know that I have the chance.

So, I got a new ID.

Thankfully, I seem to have gotten away with it before mam or dad found out.

Which is something short of a miracle.

Anyway.

So, there's nothing much else really been going on in my life.

So,

I'm going to watch a little more of FMA: Brotherhood.

Night!

So, I've got like a weird eye infection

Which sucks.

It is quite noticeable, but not badly so, otherwise I would hole myself up in the house to never go out until it's all healed.

So, I'm going to, hopefully, hand in my application form tomorrow for a new license, and then, I should hopefully have it on Friday.

I found my old photos in my mums room and I've hidden them, so, hopefully, that part will turn out fine too....

Not much else going on in my life at the moment. I'm going to watch some FMA: Brotherhood now.

I'm becoming obsessed... again.

Night!

So, I'll hopefully start getting a new ID tomorrow.

Since I lost my other one, I've got to get a replacement. Which means, I'm now going to have to sneak into the DVLA, and get another one as my Dad works there.

It's going to be a very cautious day, and I hope to God that I can find my old pictures of me from the last time, as I've got like an eye infection or something coming along. It's really quite annoying, but what else can I do about it?

Anyway.

I'm going to go to bed now, and I can't wait for this whole fiasco to be over with!

When I get my new one, I can forget it ever happened.

Night!

I admit to being one of the biggest idiots to have ever walked the planet,

You see. I lost my ID last night.

Yep.

You heard it. I lost it, I have no idea where it's gone. And now, I'm left needing to get another one, so, I'm stuck now without ID until I can get it.

And do it completely without Mam and Dad finding out about it.

So, I've somewhat got it all sorted out, but, I just feel so stupid. Like, how could I let that happen?

Especially when I was so careful with it.

I'm just an idiot.

Anyway.

I'm going to bed now.

Night!

So, I thought

Harry Potter was a big of a disappointment. I mean, don't get me wrong, I enjoyed it, but I thought they could have done so much more with it than what they did.

I thought the acting was quite awkward at some scenes especially from Rupert Grint and Emma Watson. And that, once everything was just about starting, it was over.

Know what I mean?

I know a lot doesn't really happen in the last half of the book, and it's generally focused on the fight between Harry and Voldemort and the whole thing with Hogwarts. But, being a film, I thought they could have done so much more with the material they had to offer.

Oh, well, maybe I'll enjoy it a little more if I go and see it again in a couple of weeks when the whole hype has died down.

Anyway,

I'm planning on going to see Transformers 3 again this Wednesday.

I know, I know, but I can't see it in 3D anymore, as Harry Potter has come out and there's only one 3D in my cinema....

Not much to worry about though, the 2D version is just as good, I just don't get flying alien parts shooting out of the screen at me xD

So, I'm going to bed now.

Back in work tomorrow after not being there for nearly a fortnight.

Fun times, eh?

Probably not.

Night!

Is going to see Harry Potter in a few short hours

And yet, I find myself not really caring all that much.

The only film I really want to see at the moment is Transformers 3, which I have seen on numerous occasions by now.

And, it probably doesn't help that I'm super tired and really want to sleep.

So, I'll leave you with this.

I am going to bed now.

I'll probably talk tomorrow about Harry Potter and decide which'll be my epic movie of the summer.

I'm not really counting on much else...

Night!

So, I had a really good holiday

But I am totally knackered. Like, I slept for about 14 hours last night and I'm still quite tired.

We did loads, and since coming back, I find myself even more excited about leaving home.

I mean, it's not the freedom that's entirely what I'm looking forward too, it's the whole thing with my parents.

I mean, I don't want to be cruel to my parents, but since coming back, well, I had noticed it beforehand, but it's grown since we've come back, that I just don't really want to be with then. Sometimes, I can find that they have two sets of standards, are not really all that nice in general, and are quick to argue with anyone who doesn't agree with them.

Like, earlier for example, I said a joke, something about wanting to listen to my music by the table, and Mam threatened to kick me out of the house.

I just don't want to be here anymore.

I hate living in Swansea, I hate living in Wales.

I find nothing here to amuse me, and there's nothing really keeping me here.

So, I sincerely hope that I get into Surrey, because I don't really fancy going to anywhere in Wales.....

Night!

Hey, sorry I didn't blog last night

My internet waas dead. And I mean, I  couldn't get it to work for the life of me.

So, I had to leave my blog, and most other things for the morning.

I luckily managed to post the new chapter of my fanfiction before it shut down, and I definitely won't be posting anything now between here and at least next Wednesday.

I'll be posting here, Tuesday night, hopefully, because I'll be home by then...

Anyway.

I'm going to be leaving now, so I'm going now.

Bye!

So, I actually really want a dominos pizza.

But I know I can't get one for at least another week and a half because I'm going on Holiday in a couple of days.

Which leads me to tell you that I won't be on blogger for the duration of my holiday.

It's probably not as bad as it sounds, it's just, that I'm not taking my computer, and blogging from my iPod is a bitch, and I probably won't have a lot of time to be blogging.

I'll post loads about it when I come back.

That, or I'll sleep through my blogging.

Lol.

Anyway,

boring day again.

I never seem to do anything besides work and sleep on a weekend.

Anyway...

I'm going to bed now.

Night!

So, I do actually love Transformers 3.

I think it's so much better than the first 2.

I am a sap for epics like this though, the big special effects, and the sci-fi storyline. It's always a killer for me.

I just can't get enough of them.

And even though there will be about a million people who hated it. I guess, I'm just different to them.

I thought by far it was the best. And I hope to see another one, but if they think it's finished on a good note. Then, you know, there's not much I can do about it.

It was most certainly a good way to end it anyway.

Bumblebee was probably my favourite of the entire film. I thought he was class in this film. He had some real badass fight scenes, and was just really funny.

I thought, Optimus would be my next favourite because he was just epic too. And I actually thought a lot of Sam this time around too.

Usually, he's just there and I couldn't care less about what happened to him. But this time, I thought he had some pretty good things to do too.

So, I'll definitely be buying it on DVD when it comes out.

And I will watch it endlessly on DVD, and probably do a couple of days worth of marathons out of it.

One thing I really liked about this one was the fact that there was a lot of original music in it, and not backing tracks of rock songs.

Not that there was a problem to it, I just thought this time it really suited the film to have it's own music.

Maybe I could get the soundtrack? The original and the one with Linkin Park and all that on it too...

Anyway.

I'm going to bed now.

Night!

So, I haven't blogged in the last two days because

I've been feeling really out of it.

I don't usually get ill,  but this time it was a killer. I was doping myself up on paracetamol every four hours and I was still suffering.

So, not been a good start to my summer holidays.

At least it's come this week and not next week when I'm in Malta.

I'm actually really excited, even though I know I'm probably going to die of heat stroke or something...

Anyway, the computers dying, so I'm just going to leave it there...

Night!

Oh, yeah, I'm going to see Transformers 3 (again) tomorrow. (I saw it on Wednesday, I like, forced myself out of the house to see it, because I've been dying to see it...)

I'm not feeling all that well

Actually, I don't feel well at all.

I've got this unending dry throat, and I'm aching all over.

So, I'm actually going to leave it there because all I want to do is go to sleep...

Night!

So, today has been kind of uninteresting

But I can't help but be extremely excited to have a Domino's pizza for dinner tomorrow...

I know I'm a sad person, but I do enjoy their Kickers combo, which is potato wedges and like these spicy chicken nuggets. And I'm a sap for some good chicken nuggets.

So, we're having that tomorrow as a way of celebrating the beginning of the summer holidays, and the end of the exams, even though my sister finished her exams like a week ago...

That doesn't matter though.

We'd planned on having this last Friday, but it all kinda fell through because my aunt was down, and we didn't want to be rude.

