So, I haven't been on here in forever.

So, let me get you updated on the highs and lows of my life so far... You would have thought that moving out of my house and living on my own at University would make me so much happier, right?
Wrong.

My life does have it's up moments, and it's down moments. Of course. I can never be happy according to the rule of thumb, but that's a depressing thought. And a very selfish and immature one at that. I just get so frustrated sometimes. I don't really know what to think of myself...

So, lets begin.

My first experience of 'living away' began with Alcon. I may have mentioned it on here. I may not have, but it's an anime convention. I loved every minute of it. Though I did spend most of it drunk. I think I smoked about 40 over four days that few days. But I did have a blast. I met a few people who would be in the year above me who went to DMU, where I am currently situated.

So, I started looking forward majourly to moving away. And for the first few weeks, well, the first term was great. Until the end. My flat mates and I were okay with each other. We weren't majourly close, but we got on. We went out drinking and clubbing together and I was living 'the student life'. I'd also made a close friend named Sam, to whom I spend most of my waking life.

But I also gained a boyfriend. I know. What? So not in my character, but I met him at Alcon, and we got along great. I never fancied him or anything, but I ended up sleeping with him, and then I felt bad so I agreed to go out with him so I wouldn't look like a slut.

Potentially one of the worst mistakes of my life. He was constantly depressing, insulting, so after a short relationship of two and a half months, I broke up with him. I told him he needed help and that I couldn't give it to him. He was thinking wayyy into the future too. Marriage? Seriously? I'm only 18, in university, marriage is someting so far off my mind that I don't really care about it. So, that could be considered a bitchy thing to do, but whatever.

But back to the flat mates. So, considering we don't really get alone all that well, I asked my friend Sam if she wanted to get a house with me next September (That's one thing I'm super excited for. I can't wait to get away from here...), but suddenly, after I told them at my flat that I didn't want to live with them next year, suddenly, they're not talking to me. They don't invite me anywhere. I ask them if they want to do something, and they never want to do anything. Okay, we have completely different interests. I love anime and reading, and they love Keeping up with the Kardashians (is that spelt right? Oh, wait. I couldn't care less). See the difference here? They all want the perfect life with husbands and children. I don't really care about something like that. I love listening to heavy rock, they love listening to Rihanna. The list could go on, but that's the point. We're like polar opposites. But Sam and I get along really well. I mean, she's not a fan of anime of any of my music. But we have common interests and we talk and get along very well.

Did you get all that? It seems really sloppy to me...

Anyway, so they're not talking to me, presumably because I'm not moving into a house with them. I'm kinda like, well, it's not like we got on in the first place, so what does it matter if I don't get a house with you next year? Or is that really petty? I don't know at this point. They all just give me a headache.

But anyway.

So, my life isn't in total disarray, I mean, it can sometimes get a little lonely when you find no one in your flat wants to speak to you, but what else is the internet for?

Actually, after writing about it, my life doesn't seem as bad as I first thought it was... anyway..

I'm going home for the weekend in a few weeks, so I'll get to see my family again (I find myself strangely missing them sometimes...). And my sister is coming up in two weeks or so. My weekends look like they might be filling up a bit xD

So, I'll see you whenever I guess. I'll probably just come back to complain now and again. You should know what I'm like by now... not that anyone reads this... I think it's more of a me saying it to me thing...

So, it's been a bad week.

We found out on Thursday that my mum does have cancer. It's been kind of depressing at home, so I've been trying to like go out and be with friends as often as possible.

Then, there's also the fact that, Ffion and me are leaving the city, country, whichever, in a couple of weeks so we're trying to spend our last moments together as often as possible.

So. It's been kinda depressing at home.

Not that it hasn't been for weeks.

I can't wait to get out.

But then, by leaving now, I'm leaving Sara to everything. Which I don't really like doing....

So, I don't know whether a lot has happened or not

Since I last posted my blog.

You see, any other time I hadn't blogged for a week, I, first off, feel really guilty that I haven't blogged in so long, consciously.

And secondly, that I have a lot more to talk about than now.