So, we're having it tomorrow instead.

Yes.

This thing does need this much planning.

And then, we're going to town, and doing some shopping.

And that's it for tomorrow.

I'm trying to find out when the film Suicide Kids comes out, does anyone know?

Apparently it's later on this summer, but I can't wait that long! I need to see a Robert Sheehan film stat...

Well, one that I haven't already seen....

So, on that obsessive note, I shall be leaving you...


Night!

So, prom

Was okay. It's not like I was disappointed with the night. I was more or less disappointed how undrunk I was.

I mean, I know I was tipsy, but I wasn't anywhere near drunk.

Which kinda sucks because I'd totally planned on being really drunk for this one.

Oh, well, we're planning on going out next Wednesday on the student night.

It'll be my first student night.

One thing that did happen at prom was I tried smoking.

I only did like one drag, but I'm curious to try some more.

But my mum or dad can't find out because they will freak.

I mean, literally kill me, bring me back to life, just to kill me again.

But that brings forth the rebel in me, and makes me want to smoke more just to piss them off....

Anyway, I'm going to bed now.

Night!

So, I've got my last exam tomorrow

Finally.

I mean, the time has gone really fast, right? But I just can't wait for it all to be over.

And then, I probably won't be blogging tomorrow because I'm going to prom tomorrow night. And I'll be drinking all night.

So, no go area there.

Anyway.

I've been getting into this TV show called Young Blades.

It's not really all that good, but it's really addictive, like, I tried watching it before, and just couldn't get past how stupid it was.

But, I'm giving it a second chance.

Just because Robert Sheehan is in it.

I know, obsessions, obsessions, obsessions, right?

Anyway.

Hoping that everything is going to go alright tomorrow...

Night!

So, my aunt is down

For quite a depressing occasion really, but there's not much I can do about it.

Tomorrow is the 1st year anniversary of my Uncle John's death. And to be honest with you, it does not feel like a year has gone by. It's flown by and I can't believe it's actually been a year.

I'm pretty sure I blogged about it, I can vaguely remember doing it.

So, I'm not going to blog for long tonight, mainly because I'm tired, and for another reason, I just don't really have all that much to blog about.

Actually, I have nothing to blog about.

I tried searching for Summer of the Flying Saucer to watch, but just couldn't find it anywhere besides on these websites that wanted to know my bank details.

I'm not that stupid.

So, I guess it'll never come to be.

Anyway.

I've done nothing else all day....

So, I'm going to bed now.

Night!

It's been a pretty uneventful day

I've walked down to Morriston. Ate food. Watched Killing Bono. Again.

Watched some Misfits again.

That's one of the beauties of being so close to the holidays, right?

I mean, I've got one exam left and then I'm done.

And hopefully don't have to worry about sitting those exams again.

I mean, I've got nothing to do besides work, going out drinking and going to Malta and Alcon throughout my holidays. So, eventually my life will just blur together one day after another.

Them pointless days, eh?

I mean, I'm 18, what else am  going to do?

Lol,

Anyway.

I'm going to bed now.

I'm not really having a lot of luck with my Misfits fanfiction (I can remember if I told you about it or not, well, I'm writing one, you know that now...), I can't seem to get everything that's flowing out of my mind onto the computer, know what I mean?

It's like, what I have in my mind is a completely different language to what I'm trying to write.

Hopefully I'll get out of this funk soon.

Night!

So, I guess I overreacted a little yesterday

Well, that wouldn't really be the right term. I guess I did the right thing by leaving it to cool off for a bit.

I was probably a little high-strung, but I guess anyone would be...

So, my dad and I got into another argument, not that that isn't unusual anymore.

But, he was insulting me, so, of course, I'd insult him back.

But in my house, that's not acceptable. We got into an argument.

It got blown way out of proportion.

End of story.

Not much else to say.

Just roll on the end of the week where I'm going to get really smashed at prom.

I told Matt I'd be on the lookout for him because it's his birthday weekend.

Not much else to talk about really.

I'm going to go to bed, because I am the one who's taking the kids to school tomorrow morning.

Night!

The internet is messing around

So I'm going to post just a quick blog, and then I'm gonna leave.

The internet has been messing around for days now, and I don't really want to test it out to see how long it lasts tonight before dying out on me.

I only just about managed to blog last night before it all caved in on me.

Anyway,

Not been a very good day, but I don't think it's a good idea to blog about it yet. Because I'm still kinda reeling from it, so it'll seem kinda like a one-sided argument, and I do need to think it over before I blog it.

It has been one of those days.

Not so much of a Happy Father's Day.

Anyway.

I'm going before the internet dies again.

Night!

And this is tonights

My internet kinda just died out on me last night before I managed to blog. It was being funny all night, so I really should have seen it coming.

Avenue Q was really good, and really funny.

But the day has left me beyond tired. And I'm working tomorrow 10-3.

Anyway.

So, as that usually stands, I will be going to sleep now, I can barely coordinate a thought, let alone to anything else...

Night!

So, this was last night's blog that never made it...

I've got an early start tomorrow and a late finish. I'm working 9-1, then I'm going to Cardiff with my sister. We're going to see Avenue Q.

Yes, the day has finally come. We bought the tickets for this like, what? Beginning of January. So, by tomorrow morning I'll be a screaming mass of excitement.

But it is a long, long day. I mean, we're not getting back into Swansea till about 9.10 in the night, so, I'll be out of the house for atleast 12 an a half hours tomorrow.

Which is usually a killer.

I know it's a killer, I've done it before.

Anyway.

I've started writing fanfiction again.

This one is a Misfits one. Not so surprisingly, considering that all I've done over the last couple of weeks is Exams, Misfits and Robert Sheehan movies.

It was really strange today, actually, to watch a film without Robert Sheehan in it (We were watching Kick-Ass, which actually has some ties to Robert Sheehan because he auditioned to be Red Mist...)

But yeah, I'm going to bed now.

Night!

So, English lit

Went okay. I guess.

There was one part that I know didn't go all that well. So I guess I can forget going to Surrey right? I mean, as I'm feeling at the moment, I'd be bloody lucky to get into Aber.

Not much I can do now though, is it?

I can try and get my B in English Lang, I'm pretty sure that covers my B for Aber, and just generally hope for the best.

Anyway. I'm going to bed now.

I am posting stupidly late...

Night!

So, I've got one of the most important exams of the rest of my career.

Well, not my career. But tomorrow is my English lit exam, and the exam I need to do really well in, so for today's blog, I will be posting  quotes.

Good times, eh?

The first set is from the Wife of Bath....:

And yes, they are spelt correctly...

'Experience, though noon auctoritee
Were in this world, is right ynogh for me
To speke oof the wo that is in marriage'

An housbande I wol have, I wol natte lette
Which shall be bothe by my dettour and my thrall'

'Deceite, weping, spinning God hath yive
To wommen kindely, whil that they may live'

'For trusteth wel, it is an impossible
That any clerk wol speke good of wives
But if it be of hooly seintes lives'

'And whan that I hadde geten unto me,
By maistrie, al the soveraintee'

'He saugh a maide walkinge him biforn,
Of which maide anon, maugree hir heed,
By verray force, he rafte hir maidenhead'

'Wommen desiren to have sovereinetee
As wel over hir housband as hir love
And for to been in maistrie him above'

'For gentillesse cometh fro God allone'

'I put me in youre wise governance'

'And eek I praye Jhesu shorte hir lives
That wol nat be governed by hir wives'

King Lear:

"Nothing will come of nothing," - Lear
"What shall Cordelia speak? Love, and be silent." - Cordelia
"Though swear'st thy gods in vain." Kent
"Hadst not been born than not to have pleased me better." Lear
"What need one?" Regan
"Sir, 'tis my occupation to be plain." Kent
"You are not worth the dust which the rude wind blows in your face." Albany
"By Jupiter, I swear no." Lear
"By Juno, I swear ay." Kent
"Or e'er I'll weep. O fool, I shall go mad." Lear.
"Shut up your doors, my Lord; 'tis a wild night." Cornwall
"Nor rain, wind, thunder, fire are my daughters." Lear.
"The wrathful skies." Kent - personification
"I am a man more sinned against than sinning." Lear
"The younger rises when the old doth fall." Edmund
"Thou sapient sir, sit here. No, you she-foxes." Lear
"Is there any cause in nature that make these hard hearts?" Lear
"Pluck out his eyes!" Goneril.
"Which is the justic, which is the thief?" Lear
"I am a very foolish, fond old man." Lear
"We that are young
Shall never see so much, nor live so long." Edgar

Oedipus:
"What was the word of the god?" Oedipus
"Sweet voice of Zeus." Chorus
"Your eyes are blind." Oedipus
"I have command, I have influence,
But not the cares of the state" Creon
"Exiled, disgraced, dishonoured." Oedipus.
"But they know who I am." Creon.
"Zeus, what have you decided to do to me?" Oedipus
"Yet longed to look into my parents eyes."
"What madness - what god descended on you?" Chorus.

So, there you have it, the long list of things I've been trying to remember all day.

I hope at least half of it has sunk in...

Night!

3 down 2 to go

So, I am now officially over half way there, and after Thursday, I'm even closer to the finishing line.

I really can't wait to get these exams over with.

Then, there's also the thing that I just can't wait to generally be out of Swansea and in a new city.

So, I've been thinking about getting a second summer job.

But I'm not sure where to go abouts it.

I'm pretty sure I don't want to go back to Asda unless I really have to.

I mean, it's not like my time there was bad, it's just, I've been there once, and I don't want to go back now...

Anyway.

I'll think about it more over the weekend, I'm going to bed.

Night!

After tomorrow

I'm over half way through my exams.

Tomorrow is my third of five exams, and boy I can't wait to be rid of it.

Mainly because, after tomorrow, I'm done with Welsh. And I'm definitely not resitting it if I've failed it. I seriously cannot wait for Welsh to be over with.

But moving on.

It is very late, and I do have to be up in the morning.

And I am taking note at how really pompous that sounds.

I bought Love/Hate today. Because, by the looks of it, I'm never going to see if otherwise...

Night!

So, I guess I'm not going

To the Olympics in 2012. I applied for my tickets months and months ago, but I guess I never got anything because the last I heard was that they were taking money between the 10th of May and the 10th of June, and I haven't had any money credited to my account for the amount of money for the tickets I applied for.

Oh, well.

Maybe I could go and stand outside the stadium or something.

I could always look on the brightside, right?

That's, £91 more for me.

But then, it is kinda disappointing because I did want to go.

But always look to the future.

My sister and me are planning on going to Rio in 2016 to see the Olympics. Or just generally go on Holiday.

Oh well.

There'll be other Olympics' before I die.

That is, if I don't die over the course of the next two years...

That made no sense whatsoever....

Moving on.

I've been sent to bed again, so...

Night!

So, I'm 18 years old, right?

And I've been sent to bed.

Yep.

Well, not that I'm arguing much, I was woken up at 7.30 this morning by work to come in early.

Which is always a killer.

At least tomorrow I get some form of lie in.

Well, I hope so anyway.

So, sorry this is such a short post, my mum is actually threatening to turn off the internet...

Night!

S'not going to be a long post

So, for the first time in a long time, I've thought about writing some fanfiction.

Some Misfits fanfiction.

The only problem is, I'm so out of practice with creative writing, and fanfiction writing, that I'm just finding it a little hard to get back into it.

I mean, I've got an idea.

I know what I want to do.

It's just getting to writing it down.

I mean, it probably doesn't help that I'm still in middle of my exams, so naturally, my creativity is drawn to a close as it is....

But anyway.

Only, what? Two weeks left of exams and then we're over.

Huzzah!

Night!

I just watched the Social Network

And it's actually pretty good.

I'm surprised, because one of my friends said that they'd seen it and thought that it wasn't all that good.

I mean, I don't think it's a film I'd buy on DVD, but it's probably a film I'd watch if it was on SkyMovies or something.

So,

I did actually wake up at 5:00am this morning, and boy was it a killer.

I mean, I was planning on watching Killing Bono again, but, considering that I can barely keep my eyes open now, doesn't really inspire me with much hope of getting through the film.

So, I'll probably leave it till tomorrow.

It's not like it's getting anywhere, is it?

And besides, the DVD of it comes out on August 29th, and I'll be there, buying it.

I do actually, really like Killing Bono. I watched it originally because Robert Sheehan was credited, then I saw that Ben Barnes was in it, and I definitely had to watch it then.

Anyway.

I'm going to bed now.

Night!

I'm going to bed

Reasonably early for once.

And only because I'm waking up at a ridiculous hour to do some revision.

I mean, I've been revising all day, right? But I feel like I've learnt shit all.

So, I'm going to set an alarm for 5 and start revising, it's something I really need to do otherwise I'm not going to get a grade in this one.

It's stupid, right?

But, I just don't feel like I've learnt anything at all today, even with the countless hours I've spent on this revising, nothing just seems to have worked, I've even tried more than one revision tactic, and neither of them seemed to have worked.

So, maybe the early morning revision thing'll do me well, right?

I am so looking forward to the end of the exams.

What a complete load of bollocks...

Night!

I'm such a total prick sometimes

That I don't know what to do with myself.

I honestly don't know where the day has gone, and suddenly, I find myself at 12:00 at night, with doing, basically, shit all amounts of revision for an A level exam that's now, tomorrow.

I might as well just kill myself now.

I'm obviously not going to get anywhere else.

Obviously not going to get into Surrey.

I'd be bloody lucky to get into Aberystwyth at this rate...

Anyway. I'm not going to sit around here moping about how shit my life is going to turn out to be.

I'm just going to go to bed.

Night!

My first exam

Went okay.

It could have gone worse, and to be honest with you, I'm pretty sure it could have gone better.

But it's too late to do anything about it now, isn't it?

So, tomorrow, I'm focusing on my Welsh exam, then after that it's English lit, then English lang.

Not too bad, but it's too late to realise that I probably should have been revising for this weeks ago... right?

Because now, I'm certainly feeling the pressure.

But I never have had a long term memory, so hopefully, this'll go well for me?

Hoping and praying here.

The only thing I need is an A in English lit. I really need that A.

So, anyway.

I'm going to bed now.

Night!

My exams start tomorrow

And to be honest, I'm pretty sure I should be more worried than I am.

It just hasn't really sunk in yet.

And then, what else can I do about it?

So, I watched the last film in the Red Riding trilogy. I think I preferred the last one to the other two, I felt that there was a lot more going on, and it definitely wasn't as open ended as the others.

Then, I watched Song for a Raggy Boy. Now that's sad.

I want to buy it on DVD, that and the Red Riding trilogy. It's weird, their not usually my type of films...

Anyway.

I'm going to bed now.

Night!

A blog from my computer?

Why, yes it is.

So, I've been working most of the day.

As per usual on a Saturday.

And now it's 1:05 on Sunday, and I'm really damn tired. So, Im going to go to bed before it's too late. Considering, at the moment, I have this bad habit of waking up at 5.38 exactly.

It's really strange....

Oh well.

Sleep time.

Night!

P.S.: this is so short because I was just watching the second part of the Red Riding trilogy. It was actually quite good :D

Yet another post from my iPod...

So, we finished watching the Misfits series tonight. Well, it would be like, my fifth time watching the series now. Bit who's counting?