Well, that's not actually the case, it's putting it all into words than I'm probably having trouble with.

So, lets go from the start, shall we?

So, I've been having a lot of family trouble at the moment. My mum in particular is a problem, but, Dad usually tends to follow her choice in anything, so family trouble is family trouble.

My mum has been having shoulder problems since she was in a car accident about 11 years ago now. So, a couple of months back, the hospital finally decided that there was actually something wrong, and they did an operation in hopes of sorting everything out.

That was a failure. The hospital declared it a failure a while back, and put her on a list to have another operation. So, we've got this one thing looming over our heads at the moment.

So, a few months down the line, I find myself in a car accident myself. It was two weeks ago yesterday, so I probably did mention it. There's not much to really talk about concerning the accident. It's the aftermath that's being a bit of a bitch.

So, we're all on compensation claims. I mean, I was hurt. My neck, and my back and arms were all stiff. Though, they are getting better at the moment.

So, we've got all this insurance and claims thing looming over us.

So, basically on the same day, my mum comes out with a thing of, she might have cancer, and is being tested for it. On the day of the crash, she went to the hospital to have some camera shoved up her ass, I can't really remember what it was called, but, they found a lump in her bowel (there's a history of bowel cancer in the family, so she went to see if there was a possibility of her having it too), so, all last week she was having tests, and us, as the rest of her family, were basically not allowed out of the house unless it worked for her.

So, after that, and missing a chance to hang out with my friends, because of these tests. The hospital ring us to tell us we'll have to wait a little longer for the results because the main doctor in all this, has suddenly decided to take a holiday.

So, we've now got this all hanging over our heads too.

Then, I went out drinking with friends Friday night. Well, friends and my friends friends from work. Know what I mean? I've met them before and they seem to be nice people, so there was no worry there.

Well, there shouldn't have been.

Jordan, was flirting with a boy from Cerys' work (Cerys is the friend with the ones from work), whom Cerys has the hots for. Basically, this outing into town was to see if we could set these two together because he seemed to be interested in her, and she was interested in him. So, to see how things went, we sorted it the British way. Getting drunk.

So, instantly as the alcohol is starting to set in. Jordan is flirting with the boy in front of Cerys. Cerys is getting extremely upset about this because Jordan knows who she's flirting with, and he's flirting back with her.

So, after a while, one of Cerys' work friends sorts it out and tells Jordan what she's doing wrong. So, Jordan becomes all apologetic. But basically continues doing it.

So, yesterday now, Jordan added them all as friends over facebook, and is wondering when they're all going out again because Jordan wants to go out with them all again. This upsets Cerys even more because she thinks Jordan is after him.

Jordan went out again last night for one of her other friends 18th. And was texting Cerys all night if she could have his number, and was badgering her for his number. Basically begging her for his number.

Cerys kept saying no, which got Jordan angry.

They seem to be fine today. But Cerys is pretty pissed off with Jordan because Jordan knew the whole situation and was still going at it. And I'm kinda stuck in the middle because I don't want to lose either friend because I'm leaving soon and I don't want to be leaving on bad terms.

So, we're all going out to see a film (Captain America) on Wednesday night. We're going to eat in T.G.I. Fridays before hand. So, it should all be good.

And hopefully everything will have settled down by then.

Another thing to add that's hanging over my head (and has been since I finished my A Levels) is results day. Which is a week Thursday.

It's been too long a wait. Some part of me just wants to get it over with. Another part of me doesn't want to know because I know I haven't done all that good in them....

Anyway, after a surprisingly long blog tonight. I'm heading off to bed.

Now that I've got it all written down, it does feel like a lot has happened.

Oh, yeah, and whilst I remember. Another problem to add to my growing list of problems is my DVD drive on my computer doesn't work anymore. I had to take it to Apple last week to get someone to pull a DVD out of it for me, and they basically said unless I'm willing to hand out £180, I'm basically going to have to live without a DVD drive.

Which sucks because I can't afford that at the moment.

But anyway.

I'm going to bed now.

Night!

So, the start of a new week.

And hopefully, this week'll be a good one. But. hopefully saving all the extreme good luck to August the 18th, where I get my A Level results.