Certainly not me.

Though, just watching the show again, just added onto the feeling that the series isn't going to be the same without Nathan. For me, he most definitely is my favourite character. Which is really strange as usually he would be a person I would try to avoid in real life, whilst dreaming of living their lives. Which is quite sad because I'd rather be living anyone's life besides my own.

I mean, there are some people's lives I wouldn't really like to live. But I don't really enjoy living my life. I don't really feel like I'm doing everything I want to be doing. Experiencing the world. Know what I mean?

Anyway, I'm going to sleep. So...

Night!

So, I'm posting from my iPod

I remember a time when it used to be rare that I would even post from my computer, and I would post everything like this.

I'd forgotten how much of a pain in the ass it is. So. It will be a short post, and this is why the grammar is going to be fucking shit. And nothing will make sense because of the auto correct on here.

So apologies for that.

So, basically, that's all I wanted to blog about was that I think I got my sister into Misfits. I know. The dvd's finally came today, and we watched the first episode together and she watched the second on her own.

So, we've now watched the whole first season together. And will probably watch the second tomorrow.. Exciting times, eh?

Anyway, I'm going to bed....

Night!

So, the countdown to my exams

Have started. I'm worried.

I'm trying to do something about it, but can't seem to get into the hang of it.

It's going to be a stressful couple of weeks, know what I mean?

And, I watched the first film in the Red Riding trilogy today.

It was quite good. I'll probably watch the last two, just to see what they're like.

Not much else really to talk about. I'm back in work tomorrow, which sucks, but, hey, it's money. Right?

So, I'm going off to bed. Basically because I've got shitall else to talk about.

Night!

I've developed a slight obsession with

Robert Sheehan, and Misfits.....

Misfits, for those who don't know, is a British supernatural drama about a group of young offenders who are caught in a freak storm, get struck by lightening and gain super powers.

From that synopsis, I guess many people would think that it's complete and utter shite.

But it's not.

It's actually really good.

And my favourite character is definitely Nathan. He's a right prick, but that''s why he's so likable. He's funny, witty, and, there's probably more to his character than what he lets on.

Sadly, Nathan isn't going to be there next season.

Which absolutely blows. I'm not sure how much I'll enjoy the series without Nathan in it. I mean, for me, he is the show...

So, moving on to my other obsession.

Robert Sheehan, who, coincidentally plays Nathan in Misfits.

I think he's a great actor, and I've now seen a decent enough amount of his movies to say that. I'm still looking for some of his stuff, but I watched him in Season of the Witch, Killing Bono, An Créatúr, Cherrybomb, I've got three more lined up (obsessions, remember?) and I think I'll probably will have to call it quits, because otherwise it does seem a little stalkerish....

Know what I mean?

I think the Irish accent does it too.

But who doesn't like an Irish accent, right?

Anyway.

I'm going to bed now....

Night!

So, I met Darren Shan today.

And it was fucking awesome.

I'm sorry, but in this event, swearing was necessary.

I'm apparently supposed to working tomorrow, but, I don't know whether she knew it was me or some other person who has the same name as me.

So, I'm going to ring up and ask about that tomorrow.

Because, to be honest with you, I don't really want to be going in there and them being like, oh, what are you doing here? when I could be at home doing some revision for my exams...

Anyway.

I'm going to bed now.

And for some reason, the little voice in my head that's repeating this to me as I type is thinking this in an Irish accent.

Do you think that's normal?

Probably not.

Though, I have been watching one hell of a lot of Irish films these days....

Night!

I've had a fun couple of nights

And that's all really.

I've felt like shit all day. And still feel like shit now, if I'm going to be honest with you.

Anyway.

I'm going to meet Darren Shan tomorrow, and I'm really excited. Hopefully, I'll get a picture taken with him, and everything will be alright.

But yeah, not really much else to say at the moment.

And it doesn't help that I'm really damn tired.

Maybe tomorrow I'll talk about the films I've seen recently. That'll keep me going for a while, right?

Night!

So, my 18th birthday party starts tomorrow

And I probably won't be blogging at all between now and like, Sunday.

Reason one being, that my friends are over for a sleepover tomorrow night.

Reason two being, I'll be out on the Wind Street on Saturday night.

It's like a double whammy or something.

I'll try and blog tomorrow before all my friends come, but you know what I'm like with remembering to blog.

So, consider is a leave of absence or something.

I'm just shit at keeping up with things. Why do you think I fail all my exams?

Anyway.

I'm going to bed now...

Night!

I finished watching Misfits

And it's a really amazing show.

I'm not too sure about whether I'll be watching season 3 though if Nathan isn't in it, to me he is like, the show itself. It just wouldn't be the same without him.

I'm not too sure about why he's not coming back. Whether it was his decision, the writers. I don't know.

And to be honest with you, I don't really care either.

But yeah.

It's not going to be the same without him. I might give it a go for a while, but I'm not too sure.

And I'm going to bed now.

Night!

I've been watching Misfits.

And it's super funny so far. I've just started season two and it's really good so far.

I mean, I know there isn't a lot of episodes per season, and I've read that the guy who plays Nathan isn't coming back (which sucks, because Nathan is like the funniest character of the show), but I'll finish watching the series to see what happens.

That's all really.

My phone is all set up and running.

I'm enjoying my first contract phone.

Moving on. I'm going to bed...

Night!

I've had a good day for once!

As today is my 18th birthday, and my first official day of study leave, I decided to celebrate by doing shitall.

So, I was woken at 6.50 by the parents to give me my parents. Then, after that, I got changed and eagerly anticipated the mail man who was due around any time. Not so that I could get cards  (I only got one in the end anyway...), to see if my Pringles had FINALLY come today (on this count, I was sadly disappointed...).

But after that. I watched my new DVD, 5 Centimeters Per Second, which I can't say whether I like or not because I didn't really pay all that much attention to because I was getting emails from facebook with people wishing me a happy birthday.

Then, after that, Sara and I went into town, and I got my new phone, which I'm totally loving at the moment.

Then, we met up with Cerys and Jordan and got some party stuff with them.

And for the rest of the day I've just lazed around.

It's been real good fun actually.

As you can probably already guess. I am quite the lazy person.

But anyway. For tomorrow. Revision or cleaning my room?

Both are quite essential. So, I might clean my room in the morning and revise in the afternoon?

Sounds like a plan...

Night!

My last day as a 17 year old.

And to be honest with you, it's been quite a stressful one.

Neil was okay with me today. I don't know whether it was because I was the only other person he could talk to. Or because he was stressed too.

The other worker called in sick, and it was really busy in work today.

I was just about ready to kill myself.

Anyway.

I'm not really going to focus on the bad things. I just can't wait to turn 18.


Not long left now...

I kinda lost track of all my thoughts, so I'm just going to leave you there and come back to you when I'm 18 :D

Night!

So, it's been a really long day today.

And I'm being serious. It's like, I've done nothing but be awake since 6.30 this morning.

I don't even know why I was awake at 6.30 this morning, especially considering that I wasn't even working until 1 this afternoon.

Anyway.

Working again tomorrow. Good times, eh?

I really don't want to be there, Neil is going to be there, and he's just clueless and disorganized and then blames everything on me.

I'll try my best to stand im tomorrow and make myself seem busy. But it's a Sunday, you can't really find something to do all day....

Moving onwards.

I'm going to bed really early tonight, more or less because I'm so tired.

And I'm staying up tomorrow to see my birthday in :D

Night!

Finally finished school!

So, it's been quite an eventful day.

Got into school, and then, first off, we filled water balloons, and then, we painted a 'for sale' sign to go on the front of the school.

Then, we went and painted our handprints onto the wall. Put really loud music on.

Threw water balloons at younger kids from the fourth floor window.

Got shouted at for throwing water balloons and painting on the wall.

Then,we went to the Farewell ceremony, where the teachers proceeded to do this:




It was quite funny.

Then, we had a pizza party, and waited for the end of the day.

So happy that I've left.

It's finally come after seven years of waiting! Lol.

Anyway.

Work tomorrow, so I'm going to bed.

Night!

Last Day of School tomorrow

I've been waiting for this day for like, the last two years of my life.

I was ready to leave back in GCSE's, let alone now.

I'm ready to move on with my life.

And, to be honest with you, I'm not sad about going. Some people seem to be quite sad to be leaving. But I seriously can't wait for the end of tomorrow.

It doesn't look like we have many lessons tomorrow, and we're having like this party tomorrow.

And, it seems like we're pulling a couple of pranks. I'm not really into that kind of thing, but, I guess it'll be fun anyway, right?

I guess that'll probably all I'll blog about tomorrow, and then complain because I have to work on Saturday.

Oh, well.

Hopefully they won't fire me. I know I'm a useless worker, and I will try my hardest to be a better work. But, I do need guidance on how to be a better worker....

Anyway.

I'm going to bed now...

Night!

I've been doing a Welsh test

Well, it was supposed to be a test, but I brought it home and cheated my way through it.

Not intentionally. I've just not had the time to revise for it. Well, I probably have, but you know me, I'm just a lazy sucker.

Anyway.

So, I'm going to share with you a song that always remains close to me. Yes. A song close to me other than Flyleaf music...



This is Breaking Benjamin's Evil Angel.

I first started listening to Breaking Benjamin with this song:



This is Had Enough, and even though an amazing song.

To me, it's never going to be as good as Evil Angel. I always find it difficult to choose a favourite Breaking Benjamin song, because I love them all. But Evil Angel is always the one that stands out the most.

That, and like every song of their Dear Agony album. I think that has to be my favourite of all their albums...

But yeah.

I love Evil Angel. I can always find inspiration from this song, and hopefully, it'll stay with me for a lot longer :D

Night!

The internet

Is being particularly shit tonight. I don't know what's wrong with it.

It's been playing up for the last two or so days, but it just takes forever to load things up, or load things partially and then it just stops loading videos all together.

It's really frustrating when you're trying to watch something and you have to keep pausing it to play it.

That's basically it.

In case you're wondering, it's the Runaways that I was watching.

I am surprised at how good it actually is.

I didn't have much faith for the film, but it turned out to be a lot better than I thought it would...

Anyway.

I'm going to bed now.

Night!

Not really got much to say

I've got a Welsh test tomorrow, and my day has been kinda boring. Not really done much.

But yet, here I am.

Again.

I guess by the end, I'll probably have someone kicking me off for complaining too much about my life.

Or having nothing ever going on in my life to talk about.

One way or the other. I don't really care at this point.

So, I'm paying for Prom tomorrow. Which, I'm not too certain about.

Like a week ago, not many people were going, but now that some things have been cleared out. There seems to be more people going.

The only people that don't seem to be going are people who won't be 18 yet. Which, is understandable, considering that they seem to be quite strict on their underage drinking.

They are a five star hotel from what I hear.

Probably not.

But, oh well, what can you do, eh?

Night!

500 Blog posts!

Yep. We've finally made it. And I never thought I'd actually get this far into my blogger account.

I usually stop daily blogging about a week into blogging. Know what I mean?

Probably not.

But, I usually commit to blogging everyday and then never do it.

Of course, my track record here hasn't been spotless or anything, but I've never not blogged if I'm on the computer. I don't blog when I'm at a friends house, or I'm at a party and know I'm not going to be coherent enough to blog.

Tried it once.

Didn't work out all that well for me.

So. I've had a particularly shit day at work. The senior sales who was there seemed to have some sort of problem with me.

He wanted me to do about a million and one things, and then, when, I forget to do one thing. He growls at me and has a go at me.

And I'm being serious here. He growled at me.

I'm sure that's got to be illegal at some level.

He's just a prick.

Honestly, I could just about fucking kill the little prick.

I come into work at store opening hours and there's like nothing set up.

So I set up shop and serve customers whilst he goes around the back of the shop and does shit all.

I hate people like that.

I'd better not dwell on it, because otherwise I'll be thinking about that more than anything else.

Night!

Lol! The Eurovision Song contest.

So, I'm not sure how big the Eurovision Song contest is beyond Europe, so I'll basically give it a low down. It's a song contest. Mainly consisting of European countries. Though, Russia is in there too.

I've never taken it seriously, some people do.

Which is why, I voted for Jedward.

I never really listened to Jedward before. I'm not really big into the X Factor, I usually watch like, the auditions, heck, I only watch like half of those these days too... and that's it.

But I don't have any ill intentions towards them.

But I thought they were really funny tonight, so I voted for them.

And Moldova.

Moldova were funny too.

Didn't really think much of Azerbaijan, but congrats to them.

See them next year.

Probably won't think of their song every again, but, oh well...

Night!

I didn't blog yesterday because...

Blogger was down, it kept telling me that it was unavailable. Which sucks, because now I'm down one count on my May blog month.

Well, I should be two, but I accidentally posted twice in one day a couple of days ago....

Oh, well,

So, hopefully, I'm getting a new phone tomorrow. I can't really make any promises at the moment, because, knowing what I'm like, I get really discouraged about buying new stuff. Especially, when there's not really much wrong with the phone I've got now.

Moving on (this will be a short blog. I'm not feeling too good and I've got work in the morning), the Eurovision is tomorrow. I'm usually a little more excited than this. But at this moment in time, I don't care too much.

Anyway.

I get a Cantonese out of it, so, all is well.

Night!

So, I went to see Insidious...

And, to be honest with you, I'm quite disappointed. I didn't think it was as scary as people were making it out to be.

I mean, of course, I was scared. But not the same as what I was with Paranormal Activity. I mean, when I went to see that in the cinema, I couldn't think of it for weeks without being scared. But with this one. I don't really feel anything.

I thought it was quite farfetched. Especially at the end. I mean, like the last hour or so when you find out about the child being in the 'further' or whatever. And that the same happened to his father.

That was a bit out there.

And then, I thought the ending as really similar to Paranormal Activity.

It was a good film, don't get me wrong, and I was scared whilst watching it.

But that's it. It's done nothing for me since.

But anyway.

It's late and now I'm going to bed....

Night!

So, I don't really know what to blog about...

It's not really been an eventful day.

I've not really done much all day.

Nothing worth talking about anyway.

I can feel the tension rising between my friends though, and thankfully, there's only a week and a half left of school, so then, we all get a chance to cool down and not be around each other for a while.

It makes things a little easier, at least, after not seeing each other for so long.

We can breathe a little easier, and I'll be 18, so I can do more with my life.

I think, though, that the boiling point has reached it's limit. Ffion was apparently having a go at Cerys in school today.

I wasn't there.

I went home.

So, I can't really talk about it because I don't know what exactly happened.

So, I'm going to bed...

Night!

Is being this excited to turn 18 normal?

I mean, it's literally the only thing on my mind lately.

Stuff exams, I'm ready to go out drinking and having fun....

Well,

Not to that extent. I just want to have the freedom to know, yeah, I can do that without really having to ask anyone about it because I'm legally an adult.

And the pay rise.

The pay rise in work is great too.

So, I finished all my coursework today.

Like, literally, my last coursework in Bryn Tawe is now finished. I'm so happy to be leaving.

Only two weeks left and I'm not longer a student of the school.

Well, I don't have to turn up any longer for lessons.

Not that I legally have to turn up anyway, but you get what I mean, right?

I'm no longer a Year 13 Sixth Form student any longer after today.

Jumping on from my joy.