I most certainly need a lot of luck for that.

On a bright note, I watched a couple of trailers today for films I'd like to see...

This is the Amazing Spider-man trailer. I haven't exactly been keeping up with the progress of this film. I just knew it was coming out next year.

I did not know that they'd finished shooting the film, and a trailer had been released... Ooops.

Anyway this is the trailer for that.

I think it looks pretty awesome...



This is a short preview for The Avengers. Which, looks pretty awesome too... (It won't let me embed it...)

http://youtu.be/hcDTuinqk2Q

This is the trailer for a Guillermo del Toro film, it actually looks quite creepy and scary. Not that I'd expect anything less from him...





This is a film called The Silent House. It's in a foreign language, but that doesn't matter. It still looks pretty awesome. Though, I don't think it'll be hitting my shores....





And this is The Dark Knight Rises. The new Batman film. 


http://youtu.be/apMXFloDH6M


That also won't let me embed...


So, so far, it looks like it could be a good time for films next year. Excluding Don't Be Afraid of the Dark and the Silent House as they are due to be released this year. Apparently, the Silent House has already come out according to youtube. Who knows.


So, next year, we have 


The Amazing Spider-Man
The Dark Knight Rises.
The Avengers.
The Hobbit part one.


And my sister will kill me if I don't mention this one.


Percy Jackson and the Sea of Monsters I think this one is called.


I read the books, but this was going back a while now....


Night!

So, my week has actually been shit.

So, on Monday, I was in a car accident.

Tuesday, I was aching all over with whiplash.

Wednesday, I was ill all day with some viral infection.

Today, well, I've got a DVD stuck in my computer that refuses to be ejected. Then, my parents refused to let my sister and I go to London for a couple of days in August. I can understand their reasons. Mam might be in hospital having an operation.

But sometimes, I feel like they just want to put my life on hold just because one thing goes wrong.

I never hear the end of it. It's like I can't live my own life.

Then, they get insulted when we don't ask Mam how she's feeling in the morning, because it's apparently inconsiderate.

Honestly, it's like, I'm not allowed to live anymore.

I understand it's a difficult situation. Trust me I do.

But I just don't understand how this is supposed to affect my daily life....

Anyway.

Another reason they wouldn't let us go is because of Samuel.

Of course, he takes president over everything in this house. We cant do anything in this house until we know what Sam's going to be doing.

I'm just really frustrated I guess....

So, I'm going to bed now.

Night!

My Blog seems to have become

Just a place for me to explain why I didn't blog the night before.

Which, is not my intention for blogging.

I know when I first started blogging my intention was to blog whenever I could. But since then, it became some sort of thing where I felt really bad when I didn't blog for like, a day.

Sometimes, most of the time, I find that I have nothing to blog about.

And it would be better if I blogged when I had something to say instead of everyday saying that  didn't really have all that much to blog about.

Not that this means that I'm going to stop blogging because, generally, my life if full of nothing's anyway....

So, moving on.

I didn't blog yesterday because I was  out with Sara and my brother. We went to the pub. It was late when I came back, and to be honest with you, I just couldn't be bothered.

I was in a car accident yesterday. Nothing too serious, I'm just super achy.

I still went to work afterwards. I did  consider calling in sick, but then, I do need the money.

It was hellish, but what can I do?

So, nothing much else had happened with me.

I'll save the whole, I can't wait to get out of Swansea thing for tomorrow.

Night!

And I thought,

After a weekends worth of work, that by now, my weeks would be a little bit emptier.

But nope.

Welcome to the Summer holidays.

Where, I'll probably end up working. Though, at the moment, there is quite a lot of competition of hours and pay. Seen as though everyone else is also on holidays too.

So, now, I'm working tomorrow.

And I know I'll probably be called in, where, I'll promptly tell them to go and call Matt, who wants the shifts more, and to call me at a more decent hour to work maybe 10-2, because that works out better for me. :D

Like hell would that ever work...

Anyway.

I'm going to bed now, seen as though nothing interesting ever happens in my life.

Night!