I'm going to watch epic moments of Naruto and then go to bed.

By epic moments, I mean, rewatching my favourite moments of Shippuden and then going to bed. It's always a good plan if I do it like that :D

Night!

Going back to school tomorrow.

And I'm still worrying about my bus times, or well, buying my bus tickets...

I know, I know.

Too soon?

Yeah.

But, I want to buy them to get everything out of the way.

Speaking of buying everything, this week, I need to buy my learner's permit for my ID, then, I need to pay for Prom, and then I need to buy my pringles for my birthday...

Yep.

I'm downgrading to buying my own birthday presents...

But not much else is going on in my life at the moment, to be honest with you...

So, I'm going to bed now.

Do you think if I put my page up to ten posts on the front page that that freaky trailer would have gone?

I hope so, but I'll do that tomorrow.

Anyway.


Night!

I should probably

Apologise for my blog post yesterday night.

I probably shouldn't have even blogged it all.

But I was really upset, and I needed to you know, get it out of my system. I actually feel really bad about posting it on here.

But it's not like I came on here to talk about anything else.

It's my blog, and I talk about my life, and my writing.

Though, I probably should have held back on the swearing.

But yeah,

So,

Everything's okay now. No more arguing. I get my party back.

Problem solved.

Just a little family drama, is all...

Anyway, I'm going to bed now...

Night!

I'm so fucking pissed off at the moment.

So, w went to the cinema tonight, didn't we? To see Insidious, but there weren't enough cinema tickets. So, my sister, Jordan and her brother went in to see the film, and the rest of us went to see Thor.

The biggest fucking mistake of my life. My sister never told my dad she was getting a lift of Jordan, so not to bother coming to get us.

So, he's there pissed off, angry, and shouting at me in the middle of the cinema, whilst Sara is dandily on her way home. Without fucking mentioning anything to anyone.

Greta fucking move on her part.

But no, it's not Sara's fault. It's mine. No matter that there was a fucking 19 year old there either, it's my own fucking fault.

It was my responsibility, because apparently, I'm the one who has to tell everyone everything. No one else has to say anything.

I could fucking hit something at the moment.

I'm so fucking angry with Sara, myself, my dad for just shouting at me in fucking general. I'm sick of being shouted at, that's all that he does is pick on my wrongs, it's never anyone else's fault though, it's always mine.

Like, should have chosen a different university, shouldn't have done those A Level choices.

This is wrong, that is wrong.

Nothing is ever fucking right with that man.

And as a result? I'm not getting any 18th party because my younger fucking sister can't be bothered to pick up a fucking phone.

But no, it would never be anything to do with Sara. Sara would never get anything fucking taken off of her, she's too good for that.

Anyway, I think I'm probably to emotional to be blogging, and should probably be getting to bed.

Night...

So, my exam, thankfully, wasn't today.

It's tomorrow instead. I was really grateful for the extra day, but at the same time, I just really wanted to get it over with so I could revise other things too....

Oh well.

It'll definitely all be over with tomorrow, and then I only have to finish my English Lang coursework, then there's literally only a couple of tweaks left to do on my individual investigation, and I can focus entirely on my revision for my other exams...

Good times, eh?

Not really.

The end of the year is finally arriving, and all the loose ends are finally coming together.

But yeah, not much else to report otherwise...

Night!

So, my Welsh Oral exams officially start tomorrow.

And to be honest with you, I'm surprised I'm not all that worried about it...

I've done like zero revision, and it doesn't bother me at all. I usually start panicking the night before an exam, but with Welsh, if I want to get into Surrey, I don't really need it. But I'm not taking that kind of attitude. It's like, I gave up on the subject months ago, and why should I really be wasting my effort when I could be doing something else, like my English coursework, and getting ready for those exams...

But yeah...

Instead of spending my time revising today, I did some English lang coursework, then I caught up on Naruto manga.

I did find myself going 'awwh' at some places, you know, with Iruka and Naruto. That was kinda sad, but, not in a teary way, but in a cute way. I do, at some points, think Iruka can be quite annoying, and doesn't really do much. But he is important to Naruto. And he's taught Naruto some really good things, which makes him less of a useless character. He's more of a shadow character, know what I mean? He's there, but his presence is known more in the background than his time in the front....

I bet that made no sense whatsoever...

I did when I was thinking it anyway.... xD
Lol.

Anyway.

I'm going to bed now, and hopefully the trailer for that Grave Encounters thing isn't on the front page anymore, because when you're looking at it at this hour, and that's all you can see is the edited girls face. It's kinda eerie..... I have to check it every night to make sure it's gone....

Anyway....

Night!

I realised when I turned on my computer

That I'd blogged twice, and not even realised it....

I must have completely forgotten in the hour in between blogging that I had actually blogged.

That's not something I'd usually do...

Anyway.

So, I'm starting to get worried about buying my bus tickets for Alcon....

Well, I know it's really early, but if I get my tickets now, they're like 10 times cheaper than what they're going to be in like two months time....

I just suffer from paranoia, it's okay. I do get OCD about these kind of thing, you know I've checked the National Express website every day to make sure that they haven't gone up in price....

I think I should probably get that checked, it shouldn't be normal to check all of these things all the time.

Like, obsessively too. Not just, a 'Okay, I'll have a quick glance every now and again to see if the prices have gone up, if there's any newer times'. I check it, literally, every few hours.

Oh well, it's probably nothing, the inner psycho, right?

Night!

So, it's back to school tomorrow.

And guess what? I've done shit all amounts of work again.

I've been working all day again, and I was determined to come home and do some work, but I was so damn tired that I never got around to it, so I'm probably going to come home early tomorrow to do some work, and do some revision for my Welsh Oral Exams, which, I too, again, have done hardly no revision for, and the actual A Level exam is on Thursday....

Yay?

Yeah, I'm actually more interested at the moment in this idea for my new story. I'm probably going to be posting it on fictionpress soon. Just so I can get some second opinions. I really do look forward to developing this idea because I've been waiting on a good idea for a while now....

Anyway. With little else to say I leave you with one thing...

Night!

Not a long post tonight

Mainly because I'm really tired.

I was out in Katie's party last night and I got really drunk.... and I threw up over a table...

Anyway.

I'm going to go to bed now....

The cat is literally kicking me off the computer chair...

Night!

I've started writing

A new story. It's not that I've lost hope for Danny. God no. It's just that I got some major inspiration for a different story that's been sitting in the back of my head for a while now....

So, here's the prologue and the beginning of chapter 1

Unseen

Prologue.

Sometimes, I just don’t understand.

            Sometimes, life seems more than it actually is, but the answer is just there, in front of you.

            Sometimes, things that can be explained, but isn’t.

            I didn’t understand what was happening to me until it was nearly over.

            My mother, my father, my brother or sister. I didn’t understand what was going on with them. I thought it was them.

            It was me.

            I guess it all started with a man.

Chapter 1

My name is Bethany Rockwell, I’m fourteen years old, and I live in Swansea, s city in Wales, the United Kingdom. My life has been great. I have good friends, a loving family. We weren’t rich, but we weren’t poor either.           

            My mother, Susan, had always told me how I would go far, that I would always achieve my dreams. My father, James, always reminded me, that I was smart.

            I had one brother, Dafydd, or Dave, as we called him. And a sister, Anwen. Dave was older, he was nineteen years old, whilst Anwen, was only eight. We got along okay. We fought, but that’s how all brothers and sisters acted. Or as I was told.

            I guess everything really started with a man.

            I’d awoken from a bad dream I’d had been having. In my dream, I’m in my bed, until a sound, usually a bang on the front door, wakes me up. I hear a distant scream from my sister, but my body is paralyzed with fear. It’s all quiet in the house. I can’t hear anything. Until suddenly, my door begins to creep open. And a man, wearing nothing but black, walks in on me. He raises his gun to me. The fear creeping up my body, sending shivers down my spine. My head tells my body to run, to get away. This man is bad. But I don’t move. I can’t move.

            He stares at me, his dark eyes shinning in the moonlight in my window. I don’t catch the features on his face. And then, BANG!

            Then I wake, not knowing what happened.

            But this time, when I woke up it was different. I look out my window, and it’s light outside, but there’s a dark mist in the corner of my window.

            My hearts racing, I’m scared because of my dream. The sweat is raining off me, and my hair is matted down to my head.

            “Beth?” I hear a shout. “Are you okay? What happened?”

            My mum comes bursting in to the room; I look away from the window to her. I could swear I felt it smiling at me.

            “I’m fine.” I reply. “Just a bad dream.”

            I look back to the window. There’s nothing there.

            I breathe. I can feel my heartbeat slowing.

            “You were screaming.” My mother stated. She does like to say the obvious.

            “I’m fine now. It was just a bad dream.”

            “Okay.” She sighs, and leaves the room. It’s a Saturday. She doesn’t care what I do or not.

So, it's kinda a different writing style to what I do. But, because it's a younger character it's coming from, I want it to sound younger. Not be all sophisticated when she's actually quite young and won't want to be use words that wouldn't seem normal to her.

I'm still in the process of fleshing out the characters, so forgive me if the mother's a little off. I'm sure where I'm going with some of the characters yet....

Anyway....

Night!

I'm so tired...

But one good thing has come out of tonight, and that's I've paid for Alcon. The only thing left for me to do now is to buy my bus tickets to get there and I don't really need to worry about paying for anything else for Alcon.

I'm so excited, the only thing on my mind lately is Alcon.

It's that, exams, university, getting out of the house, turning 18, and going to Malta is usually the things running through my head.

And Danny too. I do get the random thoughts about where I'm going with that....

Anyway....

I'm going to go to bed now.

I'm supposed to be awake early in the morning because my mum's friend is coming over to watch the Royal Wedding...

Yuck.

I mean, good on them for doing what they want, but don't expect me to be there to watch it is all....

Night!

I love Death the Kid.

I mean, I'm still going through my Soul Eater phase, and the episodes with Death the Kid are probably the best.... and the manga's with Death the Kid.

He's probably my favourite character of the series, his obsession with symmetry, in my opinion, is what makes him the best. I don't usually like the perfect characters, but he has this major flaw with his OCD. And even though he's quite reserved in character, he's not hesitant to show his emotion, which is something that the 'perfect' character usually loses.

But yeah, so I sent my email off to pay for Alcon today, so I can officially get excited.

I am so excited.

I really can't wait. It's going to be my first convention, and hopefully, not my last. I've always wanted to go to conventions, but could never get parents approval to go....

So, now that Alcon is happening when I'm 18, my parents take the view that they can't really do anything to stop me, and I'm allowed to go...

I'm just stupidly excited...

Anyway, I'm going to bed now...

Night!

So, I think this film looks

Interesting, but bad at the same time. Know what I mean?

It's just the kind of trashy movie I like to watch. I am a bit of a geek for these kind of films, so is all good.

Anyway.

So, I've been discussing with my friends about staying an extra night at Alcon. I mean, there are some pretty awesome stuff happening on the last night there, and I don't really want to miss it all considering it'll be our first convention.

So, I've emailed Alcon about it, and I'm waiting for a reply. Which, hopefully, won't be too long because I want to pay for it all ASAP.

Anyway.

Not much else to talk about.

Here's the trailer for the film...

Night!

Not much to talk about really.

I'm stupidly tired, and I just really want to get to bed.

I've been in work most days over the last week, and honestly, I think it's killing me...

Anyway.

So,

Not much has happened today. I went to work, came home played on Guitar Hero.

More like, failed at playing Guitar Hero...

But yeah.

Not much else to talk about really....

Night!

Happy Easter!

So, yeah, as most Easter's go, and every other day I guess. I do nothing at all...

But yeah. I hope everyone had a great Easter, and thoroughly enjoyed their chocolate....

So, I've mostly spent my Easter talking about my costume for my party.

It's turning out to be a bit of a pain.

I can't seem to decide whether I want to get the official one which is nearly £30, or to get one that, even though doesn't look all to similar, is at least £10 cheaper and I can alter it to make it look more similar.

Gah, it's just bugging me....

Not much else to talk about and I've not got my battery left on my computer so I'm shutting off for the night....

Night!

I'm so stuck

On where I'm going with my story at the moment.

I know where I want it to end, it's just filling it up to then.

I mean, I don't really want to it to be pointless either.

So, I think I just need some time to work on it.

But I don't not want to be writing it. Maybe I should just go on a break for a while, until my exams are over and see how things go from there...

Anyway.

I'm going to  bed now. I've been trying to write this blog for like an hour now at most....

Night!

I was called in again... + Chapter 4

And I was really planning on writing like 2 new chapters for Forget tonight because I didn't post anything last week because I was spazzing about Soul Eater.

But, sadly, I've only managed to write one chapter.

It's quite a long chapter so, hopefully, it's okay....

Anyway.

Enjoy...

Chapter 4

It was painful. Very painful. I was suffocating. Drowning. I needed to escape. I couldn’t escape.

Hayley and Jesse needed me to be there for them.

I’m not sure how much longer I can take it.

Punch.

Kick.

Blood.

Cough.

Blood.

Hayley.

Jesse.

I’ll never leave you. I promise you.

If I ever leave you, then I have no right to call you a friend.

Someone please help me.

I jerked up. Looking wildly around the room, I noticed I was still in the same place. I was still weak. My powers weren’t coming back as fast I’d hoped.

I’ve been here a week. They keep telling me I won’t be going home until I agree to do what they want.

I don’t know what to do.

I think I know need someone to help me.

“I see you’re awake.” It was the leader.

“Like it’s any of your business.” I replied, looking up at the bland, white ceiling.

“But it is. I figure, we’re not going to convince you to do what we want you to do hauled up in here.” He said, looking at me.

“Yeah, and it took you until now to notice?”

“We need to let you go, release you to the horrors of the world. Your opinion will change.”

“And you’re so sure of this?”

“Positive.”

I didn’t answer.

“So when am I able to go home?” I asked.

“Now.” He replied. I was confused. “There’s a car waiting for you outside the house. We’ll escort you to where it is and then leave you be.”

I didn’t know how to answer.

“We’ll be back before you know it.”

“And I wouldn’t want anything else.” I replied sarcastically.

Home. Should I call it that? I’ve never really felt much for the place there. Should I be nervous about going back there? I want to go back there. I’ve argued about it for what seems like weeks, but now that the opportunity is there, I’m not so sure I want to face them.

I was weak. I couldn’t move. There was darkness on the edges of my vision.

“Danny?’ A voice called out to me.

“Oh, shit. Danny, hey, are you okay?”

“Danny?”

“Can you hear me?”

The voice was growing quieter and quieter.

Wait, don’t leave me, where am I?

Hello?

Help me! I don’t know where I am; I don’t know what happened to me.

And then there was darkness.

Hayley and Jesse were walking along the beach, this was where Danny had brought them back, though never didn’t turn back himself.

Needless to say, the both were extremely worried; they didn’t know what had happened to their friend. Though, they both knew that there wasn’t much they could do about it. They didn’t have any powers like Danny had, and they knew they’d be more of a hindrance than help.

“Why do we keep coming back here?” Jesse sighed. “It’s not like he’s going to turn up.”

“He will.” Hayley answered, her eyes on the beach in front of her.

“When? Today? Tomorrow? Next year? How do you know if he’ll turn up at all?” Jesse exclaimed, he was frustrated at how things were turning out. He didn’t know what to do, and that made him anxious.

“He’ll come back.”

It was silent for a long time after that, both looking around them in earnest, hoping, but not bringing themselves to hope too much that their lost friend would come back today.

Danny’s parents hadn’t taken it too well. When they’d heard they’d come back, the first thing they did was search out Hayley and Jesse and ask where Danny had gone. They couldn’t answer, because they didn’t know. They had not seen them since. Jamie stopped to say hello every once in a while, and came to help them catch up on their missing work. But she never really did ask much about what happened. They figured she just didn’t want to know.

They wouldn’t have wanted to know either. It was a truly horrific time in their lives. A living nightmare that was bound to be repeated to them for years to come.

Then there had been the reporters. The hounding reporters from the moment that they’d come back, they’d wanted to know everything. Hayley and Jesse, of course, hadn’t said anything. They didn’t need to know. This didn’t succeed much; the reporters knew Danny was seemingly the only one that was captured that was tortured. They weren’t too sure about Danny Istari. They’d taken a guess that he’d probably suffered the same treatment.

So, now, they wanted to find out why it was only them that got tortured and not all four of them.

They’d been catching up with their lost years of schoolwork. There wasn’t long left of the semester, but they’d figure that they’d better start now than do it all after the summer holidays.

Looking up, both noticed a body fall to the ground and men walking away.

“Who’s that?” Jesse asked.

“I don’t know. Let’s go find out.” Hayley replied, already running towards the body.

“Hello, and this is Anna Buckmaster, reporting directly from the scene where it was reported Danny Smith reappeared.” A young, female reporter said, delivering the perfect grin to the camera. “No official reports have been released yet, but we expect them to come in soon.”

“That’s sad news. Can you tell us what people have been saying his condition was like upon discovery?” A male said in ‘the studio’. His name was Hank Weatherfield, with greying hair and wrinkles lining his face.

“Well, coincidentally enough, it was his friends, Hayley and Jesse were the ones to have found him. They declined to make a comment, but people who were also at the scene when they noticed Danny being left by some strange gang of people, said that he didn’t look to be in good shape. He was unconscious and not responding to any of his friends calls.”

“Right, well, it doesn’t look to be a good situation. Did anyone get a good look at this gang of people?”

“No. They had long gone by the time anyone went looking for them.”

“Has Danny’s family been informed?”

“Yes, we do know that they have been informed and are at the hospital with him now.”

“That’s good. We’ll be back with you shortly, Anna, to get an update on this dreadful situation.”

“See you then.”

“That was Anna Buckmaster, reporting live from the scene at Ovid Hospital.” Finished the reporter before continuing with his daily news.

“Danny?” It was a voice in the distance. “Hey, is he going to be okay?”

“Yes. We’ve done all we can for him at the moment, it’s just up to him when he wakes up.” Someone else replied. Who were they? Where am I?

It was silent again. My eyelids were heavy, I couldn’t move. My body felt three times the weight that I remembered it to be. Every part of my body ached.

I groaned.

“Danny?” the voice called again. It was a female.

“Hey? Danny? Can you hear me?”

I groaned again, struggling to open my eyes.

“Hey, I think he’s waking up.”

“Hey, don’t struggle. Take your time,” another voice added.

“Who’s there?” I asked, finally opening my eyes, my vision blurred. I blinked a few times in an attempt to clear my sight.

“It’s us. Hayley and Jesse.” The girl, Hayley replied.

I didn’t reply, instead focusing on getting my sight back to normal.

Looking around properly I noticed that Hayley and Jesse weren’t the only ones in the room; Jamie, Maggie and Jim were also here. I smiled. I didn’t know what else to do.

The atmosphere was tense, no one really knowing what to say or what to do.

“So, Danny, what happened back there? With you and Danny Istari?” Jesse asked, curiosity shining in his eyes.

“Nothing much.” I replied.

“You do know you were gone for like, a week, right?” Jesse retorted.

“I wasn’t with him.”

“So, where were you?” Hayley asked, looking at me sceptically.

“Nowhere special.” I replied. I didn’t really want to tell them of what had really happened. I’m pretty sure Hayley and Jesse in particular would believe me without hesitation. Jamie probably, too. But I couldn’t say anything in front of Maggie and Jim. They’d send me straight to the local nut house.

“So, you weren’t with him?” She asked dangerously.

“No.” I replied sharply. “Will you give it a rest, please?”

She gave no reply.

It was then that I became aware of the ache in my body. I groaned.

“What’s wrong? Are you okay?” Jamie asked, jumping to my side.

“Just fine.” I replied, gripping onto my side to get rid of the pain, but it didn’t work.

“Do you need me to get a doctor?” Jamie asked.

“No.” I replied. “It’s fine.”

“It doesn’t look fine,” Jesse added.

“Please, just leave me alone.” I groaned.

“I’m going to get a doctor.” Hayley said defiantly.

No one listened to me. Was this the kind of life I’d led before?

A doctor came rushing in soon after, closely followed by Hayley.

“Danny? Can you hear me?” He asked.

I groaned in response.

“Where does it hurt?”

Stupid question.

“All over?”

I groaned. I’m hoping he took that as a yes.

“Is it getting worse?”

“What do you think?’ I gasped sarcastically.

“That’s good, you can speak.”

He walked away and did something I couldn’t see, and then suddenly the pain starting ebbing away slowly.

I let out a breath I didn’t know I’d been holding.

“Better?”

“Yeah. Thanks.” I replied, closing my eyes slightly.

“So, how have you been coping?” The doctor asked.

“Considering I wake up for about five minutes, and then suddenly, I’m covered in pain. Not so good.” I bit back sarcastically.

“And what about stuff that happened before you vanished again?”

I got the reference.

I looked at Jamie.

She got it too.

I didn’t look to Maggie or Jim. I didn’t want to see their looks of disappointment.

I didn’t look at Hayley or Jesse. I didn’t want to see their curiosity.

“Fine.”

“Just fine? You haven’t felt anything at all? No rebound effects?”

“I haven’t really had the time to really think about what happened.” I replied, and it was true. I hadn’t really just had the time to crave weed, I’d hardly even thought about it.

“That’s good. You’re mind has been occupied with something else.”

And with that he walked out.

“Do I want to know what you guys were just talking about?” Hayley asked.

“Not really.” I replied, looking down at the bedclothes. I could feel the heat and shame rising to my face. I don’t regret what I’d done, but that doesn’t mean to say I can’t be embarrassed about it…

It was an uncomfortable silence for a while after that.

“So, when do I get to leave?” I asked, looking up at everyone in the room.

“Uh, they weren’t sure sweetie, they wanted to see how you were doing first.” Maggie replied.

Well, great. I’m going to be here forever then, considering the episode I just had.

“Uh, okay.”

“Hey, Danny, can I ask you something?” Jamie asked quietly.

“As long as it’s not harmful to me.”

“Have you had any of your memories back?”

“Um.  No, not really.”

“Not really meaning?”

“I can remember what happened when I was there. That’s come back. Nothing else.”

There was silence.

It took me a while when I was with the Resistance to figure out that what I was seeing flashes of was what happened to me the first time I was there. When I tried to look back further, the wall was there again, but this time, there was a long jagged crack running down it.

I don’t really think that I lost my memories normally. Something tells me there was something else involved in this too. But, why would any of my enemies want to get rid of my memories, if what’s in my memories is what they want?

I don’t understand it at all.

So, hopefully it's not that bad. I don't really know where I'm going with this at the moment. I know how I want it to end, and I know some vague ideas for the middle, just not how to connect it all to get there...

I'll figure it all out soon.

Maybe I'll get some major inspiration soon....

Anyway...

Night!